Yesterday I decided to take the trip to go to mass at Ave Maria…. to see how long it really woudl take to drive there… to go to the 7pm mass… and to finally give  the church  a  card i had written a long time ago. It really didnt take as ling as i had been told… i had been told it woudl take an hour.. and tons of gas… 

I had been to the campus ages ago… when it first opened and there was a condo open house…also checking on classes… but they didnt have an MBA program set up yet.. and then again when i hear that the law school would be movign to the campus… also i wnet on a hunt for housing.. I even found this gret condo… for some reason the builder hadnt finished it.. and it appered to be findidhed with idems that didnt match… i actually called my cousin and told him what a great find… I  coudlnt buy it myself.. but i know it will evenutally be a gem… I actually thought of that condo wheile driving there.. also played a ton of music… and sang tons of songs… where no one could hera me way out there… and with really no one near by at all…….HA! 

It didint really taek that long nor the huge amount of gas i thought  it might…. enough said.. of gas adn time….

but even though i got there.. mind you jsuta little bit late… teh entrie town was very empty… and low  and behold.. it is spring break! HA!!!!!! i found out this bit of informtioan form the one religious store that was open and the  one clerk who was stil working…. 

The church was still open so i went  inside and said part of  my novena…  while in the church… and there was one gentleman who was also in the church praying… i actually thought of saying hi… but didnt want to interupt while he was praying… also dint think of saying hi until after i was in my car and on my drive home…. Hummmmm he looked cute from the back of his headHA!  I did get to sign in and put in a petition  in writing… and also give a small donation….  and  even went to the chapel to say another prayer… thn home…

I stopped at publix and got some groceries.. then  a quick pick for lotto and a quick pick for power ball…. but when the lotto ticket came up it had some “extra”   that would have cost 2 extra dollars…. so I gave it back and got another quick pick… so this is my question…. 

what if i gave back my winning ticket? I mean if there is destiny… or fate.. or whatever… and mistakes are really supposed to happen…. then giving the  ticket back.. was tht the wrong thing to do? or should i have kept that ticket and then bought an extra ticket?  what do you think? can youimagine… my huge financial miracle going  to someone else?   I hate second guessing myself…. but then.. if or  something is supposed to happen…. then youcant make any mistakes.. rihgt?

anyone seen serendipity?  john cusack? I jsut bought “runaway jury”…. love it…. but already own serendipity…. the idea of fate… of things happening no accidents….  things will happen no matter what… you will end up with the right person no matter who your with today…. and so on that same thought…. will youend up with teh life you are supposed to have no matter what? business will succeed… or lottery wins.. or  # children?   or like in runaway jury… can maen ( ie mankind) manipulate lives and outcomes….. interesting rihgt?  How do you believe?                     

subject:  the latest from dj
date:  8/18/03 3:33:26 PM eastern daylight time 
from mattie ziska@bxgcorp.com
to:  Mayjziska@aol.com 

9th annual clambake ad road race 2003 summary 

It was the best of itmes, it ws the worst of times.  Overall the best turnout we have had!  congratulations on making the 9th annual clambake and roadrace at the Holiday house so memorable .. You guys ar the ones that make it happen and worthwhile.  so without further delay  here is this years summary. 

Friday-
I must say that your travel agents are doing a much beter job these days or the weather is truly cooperating I can rememver a fefw yeaers wher many of you strolled into teh boar house between 12:30 all the wa to 4:30 am Ugghh.  Kudos go outto Bo for the longest flight (hrs) althoguh the lovely erika flew the farthest form Cancoouver.  Also represented this year were Atlanta, DC, NY FL, MA VT CT TN and Tesas.  so htere you are a true conservative melting pot anyway you guys did a great job finding your rooms anieth aid of a room nap ( yes i had my doubts) 

The Kidd- a realatively mello might on the town but the two wave dinner plan seemed to work pretty well.  Even better was htis year additon of the boat taxi into town.  I really stood my gorund about not taking the boat.  the best was chuck who really thought it was a bad idea until i reminded him of his unrelentless persuation a few years ago to voyage over to martha’s vinyard a 5am for breakfast.  Chuck quckly succumbed.  Ifigured I had to get the whaler used someitme during the weekend. 

BeerPong- Uh boy!  Lets just say this was the year of the Dud.  After performing like a blindfolded chimp, my unsuspecting aprtners hd to endue an uncharacteristically semi coordinated. paddle busting pong failure ( for the record matties  paddle she gave me idi not break though andy anger.  jay is a liar.  Ask him to swear him stoy on the success of his marrigae and the trugh will indeed be revealed)  that eing siad I’m so glad I  introduced the score board his year.May futiel attempts  to effacce all reords were spoiled by the overabundance of digital fricking cameras.  the results of Ponf are as follows:
win- Chuck
place -Jay
show- Bo

Extra curricular activities.  Fully clothed swims, Bush busting raiding hidden cooke stash, forito binging

Saturday
Wakey wakey!!!!!! Sruprisingly alert morning gorup. the gorup is introduced or reaquaintd to the almight Rhonda adn very thankful for it.  coffee, bagles, muffins, advil, mro coffee, missing clothes, reappearig clean clothes, deep morning discussions.

Comet ride to Vineyard.  A new aaddition this year. Thanks to Jeff and his incredible generosity fo taking us on one of  the most beautiful and uique boats on teh cape.  Weile manyof you experesssed your incredible whaler withdrawls and some 



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  There was a great show that was featured on chanel #37  CNBC.   It was called the money chase, the featured topic was:  Inside harvard business School.  
 
The program is also available on DVD @ www.cnbcstore.com

I first saw it  ages ago  and fell in love with  the  business classes and program…even the MBA program…. and when i started looking into the harvard executive programs. 

the program mentioned that it is harder these days getting past the glass ceiling without an MBA….  

the demanding standards… about creating leaders who make a difference…. about leaving a legacy… about problem solving … making goood action plans… 

a story about a woman who had cancer, and who created a foundation to help with  research and being able to consolidate   and share the research material… so that more could be done to create a cure….  the way she was taught to reason/ problem solve… she gave credit to Harvard for the lessons she learned…

So just  found a paper I had written …notes from the show… and remembered all over again hwo much i had liked the program….. and still want to take the classes… 

fingers crossed… and prayers said… and wishes made…..   

This is the  link from an article online from the wallstreet journal… I love this organization…. promotes business.. women and really can make a difference… I joined it years  ago… and get emails from  them with the most interestiing  articles…. and they have amazing webnars….with such helpful adivce… I wish they had them every week! 

This entry was posted in Uncategorized on March 5, 2011 by mary jean ziska.

I always wrote letters and cards… and my mom saved and entire bin of them but one year her friend carol and her I was told went through a bunch of her things and wither put them away or gave them away to someone … so this is about the only letter I have left from my time at school in Cap Dail… I always wonder if the same imposter who took my baby blanket  or my pictures  of my backpacking in Europe… or even if she took all the  dolls  that I collected throughout  my childhood  of all  the places we traveled… (I only have my Dutch doll and my German Hummel dolls…) anyway.. Since last week some girl or boy stole a bunch of my sorority. Date function pictures.. from college… and since these same ruthless and horrible  girls will pretty much take and steal anything they want I  thought I‘d better make sure I had some type of back up for more of my life that I don’t want these girls to steal…. so a few memorabilia letters.. Emails… and probably about everything on my college wall… will somewhere be on this website…  these scummy people think that if they steal these bits and pieces of my life… then …. Well I actually can’t assume to think anything like them.. They are criminals… who have no concept of right or wrong… and they are really the lowest form of parasites possible… organisms that feed off others…  the sad thing is one day something will happen to them.. Call it karma… or god or justice… but one day they will have to be held culpable for their actions… I can’t wait for that day…. I pray every day for for the day when they feel the hand of justice on their lives… I pray it is soon… 

I   am still really upset about the pictures…. and still really upset about the bin of cards… and my  baby blanket and the pictures from my backpacking… or even my entire living  overseas experience…

Its the  weirdest  thing… these “scummy  wanna be girls” from where ever…. like Ohio state.. Or new jersey… or god only knows who I am being mixed up with again…  they go out of their way to try to or want me to appear to be uncultured… to not have traveled… to not have any class or taste… and basically keep trying to  ruin my life…  I am not saying I am perfect. Or even close… I just want to be able to be me… if I want to watch Joel Osteen and order a DVD I am free to do that… I am also free to go to catholic mass… and to even go shopping and like and want to have nice classic styles… or good quality merchandise…  If I don’t want to drink alcohol… or don’t feel like embarrassing myself at a bar… I am 44 years old… and I can choose my own life… my own friends … my own mentors… quit trying to manipulate my life… I’m sure your little “princesses”  will be able to snag or catch which ever boy they have decided to  catch…  just quit ruining my  life……

 I never did anything to any of these girls…they used me like some pet they could manipulate…… someone they have a right to  manipulate… which they don’t… I never tried to make anyone look bad… and never said anything bad about anyone until Karen kahel  bullied me… 

I  never did anything to any of these girls… who take it upon themselves to lie and cheat and steal…. do they think they are above the law? Or the freaks that aren’t actually genuine… and play games… with my life… that do they think they are?  Instead of choosing to make lives better… their insistence of lowering my lifestyle… my goals… my wishes and my dreams… well I must say it is really rotten… 

Could they be that  insecure to make others look bad to try to make themselves look good? … I mean their lives must have had something that was unique… or original… I mean maybe they aren’t artistically inclined… or have never traveled or never lived over seas… or went to boarding school… SO WHAT>>>>so what if you can’t create a business…..

But you shouldn’t have to steal other peoples work… I mean it’s not something I would ever do… but since these girls show no grasp of the entire morals and values… and eithics…. it must be something they learned in childhood..Right? The bullies who continue to feel small and only feel powerful when they can pick on someone … or I guess steal from someone…  I am pleading to you rotten and horrid girls and boys… please don’t pass these horrid traits onto your children… you bullies make the world a horrid place to  live… and  one day all the lies you tell will eventually catch up with  you… Of course I personally hope the laws that you break… (You know) verifiable laws that protect us….  trespassing, stealing… I hope they catch up with you sooner than later… and perhaps while you are sitting in jail you may just get a chance to think of what you have done to others… but sadly…  maybe you won’t actually amend your ways…  until it happens to you…or your children… or someone you actually love… that is if you have the capacity to love..Or feel anything for anyone but yourselves… which may not be the case… anyway…..  Then you will start to think of how others were harmed by your actions… who knows maybe you will even feel remorse… but that may be asking far too much for the likes of you….. . 

But what I don’t understand is why these scummy parasites…why they  can’ t leave those of us who have … had a great life… why can’t you stop ruining our lives  and just  put all your energy on  trying to  get that special guy to actually like you..By knowing who you are really are… no lies… not being fake… or the con artist/actors you really are….or the you. That you are pretending to be…Who knows… maybe somewhere in that nasty and vile person that you are today which has to lie and cheat and steal… maybe somewhere… lurks a decent person…
(I seriously doubt it… but who knows?????????????????????????????????????) 
  
Final note…   I want all my possessions back…. I want all the letters… the clothing the jewelry… the cards the baby blanket… the pictures… I want it all back and I will not rest and will not stop trying to make sure justice is done until you are found…  prosecuted for your crimes… And items are returned… I mean really girls… get your own life… it couldn’t have been that horrible?

Anyway here is the letter I wrote October 03, 1984
Dear Mom, Mattie, and Maura,
I got your letters today with Jennifer’s address and letter inside.  Thank you very much! Today was the second day of classes and it’s pretty difficult since I’m going to be her for three months I may switch down to a little easier level and review everything, I’ve learned before. 

I’ve really met some nice people her that I’m sure I’ve told you about.  Lucie and I have become great friends and do lots of things together. Last night was a blast! 
Wee went down to Cap Dail to have some hot coco at this little cake called Edmonds and met claes and Thomas there! These are the e tow Swedish guys that I’ve met.  They are so nice and Thomas is super cute. Lucie really likes Thomas but last night he was really a big flirt and I was flirting right back!  If they come to Florida for x-mas do you think we could house them  for a few days before they go onto Houston- they are very nice and I’m sure they would not be a bother because right now they are working an d helping out this guy jean.  They are so much fun and I’ve already said yes can they come and stay for a while? Please? I know you would like them! Thanks!

The brunch does sound like a huge success! It’s too bad there weren’t that many people- but 55 is a lot- you’re just used to the huge turnouts they had in Saudi!  When you write to him (father Watrin) please tell him I said hello and Helen and everyone o.k.? 

Maura told me about the birthday party- sounded like great fun!  

I tried calling Sylvie and I got his French lady who said I had the wrong number or something.  I think I shall try again soon because I would like to see her. I’ve met a very nice girl named Lucie and she reminds me a lot of Sylvie infact I almost got her names mixed up a few times.  We are really a lot alike and have great fun traveling and exploring.  

On Sunday we walked to Monaco together! It was terrific- First off there are some really nice girls one is from the states New York and went to school at Andover- please ask Maura who we know from the at school- I know we do but I cant for the life of me remember who!  Anyway she’s nice I asked her and her roommate to join us and they did.   So we trucked it on over and split up after a while and Lucie and I went along!  It was a blast because we are really a lot alike it’s funny because we are always spotting the same cute guys! Anyway, just  after we split up we started watching a race  and I saw Anna Polk for Saudi Arabia- she was pretty skinny dressed very nice and had part of her blond/white hair dyed black- she said tootie left Saudi and she was still  in school in Switzerland and spending eh weekend in Monaco.. How freaky I don’t know if she remembered my name I don’t think so. I’m not sure if she really knew who I was!  Ha! Then we ran into Lucie’ next door neighbors who were supposed to be in Germany! Ha!  Wait… then as we were walking along the side walk this Mercedes pulls up with these two older guys and they invite us to go out and have drinks they were pretty disgusting so we politely declined their offer- as we kept walking we saw one of the Monaco soccer players that we had met at the disco the night before ( but that is an entirely different story I’ll tell you later ) anyway, he told us a good place to get hot chocolate and we went We were wearing shorts but looked very nice and even go into the casino ( where you’re not allowed unless your 21 years old HA!)
The cafe de Paris was really filled so we went to go and have lunch at another cafe that Lucie knew about- as we were walking we saw this super cute guy that I thought was probably French I guess I said hi to him but I can’t remember – we went to the cafe and sat down and 5 minutes later guess who shows up.. This cute guy with a friend.  We  had delicious French onion soup and desert and as we were finishing- these two guys walk up to us and invite us for drinks at the café de Paris later that evening- We said yes around *;30-9:00pm As we started walking back to Cap Dail this same Mercedes drives up HA! These guys ask us again to go for drinks and even to go and see their yacht- we declined their offer and they made us promise that the third time we’d bump into them that we would have drinks- not even really thinking we got rid of them by saying yes sure – well they went down to the end of the street and turned arondHA! They must have been really been desperate because they again asked us… When n we said no we had plans for the evening they said they if they fell through we were to meet them at 9:00pm at the hotel de paris Ha Ha!  It was terrible that was the time the other guys were supposed to meet us! Ugg!  Lucie and I went and got ready and claes and Thomas came by it was so fun because I’ve never really had a guy watch me put on makeup and stuff- I was dressed and just had to low dry my hair and l they seemed pretty amazed at how girls can transform themselves quickly !  We got ready pretty quickly and went to go meet (Peter and John Paul) that’s their names but just as we got to the café those 2 old dudes showed up UCK! Luckily I saw (P & JP) and so we again declined their offer for a drink on their yacht!  We had a nice time visiting with them and after a drink at the café we went to another small café near the beach.  It was very nice they said they would call but never did… Of well a week later we saw John Paul at the café again and talked with him for a while. He was o.k. Peter was nicer but john Paul was very good looking- There is this guy Louis who is super nice and I think he likes me. He is pretty good looking had these beautiful eyes and is super nice but I really don’t want to start seeing anyone her especially if they live her because things could really get sticky if things didn’t work out! There is this Gorgeous (I am not exaggerating at all!! Guy he is tall with brown hair and blue eyes great features but is older His exact age is 31! I have the biggest crush on him but he doesn’t even know I’m alive Lucie and I have gotten a ride from him into Monte Carlo and talked to him He’s American (HA!)   

That is all I have of the letter…. …I didn’t know I would have to keep such strict tabs of my entire life and possessions… so the freaks don’t think my life is some kind of community property….. Where someone thinks they can pick and choose and steal bits and pieces of my real life…. Once again… note to the scumm… go and get your own life…     

 I always wrote letters and cards… and my mom saved and entire bin of them  but one year her friend carol and her i was told went  through a bunch of her things and wither put them away or gave them away to someone … so this is about the only letter i have left from my time at  school in Cap Dail… i always wonder if the same imposter who took my baby blanket  or my pictures  of my backpacking in Europe… or even if she took all the  dolls  that i collected throughout  my childhood  of all  the places we traveled… ( i only have my dutch doll and my german hummel dolls…)  anyway.. since last week some girl or boy stole a bunch of my sor. date function pictures.. from college… and since these same ruthless and horrible  girls will pretty much take and steal anything they want I  thought I‘d better make sure I had some type of back up for more of my life that i don’t want these girls to steal…. so a few memorabile letters.. emails.. and probably about everything on my college wall… will somewhere be on this website…  these scummy people think that if they steal these bit sand pieces of my life… then …. well i actually cant assume to think anything like them.. they are criminals… who have no concept of right or wrong.. and they are really the lowest form of parasites possible… organisms that feed off others…  the sad thing is one day something will happen to them.. call it karma.. or god or justice.. but one day they will have to be held culpable for their actions… I cant wait for that day…. I pray everyday for  for the day when they feel the hand of justice on their lives… I pray it is soon… 

I   am still really upset about the pictures…. and still really upset about  the bin of cards.. and my  baby blanket and the pictures from my backpacking… or even my entire living  overseas experience…

Its the  weirdest  thing… these “scummy  wanna be girls” from where ever…. like ohio state.. or new jersey.. or god only knows who I am being mixed  up with  again..  they go out of their way to try to  or want me  to appear to be uncultured.. to not have traveled.. to not have any class or taste… and basically keep trying to  ruin my life…  I am not saying i am perfect. or even close.. I just want to be able to be me… if i want to watch joel Osteen and order a dvd i am free to do that .. i am also free to go to catholic mass.. and to even go shopping and like and want to have nice classic styles… or good quality merchandise..  If i don’t  want to drink alchol… or dont feel like embarasing myself at a bar… I am 44 years old… and i can choose my own  life .. my own friends … my own mentors… quit trying to manipulate my life… I’m sure your little “princesses”  will be able to snag or catch which ever boy they have decided to  catch…  just quit ruining my  life……

 I never did anything to any of these girls…they used me like some pet they could manipulate…… someone they have a right to  manipulate… which they don’t… i never tried to make anyone look bad… and never said anything bad about anyone until karen kahel  bullied me… 

iI  never did anything to any of these girls… who take it upon themselves to lie and cheat and steal…. do they think they are above the law? or the freaks who aren’t actually genuine.. and play games.. with my  life… who do they think  they are?  Instead of choosing to make  lives better… their  insistence of lowering my lifestyle.. my goals.. my wishes and my dreams… well i must say it is really rotten… 

Could they be that  insecure to make others look bad to try to make themselves look good? … I mean their lives must have had something that was unique.. or origional.. I mean maybe they aren’t artistically inclined.. or have never traveled or never lived over seas.. or went to boarding school… SO WHAT>>>>so what if you can’t create a business…..

But you shouldn’t have  to steal other peoples work… i mean its not something i would  ever do.. but since these girls show no grasp of the entire morals and values.. and eithics …. it must be something they learned in childhood..right? . the bullies who continue to feel small and only feel powerful when they can pick on someone … or i guess steal from  someone..  I am pleading to you rotten and horrid girls and boys… please don’t pass these horrid traits onto your children… you bullies make the world a horrid place to  live… and  one day all the lies you tell will eventually catch up with  you… Of course i personally  hope the laws that you break.. (you know) verifiable laws that protect us….  tresspassing,,, stealing… i hope they catch up with  you sooner than later… and perhaps while you are sitting in jail you may just  get  a chance to  think of what you have done to others… but sadly…  maybe you wont actually amend your ways…  until it happens to you..or your children… or some one you actually love.. that is if you have the capacity to love..or feel anything for anyone but yourselves.. which may not be the case… anyway…..  then you will start to think of how others were harmed by your actions.. who knows maybe you will even feel remorse.. but that may be asking far to much for the likes  of you….. . 

But what i dont understand is why these scummy parasites…why they  can’ t leave those of us who have … had a great life… why can’t you stop ruining our lives  and just  put all your energy on  trying to  get that special guy to actually like you..by knowing who you are really are.. no lies.. not being fake… or the con artist/actors you really are….or the you . that you are pretending to be…Who knows.. maybe somewhere in that nasty and vile person that you are today which has to lie and cheat and steal… maybe somewhere… lerks a decent person…
(I seriously doubt it.. but who knows?????????????????????????????????????) 
  
Final note…   I want all my possessions back…. i want  all the lettters… the clothing the jewlery… the cards the baby blanket… the pictures.. i want it all back and i will not  rest and will not stop trying  to make sure justice  is done until  you are found…  prosecuted for your crimes.. and items are returned… I mean really girls.. get your own life… it couldn’t have been that horrible ?

Anyway here is the letter i wrote October 03, 1984
Dear Mom, Mattie, and Maura,
I got your letters today with Jennifer’s address and letter inside.  Thank you very much! Today was the second day of classes and it’s pretty difficult since I’m going to be her for three months I may switch down to a little easier level and review everything, I’ve learned before. 

I’ve really met some nice  people her that i’m sure I’ve told you about .  Lucie and i have become great friends and do lots of things together. Last night was a blast! 
Wee went down to Cap Dail to have some hot coco at this little cake called Edmonds and met claes and Thomas there! These are the e tow swedish guys that I’ve met.  They are so nice and thomas is super cute. Lucie really likes Thomas but last night he was really a big flirt and I was flirting right back!  If they come to Florida for x-mas do you think we could house them  for a few days before they go onto houston- they are very nice and I’m sure they would not be a bother because right now they are working an d helping out this guy jean.  they are so much fun and I’ve already said yes can they come and stay for a while? Please? I know you would like them! thanks!

The brunch does sound like a huge success! Its too bad there weren’t  that many people- but 55 is a lot- your just used used to the huge turnouts they had in saudi!  when you write to him (father watrin ) please tell him I said hello and helen and everyone o.k.? 

maura told me about the birthday party- sounded like great fun!  

I tried calling Sylvie and i got his French lady who said i had the wrong number or osmething.  I think i shall try again soon because I would like to see her. Ive met a very nce girl named Lucie and she reminds me a lot of sylvie infact I almos tgot her names mixed up a few times.  We are really a lot alike and hae gret fun traveling and exploring.  

On sunday we walked to Monaco toether! it was terrific- First off htere are some really nice gilrs one is from teh states new yourk and went to school at Andover- please ask Maura who we know from the at school- i know we do but i cant fo rthe life of me remember who!  Anyway she’s nice I asked her and her roomate to join  us and they did.   So we trucked it on over and split up after a while and Lucie and I went along!  It was a blast becaue we are really a lot alike its funy because we are always spotting the same cute guys! Anyway, just  ater we split up we started watching a race  and I saw Anna Polk for saudi arabia- she ws pretty skinny dressed very nice and had part of her blond/white hair dyed black- she said tootie left saudi and she was stil  in schoolin switserland and spending eh wekend in monaco.. how feaky i dont know if she rememvbered my name i dont think so. I’m not sure if she really knew who i was!  Ha! then we ran into Lucies’ next door neighbors who wer supposed to be in Germany! Ha!  wait.. then as we were walking along te side walk this mercades pulls up wiht these tow older guys and they invite us to go out and have drinks they were pretty disgusting so we polietly declined their offer- as we kept walking we sw oneof the Monaco soccar players that we had met at the disco the night before ( but that is an entirely different story I’ll tell you later ) anyway, he told us a good place to get hot chocolat and we went We wer wearing shorts but looked very nice and even go into the ecasino ( where your not allowed unless your 21 yars old HA!)
The cafe de paris was really filled wo we wnt to go and hve lunch at anothe cafe that Luci knew about- as we were walking we saw this super cute guy that i thoguth was probably french I guess i said hi to him but i cant rememer – we went to the cafe and sat down and 5 minutes later guess who shows up .. this cute guy with a friend 
and       

a card to my mother:  
Dearest mom, I can’t begin to tell you the amount of love, devotion, faith , trust and friendship I have for my mother… you were my mentor into the world of business, style, grace,  and poise..you were laughter, smiles, hugs and home,…you were feelings of safety, security, and unconditional love! 
You were my strength when i was weak, or frightened you were my friend, my mother- my movie and shipping companion- my religious backbone and a fellow cooking “experimenter” you taught me about etiquette,  style, manicures, pedicures, tasteful living and all the  wonder and beauty life could offer- you gave me life enhancing expediences, world travel, connections to amazing  and influential people ….You encouraged me to live the best life possible and  be the best person possible – you were fun talented, and i admired and loved you more than you will ever know!  May your life and birthday bring you as much happiness/love and gifts as you have given to others…may God protect you may your future be prosperous fun joyful easy and filled with laughter love and may you be surrounded with friend family and gave all your dreams and wishes came true- Every wish.. may God grant you the millions you deserve the peace and prosperity you are entitled to and the love unconditional love of all  around you! All my luv mary jean ziska   


Card to my dad: 
This day could come and go  without having the opportunity to thank you and tell you how much I appreciate having you as a father.. But I couldn’t let that happen.. so here goes… 
Growing up with so many advantages, opportunities and blessings was definitely in part due to your wise choices, and our concern for  you family.
You were bigger than life , stronger than Hercules, smarter than anyone i had ever met, and as handsome as a prince, as a little girl you were my strength.. I looked up to you when you were big and I was small.. you were my hero!… 
you taught me to drive a car, conquer math, you instilled in us a sense of honesty, integrity, and the knowledge of how a gentleman treats a lady.  You were witty and funny and seemed to know how to do everything I was constantly amazed.  
The times you were there to help me…
To help me get settled in college when i had an apt for the first time, to get settled in school in France when i went to school there in Cap Dail.. your letters to me when i was in boarding school… the time you spent listening to my dreams, and believing in me.. in talent I never knew I had… in dreams i never knew could come true… all the while providing us with everything.. YOU WERE & ARE THE BEST!
being father’s day you’ve heard it a million times.. but here s one more.. Thank You and Happy Father’ Day…
…Dad, I cant wait for the day you walk me down the isle, hold my children in you arms and watch yet another generation learn from their parents… I can’t wait to go to you for advice and see the pride in your eyes when a grandchild of yours is able to appreciate you as much as i have….. Dad I love you with al my heart, luv your first born daughter, mary Jean ziska   

Card to my sister maura at  her baby shower:
Dearest Maura, the entire experience of pregnancy is just about to end and int this world will come forth a joy , a child to be cherished, loved and well cared for by you and Eric- I couldn’t imagine choosing better parents for your little miracle ! you will make an excellent mom and your little miracle will want  for nothing.. the best parents.. location… schools.. friends.. and best life possible is awaiting her future – May she be as well loved as you are by your friends/family/acquaintances…May she grow in to an amazing woman just like her mother- Maura have a wonderful baby shower and know you are loved and cherished by all those around you  today and always. Luv mary jean ziska  



card to Eric and my sister Maura on the birth of their daughter:
Today,  you  officially became parents to a lovely little girl.  You will form this point forward be known as mom and dad, provider, protector and all knowing loving ..well. basically great parents! 
Maura and Eric.. both of you will be fabulous parents! the  love, knowledge and wisdom you will be able to impart to your daughter will set forth the standard by  which she will grow develop and will be the standard for future generations!  
May your love for each other be reflected in her eyes her entire life-
may your faith, principles, morals and values be reflected in her actions her entire life-
May your faith, principles, morals and values be reflected in her actions her entire life- May your laughter over ride any tears or fears she may face and may you be blessed with a strong and loving family your entire life! congratulations, All My luv Mary Jean Ziska 

a card to my sister Mattie: 
Dear Mattie, 
May you have the love you desire for your entire life!  May you find the perfect Mr. right who compliments your positive attributes, who appreciates your talents, and gifts and who cherishes your personality, you kindness, intelligence, love of family, friends and who really loves you and more importantly is worthy of your love!  
Mattie, as you sister, I’ve known you my whole life, I’ve watched you choice in friends in men and in careers- I’ve seen you grow and develop into an amazing woman who deserves only the best!  you cherish your friends, family and you treat life with respect dignity You have been a shoulder to cry on , an ear to listen and the voice of reason, You’ve developed you talents, gifts intelligence and possess the most amazing qualities-
Your attributes , your personality, and life experiences make you one in a million! 
may you find true love worthy of all the greatness you have been you are now an you will become! your life choices will determine you future- Don’t waste a moment on that which doesn’t’ produce happiness and positive memories! 
May you look back on your life with no regrets and know your done you best- lived your fullest life possible and left no one behind.  Its a bit preachy but true… I  dint copy or plagiarize this.. I wrote it from the heart- I just want my sisters/family to have the best and want you to find true happiness peace and most importantly LOVE…. to know you’ve been loved honestly in th
is life time- to know your value your worth and the impact you future and destiny will have on the world.. ( pretty powerful right? ) Most importantly to know your life matters- dearest mattie i love you with all my heart- luv mary jean ziska  

i think it was last night or this morning when i was flipping channels and found this great new website..(www.onebillionstories.com )  I think they said it is starting… the collection of stories… but from what i gather this gentleman is or was going around collecting positive catholic stores…. of faith and god… and putting them on the website…

I just briefly went onto the website and will go explore it more… but I’m really glad to see that not only youth and technology and a positive message can come from within the catholic church…  to get a more positive message about god and god’s love and to actually feel good about myself and not give up on the novena i have now been saying for over one year and six months…
 
I’m going to email Seth and see if he has any stories of people’s novena’s being answered…Also to make a quick comment.. that under the contact information it is really easy to insert a contact box with all the  information boxes.. might be helpful for him to start with a list  he could use with constant contact, or donations… or to know his followers.. hummmm…….. i wonder if I am i being too full of questons and  suggestions.. hope he doesn’t  take it the wrong way… i just really love to see people succeed.. and be happy and he seems to be soooo passionate about  what he is doing… and it’s such a great idea.. and a great goal.. and to bring a youth movement that will sustain or help to motivate more people.. that has to be positive right? 
 
i have been listening to Joel osteen…(www.joelosteen.com)  his video streaming messages and sermons.. WOW… really powerful ….

so the ones i really like recently have been:
message: 2011-02-04  #458 God is preparing the way for victory
message: 2011-02-11  # 490 Receive your  Inheritance  
message:  2011-02-18  #491 Heaven is cheering you on
message:  2011-02-25  # 492 Hold on to your peace  
 *there was one about “2011 being the best year”…. but i  will try to look up the contact information…. 
I ordered the I declare DVD collection…. Iwas able to donate one dollar… but I haven’t received it yet…

when Iordered the gift of the GRACE DVD collection also for a donation of a dollar… I   never got it… ?????? weird right? So hopefully ups or fed ex or whoever is in charge of bringing my mail… will come .. will not miss my house this time around.. anyway, these dvd’s …. they look really positive and nice ……….

If you see any of these and have any comments about   them  ….please  let me know… lluv mary jean ziska

Well as i started today writing all that occurred in the blog for : mysearch for justice.compost… it was a horrible morning( today)  finding out that some slimy girl/boy  decided to steal some of my sor. date function pictures…  many many tears… tears.. and anger… and so much hatred for imposters and fakes and actors and con artist.. and the like… really.. Who the hell do these people think they are?

… but tonight ..or actually another whole day…. right… after midnight… so today.. this early morning. …..i am exhausted.. my eyes are burning from crying.. and this whole website and blog feature got all messed up tonight… so al in all… not the best of days.. but the reason for all of it…  started yesterday…… so who is to blame for 48 hours i can never get back?   or the pictures… am i going  to get back my life… pieces of MY LIFE!!!!!!! 

so as for this website…. and blog….the  spelling is different from  this past week when it was more like  correcting  a word document.. the little squiggly red line underneath the word you may or may not have mispelled……  a really easy way to correct as you go along.. but this blog right now… ugg  has these big yellow blocks and the word choices actualy usually block out the  sentence so it takes twice as long to  try to remember what you were trying to say..let alone what you were trying to type or spell…. anyway…  i was on the phone  twice tonight ….. blog was messed up as well as the  sign in or log in … and when trying to publish the posts was takign me right back to singing in again…… totally messed up…

But as i mentioned before i am exhaused.. so need to  get some  rest.. and try not to rember all the horrible expereinces… or people i don’t even know who hurt me…. my life…. my dreams.. and stole way too much from… me

but tonight and yesterday…. i guess i can attribute these horid events to what??? let me guess… 

maybe to keep me up set and busy……. at least that is what the white haired bully karen kahel would do.. to make me look bad while she woudl try to make her self look so great  at the expence of everyoen else… wehn she was tryign to impress some guy…. like tonght .. my fake mom was going to the airport to pick up someone   could one of the “whore to door service girls” be goign to  get ther next months service call??????

maybe it will be like when i babysat fo rthe one girl who left to go to vegas to go and get her next husband… Hummmmmmand of course.. in th eprocess ruin a famly.. and a business.. and a life…. my life adn teh thng is i never did anythign to these stupod ond horrible girls… i knwo they are not my family or my friends .. but jsut stay out of my life… and let me have my  real friends and family back!!!!!!! but as i wrote in the other post..guess they had to steal the life they never had… or willnever have … and gave me this cindrella existance… that is completely not the 7 years i had ever envisioned.. nro the 7 years i had ever wanted… . 
what horribel girls and boys.. may god never have mercy on ther souls and may they find real laws punish them for all their crimes….. and all their horrible and criminal and morally defecient t… and selfish ways…. and deeds… 


i wish i had never met any of these horibel people… i would have never had anything stolen… wouldnt have had my life destroyed…… all for a stupid girl to screw some idiot?????????  steal some more  items.. seal some idenities…  or jsut ruin some more lives?????… god i wish i had never had any of these horrile people in my life ever…..  they ruined my life and i hope there is a god in heaven who will bring justice .. since the police/sheriffs  force here in naples tries but cant seem to get them to stop…. and no one else actually take s it upon themselves to be moral or jsut and tell them to stop…. and this scummmm they have no deterrents.. so of course… beign devoid of any morals or values of decency… they wil continue to do what ever they please… whether it is hurt someone … or steal from  them… or ruin a hoiliday… or ruin any day… didint htye have any mothers or fathers who had morals??? or values?? how coudl they have grown to have none??? 

and will  no one will ever stop them from  all their their vicious and evil games that hurt real peopl’s lives… damm actors.. conartists… .. and scummm…….

YOU ARE NOT FORGIVEN!!!!!!