You know the type of guy…. doesn’t   have to be a boyfriend… or even a friend.. Could possibly be an acquaintance.. or take a moment  just while you are watching people…  you will notice this type… this person  who    only thinks of himself and his happiness… always he talks about himself .. and does it out loud as if the world needs to know his every  movement.. or thought… or how his day is /was… and how the world needs to now what he wants or needs.. like a computer or anew phone or a new car.. anything for himself… then  he talks  out loud about what his doing for himself… he brags and  lies  to pump up himself….  his life and of his wants and needs ,  no actually real concern for anyone else. Unless it profits him himself… he promises everything.. but never comes though with anything….and even when  you know the promises are fake.. that he is one of those freaks who “talk at you” like he’s some crazy person…   who in reality you will never have any real conversations.. never have any real friendship… or any real promises will ever come true… this is a person you will never be able to count on… for anything…   even though you know these things you actually  somewhere in the  bottom of your heart hope that  this freak will actually act normal…  but they /he or she will never act normal… will never be anyone  you can count on .. will always be selfish and will always ruin your life…. 

  This person who  grunts like a cave man because he cannot articulate any normal conversation… let alone  introduce any semblance of a normal and intelligent  dialogue… they type of guy who  want s his food  and cares about basic needs since he is not someone who cares the  arts.. . or self-awareness or has evolved in any way  past caveman status…..  who postures his relevance in the world by the  famous people he claims to be his friends.. Best friends of course….  and  prone to additions and elaborations to these fairy tales…  and never shows any excellence in character…  never  attempts to exhibit  any type of normal human emotion ( probably because he has no real personality or some  semblance of a personality disorder… like a narsistic     psychopath ….  Basically a total asshole.

To top it off.. when they  are  not that attractive and their personality is horrid.. they become absolutely repulsive….  Like any low life criminal scum….. Maybe it’s a third world thinking.. or acting…  believing   that girls are supposed to be  the  ones who are to do everything and anything. And somehow being born with a penis and not having the ability to do anything kind or thoughtful for anyone else unless there is an immediate pay off to them… for them… yep back to the self-involved and selfish narcissist…..  being  able to do anything  for anyone else .. Makes them somehow special.. I actually read in India they kill baby girls before they are born…. Can you believe   how horrid this is….  The belief that a  male is soo far superior that girls should not be allowed to be alive….

Not that these assholes give birth or  can  multi task and can work and keep a home and be highly educated… it’s a  stupid penis  is supposed to make them superior….. and this isn’t just in India and other third world  countries… Its all over…..  and wrong… sooooo wrong….. 

 I grew up in Saudi and the higher class people I knew who were Saudi, or from various nationalities… had manners.. had etiquette, had class/ style and were e brought up with generosity and   with decency… it ‘ your  basic asshole who uses people… yep back to the criminal element…  and low lfe scum…

 But back to today… listen up girls ..  don’t even waste time  money or  anything on assholes that are not even worthy of being friends…   I mean no cards no small gifts.. Don’t be considerate in any way shape or form… It’s completely against my nature… my mom was the person who taught me to  think of others…   she always got us small gifts.. made holidays special and made us feel loved.. Took time to listen and talk… and put together some amazing gifts. That were creative and thoughtful at the same time…    made our lives better and she taught her daughters to be the same….  I always gave cards and gifts.. if they were small.. Took time to spend time with friends and family….  One of those girl scout type girls.. Who tried to do the right thing..  unless someone has the same  values and morals.. and is as kind  or considerate as you are…. There is no need to go out of your way… I used to think it was the Christian thing to do.. you know show them the way… like in the news boys song.. “shine”… “ shine make them wonder what you’ve got

Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then  .. let them glorify the  LORD .. …….  ( later in the  song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……”  I very mistakenly thought that  I somehow  I could show them how to be kind and considerate and  Christian… go out of your way to be a good Samaritan… turn the other cheek.. all the lessons you  learn as a child through your bible stories…   in the song shine… the words go something like….“ shine make them wonder what you’ve got

Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then  .. let them glorify the  LORD .. …….  ( later in the  song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……” “..but I realized that instead of helping them it most likely will drag you down.. will ruin your life.. and will  lower your entire life…. So my view on the entire thing now.. just don’t do it… actually if I had known this  12 years ago… when my life was invaded by stupid horrid criminals… I might have saved soo much of my life… of my hopes and wishes and my dreams.. of my life… that these criminals and bullies  ruined…. … and they ruined it on purpose.. they had no remorse.. no regret.. and no apology….   its like the Stockholm syndrome… these people who you are supposed to trust… tell you they are  here for you.. but instead your life is being used by them for their  own selfish  and even at times criminal needs.. like they needed your  home … to use….or they needed your car to steal ….or they needed your  clothes to steal or wear.. or your jewelry to steal or your businesses to steal.. or  your idenity or your life to ruin .. so they can make theirs better…  knowing this and getting them out of your  life… early …… is the only way  to stop them before they really get their slimy hands into your life and into your  pocket book  …..or if you absolutely have to have them in  your life.. then protecting yourself.. and not doing anything extra.. because  sure as the sun rises.. they wll never return the favor.. they are not your true  friends.. they will never  ever help your life.. no matter how much they say they will… they lie…. They will cheat you out of your  life your   future..and  dreams .. and they will ruin holidays…. Like valentines day… or any holiday… for that matter…  and will never  even care that  that they ruined your  life..      

 I love valentines day a much as Christmas… and this last Christmas one person  made both of these days miserable.  I gave a gift, a small gift for valentines day to someone who is definitely not a friend…  not a gingerbread man.. not a man of integrity or excellence.. or possess any qualities that are admirable  or heroic…  but I’m stuck with his arrogant posturing… his selfish and self-centered   person…..  and it was my fault for trying to be nice.. for  giving gifts.. and I will never do it again…

These are the lessons from assholes that I have learned in the past 12 years… ( I thought this was a perfect time to put in this list:

1. Do not trust anyone:  most people are not good and if you open yourself to them.. they will hurt you and your life  and your finances… and most likely will harm your family and friends…

1. If you let or meet anyone who is a criminal  that opens the door for all their criminals friends  and family and will ruin your life… absolutely ruin your life

1. That if you are nice , honest, caring, loving and  truthful..  watch out… you will undoubly have your life ruined by the people who prey on the nice and innocent and honest people…

1. Once they have ruined your life you will never get it back….. and you will lose years trying…. but criminals seem to always win…at something.. just ask karne kahel the  bully who actually jumped upand down after making me cry and said she won she won….  

1. Once someone steals your identity…. They will pass it to any of their criminal friends and partners and you will never  have your life back again!

1. That god isn’t even big enough to protect you from criminals… once thy have gotten into your life and that even praying for three years evey day  using a prayer of a st jude novena . to protect you from harm… they can still hurt you….

1. That once you meet /work for a girl who  screws another guys while you are watching her  three month old child.. she has no redeeming qualities…  and  she will ruin your life.. (and bully you  and   trespass and spread  lies … because   she is evil… and anyone cheating on her husband   has no redeeming qualities…  and will never stop  hurting others until she is dead.. and then probably not even then since she will raise her children to be criminals just like herself…) 

1. That no matter what people say…. Bad people do not change….  People do not  change… a criminal is a criminal.. will think like a criminal and  act like a  criminal… a liar will always lie… even for small things…  or large tales.. they will always lie.. that a drug addict. Will always have problem with drugs and and alcoholic will always have a problem with alcohol and I learned that I don’t want any of those people ever in my life….  

1. I learned that  it is not a Christian thing to  allow those type of people in my life when they only harm my life…  and I learned  I don’t ever want them in my lie.. they will only bring my life and lifestyle down .. and ruin any chance of ever having any of my hopes and dreams to come  true….

I’ll add on…. To the list of the horrid lessons I got to learn… I actually had someone tell me it was for my own good to go through horrid people and it would “toughen me up….”   Yep.. total ass who said that….another person who should not have come into my life…..    

I don’t even thin k they raise men like that anymore.. at least I haven’t met anyone like that in at least the past  12-20 years… I  think my dad was a man raised to keep his promises..  and who would actually be someone who would honor an  agreement like that.. where you   live your life with integrity and honor…  not like so many  people….  Who  are just out for themselves… who will hurt anyone..  to get what they need…   the mentality of “ what’s in it for me….”  

I think I was really lucky that I was blessed  to be raised  by people who taught me to be considerate… to be thoughtful… to be honorable… to  be ethical….   But  on the flip side.. being raised to be honest, and truthful and trust in  people… that  actually made me really vulnerable to the scum and con-artist and criminals who  have ruined my life…..    but  growing up  in an American  community that was really safe .. a gated community in Saudi Arabia where    we didn’t need to lock our doors… and since it was a dry county. No alcohol problems…  and over all very safe  an d no real problems to deal with…. No crime since it was a country with  capital punishment… and it was really a pretty nice environment… so it was easy to be raised with values of the 1950’s….  an in a safe environment like the1950’s at least that is what my parent s told me…

Anyway… I guess when I wrote the gingerbread man story.. I really had hoped to meet a man of integrity of honestly.. a real  man  who was like a hero…  but…  no such luck… actually nothing even close…   instead  I had to deal with  the bottom of the barrel…  people who put me through horrid situations and horrid experiences….    

I told someone recently about this movie “sliding doors” with gwenth paltrow.. where    the plot goes through an entire” what if” scenario…. You know if you make this choice then these occurrences happen. But what if you had made another choice…    

If I hadn’t been raised to be  such a “good ‘ girl ..to always tell the  truth.. or to be honest and  generous.. or trusting…    or had just never met any criminals… 

My life would have been really amazing… what a waste what a shame….   No story book  twelve years of sheer bliss… and a happily  ever after ending  for my  story… ( like the story of my life… ha.. had a great beginning.. great middle.. but a horrid  time for now… so here is hoping that   things start looking up… and I can  boast of god answering prayers… of  true love still existing… and I can find that great gingerbread man… have a wonderful life… a great  life…. Where wishes and dreams do come true….     But for now.. fixing the ….hell….. a bunch of horrid people made me go through…  and trying to figure out  if there are any great  and honest people left in this world… who won’t lie to you .. steal from you and take advantage of you for their own selfish intensions….  Who honor commitments.. and who you can honestly trust… ….  And who actually makes   your life  sooo much better just by being a part of your  life…    I can’t even  tell  you  how lonely and isolated it has felt when you never meet anyone who actually could possibly be a real friend….   I’m not talking about acquaintances.. but those genuine morals and values.. and who actually  is amazing… those type of people you just  know  you will know  your entire life  and who …        would be   available to help in an emergency.. in an instant…  to help…  no questions..   just real friendship….

I guess I miss that the most… the  friendships.. long talks on the  phone with real friends you know you are building lifelong relationships… and who you can laugh with  ..who genuinely wants to spend time with you.. and who   values you as much as you value them….     Yes… the constant  contact with real friends…    would have enhance my life sooo much…        

(Of  course I am being  sarcastic… I hate the witch…. But it must take some talent to raise  children to be criminals.. I still haven’t found  out if the one little girl in port royal who stole my cashmere sweater.. and the  treasure hunt cards… and the Thomas bubble blowers…  actually was related to her… but she had the blond hair and the freckles. And the same  hair raising   persona.. you know .. when you are around pure evil and the hairs in your arm raise… yep this little girl did the same thing just like Karen…. k!

And I have a niece who has has the most beautiful blond hair.. and blue eyes… but is soo sweet… it has to be in the way the person comes into this world.. a bully  and criminals is a bully and criminal.. or the way they are raised. So if she is related to Karen kahel…. It just makes sense.. not an excuse.. but makes senses….

Opps I should say allegedly whoring around.. right.?HA! I mean if she is allowed to  say anything   and everything and I have to talk to some  witch on the phone. Who sticks up for her instead of her own daughter… .and  the idiot who comes for dinner is even going to act like the bitch…. And  to boot… I’m not  permitted to talk to any of my  real friends  who  by the way  would never say any of these things… to me… no real friend is going to  protect a bully… one  who bullied you… and protect or stick up for a girl who is  so evil she makes people cry.. on purpose.. then jumps up and down to say she won she won. Like  Charlie  sheen… she ‘s into winning…  and bulling and trespassing and I guess she believes she is above the  law or any rules.. or anything decent or noble or  honorable   When I wrote  about where are the men with integrity.. where the hell are the women with integrity.. the women who make those life long friends… that you can count on .. that   are loyal.. and decent .. and have morals and values.. and who stick up for their   friends.. and would never allow a bully “to WIN” … what is it like to talk to the enemy…. It is horrible.. it is  lonely and it is  unforgivable…..

what is it like talking to a witch..the emeny… the bully herself… who will twist words   and try to make your  life hell.. will try to  make  you  look bad.. well for the past two days on the phone that  is all it has been… I also had this person fred over for dinner  and   when she waked in with sweet bay  (susposedly… I was told  the ohio’s favorit place to shop…. ) and  then tried  to tell me acting as if he is Karen kahel… that even though  I hate her/him .. he will pray for me… what a crock. he didn’t pray for dinner… unless I pray  when I sit down and pray… before  dinner.. .but was trying to make “her” look like she is sooo saintly… a whore who  screws a guys in a pool while l I am babysitting her 3 month old son in 2005… who   purposely trespassed and bullied .. who harmed so many people  .. Without one word of sorrow…  did that whore actually think of praying for me when she was bulling me to tears(?) .. or  trespassing  to get a better chance to bully  no not one  bit of  remorse.. not one” I am sorry”…. Ever… and  to continue to do the same actions …. harass me.. and everything  she said or did.. to harm my life… no of course not but today someone is pretending that the bully and trespassing whore… is a saint.. What a  crock….

 I prayed for her too.. that one day she will be on her knees begging  for forgiveness….  And actually and for real remorseful for all the  horrid things she has done.. but t she was raised to be a  whore and a criminal.. so I ‘m not supposed to hold her responsible for her actions… I guess..  and then she has a psychology   degree so when she torments and torturers people using all her skills.. as a  vicious and brutal and mean  bully… I was told that it was alright…  thatmaking me..mary jean ziska…cry.. is supposed to be alright…  because eh is the one doing it .. right???? so what is it like to talk to an enemy and never be allowed to talk to  the actual people who really love and care for me… It sucks… I missed taking  to Kathy young… and Carolyn walters.. and  Kathie higdon… even my aunt rita would have ruined this girls life if she knew how  much she ruined mine….but then she died… so I don’t have the people I  love and who know me and love me ..and she keeps trying to isolate me from  anyone  who could be a friend… like this guy Brian.. what  if he was  someone who was great… clean cut preppy..conservative.. actually a person who wears a collared shirt to dinner…. and normal no issues and problems… and what if I actually  even  met him… and he might remind me of my old friend e scott renshw and was a real friend… who would  protect me from bullies.. and  make my life better but instead I am surrounded by pure evil… selfish evil and horrid  people who actually harm my  life… to talk to and to have in my life… just a bunch of enemies.. who  manipulate.. who still ..  bully and who  still  are as evil and fake as can be… I must say the person on the phone tonight failed  as my loving and great mom… absolutely without a shadow  of a doubt failed as a real mother….

I miss my mom and my dad and my  sisters Maura Ann Ziska and Madelon Marie Ziska and all my real cousins.. and all my real friends…. Genuine real friends….  Ones who actually make your life better… who don t bully you.. who stick up for you and  your  rights.. and for the people who   know your  positive  qualities.. and really like you… I mean really like you…. God I miss  them every day for the past ten years I miss talking to  them…. Please come find me .. Help!!!!!!!

 I hate the  horrid and fake families who have girls or boys on the phone  who do nothing  but harm my They aren’t as brutal sa the bullies who used to make me cry every  day…  but it still hurts..and it is still harming my life… ..HELP!!!!!!

… I never asked to speak to any of them… ever I call my mom’s phone number the expected expectation is that you actually reach my mom…. I  never wanted to speak to  these fakes who are in the karne kahel fan club.. ever! .. ever……… never ever wanted  to talk to any of her friends or her family… ever… I have built up ten years of hatred for all of them… I remember every moment.. and I will never forget… or forgive… the people who harmed my life…  they have nothing  positive but harm my life… and I never want them to forget the damage they purposely inflict… and the harm they  caused.. and lives they ruined…  I will never forgive them or forget any of it… they owe me ten years of my life.. and I am never forgiving them for that. Ever! I want JUSTICE!….but I must say.. I do like that new show on ABC>> revenge…HA! Hummmmm

I miss the days when I could pick up the phone and actually talk to people who knew me and loved me.. who wanted to see me or spend time with me.. who actually did want to  make my life better.. and wanted me to be happy…

Speaking of phone conversation  I wanted to mention that I had a person hand me his phone… telling me it was my cousin Greg… and Greg was supposed to e in town… and I guess was supposed to come and see me.. or at least it was someone who wanted to get into my gate….  Anyway.. the conversation seemed to be pretty nice but a red flag went up when I told him I missed having a real date… and how I haven’t had any of those real dates probably in at least ten years…. And then ( this I will never forget…) he mentioned congegial  ( they don’t even have this workd in spell check…UGGG!!)  visits… like from prison.. and I about freaked… I knew a then…. At that exact moment…  I wasn’t  talking to my cousin Greg.. who was not in town to work on a roof.. but on some asshole who used prison terms … when thinking of seeing/dating  girls.. … AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! So who the hell was I spilling my guts to… who wanted to get into o my gate?

I also know my cousin Greg owns two wine bars and a coffee shop…  and if he was visiting  Florida from  Cleveland Ohio… why the hell would he be wasting time working on a roof…. When I thought of the neighbor who has a son who is a roofer…. Was it him or one of their friends e or co workers… on the phone.. I  just  feels so violated …..when you  think you are talking to someone and you aren’t …  when the freaks are actually having this other conversation. And not even listening….. When their answers make no sense in the context of the conversation you are having…

You can’t build any  real relationships… you can’t  even get to  have any real conversations…. You are alone and isolated… with a bunch of manipulating  idiots… who couldn’t care less… and who get way with lying, cheating and stealing from me…  who ruin  your  hope s and dreams… and who stay in my life just long enough for  someone to steal my identity.. or some wish or dream or hope that I wanted… and  they don’t steal it.. they will threaten to make me  feel that it will be taken  from me…

You can’t count on these people.. you shouldn’t  trust them ..and you definitely  can’t believe them or think they are actual friends… I have quotes on my wall about true friendship ….  What makes a true friend… how to  know what a true friend   ..

I MISS MY GENUINE LOVING FRIENDS AND FRIENDS….. and it didn’t help when I had freaks.. Telling me “I want the real may jean”…. And they” miss the real may jean”  then planning on anything… one person telling you they will  give you this..or help you with that… then you count on  their word being  a verbal contract.. and being something you can count on.. and then the next minute.. it all changes.. like a total new person making up rules of what they will help you with what they will do…  and then nothing gets done and more  things are broken.. and  you learn not to count  on anyone … that  the “freaks”  will only lie to you …. Yes lie right to your  face.. or tell you something and you have to try to figure e out what  or how whatever they are saying  will  affect your life  life…  hummmmm ..

I  wonder what they are planning on stealing this  time…..  after going through  a bunch of linens.. I am missing two large body towels  and two face towels… the ones my mom bought me from Niemen Marcus…  they were in my guest bathroom.. and since I basically wasn’t allowed to have any guests… ( psycho control freaks who don’t want me to have any friends…. ) they  weren’t used… like at all… practically brand new…

When I found that on  top of  all the other things still missing ..(like my pearl earrings.. and my diamond earrings.. and   of course the  kaki cashmere sweater… and the $240.00 stolen from  my black bag… last month… still missing…)

   anyway.. I spent two days writing my name on everything… except the two ripped pillow cases that someone left in my good linins.. And two   ripped white fitted bed sheet that also someone left in my good linens….  I mean what psycho freak not only steals or takes sheets or towels. Or anything from  anyone…. ( of course I  consider that stealing… most normal people do… right?)  but  then to rip them and then  put them back (?) .. what? like I wouldn’t notice?  

Anyway…. Besides someone thinking that I  am married.. or dating someone… or  some nationality that I am not… or any of the milions of stories that are completely untrue…. I just really miss my  genuine and loving friends and family…..  and I pray they can find me… and help me…  luv mary jean ziska

can you please send me the recipe for those delicious graham cracker squares… for the Christmas cookies… wish I was spending time writing out Christmas cards and making cookies and shopping instead of fixing everything everyone destroyed in my life… so as of today i am missing in that one package… the title to the Mercedes… my car insurance info and my registration for the Saturn…also the picture of Karen kahel trespassing… and a red and navy canvas bag is missing from my closet as well….i haven’t  gone through all my luggage.. but I’m assuming that if someone had to steal a bag. They also stole something to put in to the bag…  a few of the papers where  i wrote all the  combinations for  my locks on my suitcases…are missing with the same package….

its just always so upsetting and i always still feel so violated… when my possessions are stolen especially by some scummy identity thief… I’m assuming the thief was trying to either get the keys to the doors. Or get money they thought i had…  I pray there is a God who will eventually listen and protect me from harm… and that all the criminals and thieves will die soon…. Very  very soon…..  so they will never hurt anyone ever again…. keep praying to st anthony.. he never lets you down… what an upsetting day.. luv mary jean ziska 

 I  only left my home to go grocery shopping on December 3rd… That is when  I came back the lock to the garage door wouldn’t work…. And I had to call the  police go get another lock and I guess when the thief took advantage of knowing when I wouldn’t be in my home… and made ther move… when i returned from lowes… there was a silver jeep Cherokee  leaving the scene…. It was exactly similar to the one that also came by me and passed us when the “young” imposter (of mindy young)  who was pretending  to be  the real estate girl.. Anyway… remember she  trapped me in the elevator at the  one condo in that back of the strand.. do you remember that ?……..

anyway… on December third I  guess made the mistake of telling people where I was going …  and I got burned for being honest….. and  i keep forgetting the lessons I have learned these past ten years.. no one in my life or for the past 10 years has really been a real  friend.. no one really loves anyone … that love hurts you especially If you  let down  your guard… and if for one minute… you think this person by saying they love you will actually  be great and wonderful and protect you and make your life better…  if you think these people who say they love you  will not lie to you or cheat you out of something  or manipulate your life or play games to run your life… and they will ruin your life.. ruin your reputation ruin your friendships… ruin everything you ever wanted….  ruin your life.. or your  hopes or your  dreams…  ti will feel like you were being  beaten or raped…. Over and over and over… and they will never stop because they have no compassion… no soul… they will harm your life take what they want.. and they  don’t care how it hurts you or how it affects your life.. they don’t care about anyone but themselves… these crooks.. these horrid mean selfish  evil  people will ruin everything you ever wanted… and more….. so  if you think  they actually care or they actually  will help you or they are good or nice or sweet or kind… …any of that.. you better think again… because once  you have met one  horrid person and their family of criminals  and thieves and crooks and liars.. your life and your dreams and what you ever wanted to happen in your  life will never ever happen….. they will ruin everything until  there is nothing left  to ruin… and then they will jump up and down like karn kahel did when she made me cry and say she “won” .. she “won”….. so remember love only hurts… people only  hurt you and thieves have no soul… so they will hurt you over and over and over again…. I learned  … that  criminals “win” that bullies ‘win” and that miracles never happen…that psycho freaks can isolate you from and  limit your resources..that they will limit your connection to  the people you  know and the method you try to reach them and it will ruin  your life… that sick Italian psycho freaks will lie and cheat and steal from you right under  your nose… like Gerard alher..

that  bullies  like karne kahel… only succeed by screwing  people in power.. and if you have a bastard kid by  one of the powerful psycho freaks… you get a bmw.. you get to steal a business from an honest hard working  person.. and you get  to steal a condo  and along the way they steal their  identities…. … Christmas and birthday presents….along with personal   possessions…. And no one stops them…..  

Every memory  and joyous occasion you could have ever possibly had in ten years… i have learned that no matter what you do to protect your self  they will continue to ruin  lives until they are dead and beyond because these criminals teach their families  and children to be just as corrupt… I have had to learn that being  nice and sweet and  honest gets you punished…  I have learned to  not open my heart to anyone  .. they all lie and hurt you if you do… not to trust anyone…that basically  everyone  is out for themselves and  if given the opportunity they will only lie and cheat and harm your life… to never believe that any one has your best interest at heart… they are most probably  only going to gain your trust so they can harm you…  that even God in his infant power can’ t stop criminals…  and  I have learned that praying for criminals to stop  hurting you doesn’t  work.. that praying for miracles doesn’t work.. and that  each and every day regretting 10 years ruined and wishing you had died at 25 instead of your cousin Nancy…… (then you would have only met one criminal scum face to face…. )   And waiting for heaven  where you can finally be surrounded by great and wonderful people….is a dream you have every night…. and that may be the only dream that may ever  come true for the rest  of my life….

and who the  hell was I talking to who thought they gave me 45 thousand dollars??? for what??? i don’t have a new car.. or new furniture…. or new clothes… or anything i wanted in my life…   I didn’t get to go and  get an MBA… or even to take Harvard executive courses….. so who did you actually give that money to?…. some identity thief ..who what? got the money i was supposed to get for working on the babysitting business…and the etiquette school?  i would really like  to know.. and i would really like to see these girls face to face and tell them off.. not that it would matter.. a person who doesn’t have a soul…. won’t care that they stole  my life..  and all my hopes and dreams… anyway…  this email is from the real..original mary jean ziska…  ( no freaks and frauds  or  fakes…. allowed…. ) and i miss my loving mom and my dad and my sisters and my genuine friends. Everyday…. and i can’t wait to get to see the real people who love me and would never  hurt me .. in heaven…. I guess…  

  ps.. to date.. inteh last few months.. or actually last month since i wrote in my blog… i  had the computers broken again… the car switched from one that stays running when turned off… to not running when turned off… lots of extra miliage when i dont drive or leave my home…  ripped almost to shreds.. two pillow cases… oen bed fited sheet… oen creamer container missing.. still never found  that 240.00 that disappeared formmy bag when it was sitting in the garage…. 
the alarm mysterously has gone  off  at 5 am… ( when someoen said a writer was going to leave to go writitng early…. once at 10 pm when i  turned on teh alarm earlier than usual… 
and now all of this.. with the paperwork all in one package.. missing…. 
so still missing my dad’s gift of my diamond earrings.. and pearl earrings ..   my kakhi cashmere sweater…..  and of course this new addition of the red and navy canvas bag… adn god only knows what else…. that they migh thave stolen or “borrowed and put in the bag when they were stealing from my home…. and from me….  

i jsut don’t  understand  why they won’t  stop…..   and go ruin someoneelse’s life for a while….   not one free year when these assholes haent ruined one part of my olife.. in ten years.. not one entire year whne they havent ruined my life ….

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Marion Gregory   Director 239-598-1515

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Mary Jean Ziska   Assistant Director 239-287-2294

whatabtmary@yahoo.com

Do such men exist anymore?   

And if they do.. where are they?….

So many man these days are more like boys who never grew up….lots of talk… no substance… men/boys who seem to pride  themselves in not working..  but have big plans for many cars.. and homes.. and material possession….. who play games with people’s lives never thinking  of the consequences or the destruction and havoc  they create… they  think of themselves…first… then as if to appear to be selfless. They throw in a useless offering towards anyone nearby… constantly changing their direction … never seemingly focused on any real goals …. Or having lack of ambition.. and never being able to complete anything. Even small projects….. to me that is not a real man…  my dad used to say that if you don’t have a destination any road will do… meaning that if you don’t know where you want to  go… well… then   take any road because your  goals will never be met without a plan of action…. And without a definite destination… goal.. end product….  He also always meant… I needed to have a goal… to reach for… a destination to achieve ….. and then make the correct plan of action… your road or path ….. and follow it until you reach the ending point…. The finish line… the destination…. He also made me believe that all or most goals were achievable… well my mom always brought in the belief that all things were possible… you know the old saying ..when there is a will there is a way…. Actually the philosophy of both complimented each other really well when I think about it now… so the point…. Being … where are the real men… and I am defiantly not talking about men who think muscles are the product of being a real man… but  a man who can be strong… and reliable… make you feel safe and protected… and yet be able  to  still communicate like an intelligent human being… and who has real feelings …. Emotions and gosh wouldn’t it be great if he was also romantic…. And…..  well heeled…. Perhaps, Creative, even with a streak of an an entrepreneur…  or adventurer…..

But honest, loyal, integrity, faithful, moral, decent,        

I tried to remind the person on the phone that  I had received numerous phone calls that were from  bullies.. and letters an even cards that  were all meant to harass to bully and to make me cry… to isolate me from my family and my friends and  meant  to  separate me from my family.. Hundreds in fact… over these horrid years…  so many I even called Gloria fletcher  ( a family friend and criminal attorney ) and she reassured me that my family still loved me.. and no those horrid letters or cards or phone calls couldn’t possibly be from my family…  I once even called maura’s husband eric…. When someone e tried to tell me that my sister Maura didn’t even like me anymore… That is not ever the type of thing my sister would ever say…. Or ever tell someone to say to me…. Whoever is trying to separate me or my mom from my sister… the sister who is the attorney. …Who has children… who has a really nice life…  could it be possibly to what???  Steal Christmas presents?  Manipulate holiday plans…. Why the hell would someone  do something  like that?  I know my real genuine  authentic mother…. I know  how much she loves her children.. and  I know  my sister Maura .. and I know how much she loves her mother… and how much she loves her family… Good God people… WHY????  why  does someone get a kick of out  messing  with a family..  trying to destroy  relationships… and trying to destroy  a life time of love… this really stinks…  

DON’T HURT MY FAMILY!   

It is really suspicious that this is starting right around the time of the holidays….. what type of mean, sick demented, person wants to separate a 74 year old mother from her daughter and  her granddaughter…

My sister may be a lawyer.. but she is also a great, loving  daughter.. and  a  great loving sister…  a note to the bullies… and the tormentors… Quit it! 

These people tried to have my mom believe that my sister didn’t love her.. or… like her… to the point that she was upset.. and wrapping a present for me and my sister Mattie… but  not for Maura?… what a crock of poop…. My mother was the epitimy of unconditional love..  and she even got a present for Maura each and  every birthday that  Mattie and I shared…   she wanted us all to have great holidays.. to have great lives… and to  be really happy….   She is a great mom who isn’t some embarrasement…  or unloved by her children…  she is an amazing woman, mother, and now a grandmother…  and would be a blessing to all she is able to visit… i dont understand  why somebody still wants  to create unnecessary drama or to try to make my; family look horrid… is my family so much of a threat?   someoen sooo unhappy that we can love each other? or be nice to each other? or actually want ot be around each other?… sisters sho ar suposrtive of dreams.. and of futures… a mother who showed us the world .. and  allowed us to have so many advantages…. and rally really loved us.. and wanted us to have great lives… that is the family i remember..  not allthe fake dramas that some  sick individual gets a thrill trying to promote…    seriously.. what a pathetic horrid person … who takes pleasure in harming instead of building up people… who wants  to seperate instead of unite…  i guess that is why  they still hide behind fake caller id’s or maniplulations…  i hope and pray that they are caught and they are punished for the harm they caused… and are still causing…  jsut go bother someoen else… or another family.. youve done enough damage…. are you happy is this allyou wanted???? what a waste.. so much energy for evil instead of for great and  wonderful  experiences…