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January 12th 2011 @ 4:40pm ( merry christmas, happy holiday happy new year card through constant contact )

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Happy   Holidays
Merry Christmas

Happy New Year
 Luv,
Mary Jean Ziska

  
To all  my nice, wonderful and great friends, clients,  associates and
guardian angels.  I don’t even know where to begin in thanking you for
all your  continued friendship through 2010!  May you and all your
family members have a wonderful Holiday Season and Christmas this year!
May all your wishes , dreams and prayers come true and may all the good
and wonderful deeds you do for others come back to you 100 times….. I
honestly hope and pray that  this next year  brings  the best life 
adventures and experiences that are possible  for everyone !  May all
your wishes and dreams come true this Christmas Season  and for this
next entire  year … of  2011. 

I have included you and your
family in a novena I have been saying each day since august 12th 2010
….. I ask for your protection from all harm and for you to be
blessed!  ( I’ve been asking for the exact same things for myself as
well…. this past year and 4 months as well… HA!) Hopefully your
hopes and dreams are being answered  as I am still waiting on mine HA!

When
you reach across the miles …. to stay in contact it touches my heart
and soul and I can never adequately acknowledge the appreciation and
gratitude i have for having met you and having you in my life!  Thank
you for remembering me this year  whether as a friend, an associate or
as a business acquaintance!  

I hope this year brings you  as
much joy, happiness, love and prosperity as you desire! Please keep in
touch and I hope to see you this next year!

Sincerely,

Mary Jean Ziska

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January 12th 2011 @ 4:39pm ( christmas/holiday newsletter sent through constant contact )

December 2010

Mary Jean Zisk
 Holiday  Newsletter
To all my wonderful, great, and supportive friends, and clients,   

This includes all the  GREAT , WONDERFULAMAZING 
friends  I have made throughout my lifetime including….  those life
long friends  from living in Saudi Arabia while  growing up in Aramco, 
the friends I made while attending boarding school at Villa Maria,  the
truly, wonderful friends I made while attending  school in France,  the
great  friends I  made while in college and and in organizations such
as: Kappa Alpha Theta ( both in college and in my alumni association) 
the friends I have made here while living and residing in Naples
Florida, 

To
all the absolutely wonderful and amazing clients who I am so blessed to
say have  honestly become genuine friends  over the years… ….
clients all the way back from when I owned and worked with my own
company in faux painting called ( M&M Decorative Painting) and then
of course babysitting  since 1996 for (A Tender Loving  Care
Service)  ….and now of course being  considered the Assistant Director
and working with my mother ( Marion Gregory ) trying to make a go of
the endeavor( A TLC Prep!…. the etiquette school) …..  

SALE OF 1990 MERCEDES $3250.00!
picture of mercedes at night

As some of you may remember, I once owned  a work SUV for faux painting.  When the lease was up for the durango I bought the 1990 gold mercedes
from my father to use for babysitting and for travel around town!  I
loved owning a mercedes and it was a great car for a long time!  My
father owned it, my sister Maura even owned it, and  then it was my
turn…. as my luck would have it, this past year we put in a new
transmission from Germany and I was without a car for an entire month
while they made sure everything was working and waiting to get the
transmission from Germany….. It was  running great… for a while and
then….when it had another problem….(I was  told that it needed a new
head gasket!&nbsp  I am now selling it….. As my finances won’t warrent
another repair….

I
spoke with  one gentleman who told me that a head gasket is only a few
hundred dollars….  even suggested I could get the parts at a discount  
with  the  Mercedes Club Membership (www.&nbsp and with the engine
already  taken off and ready to work  (he thought  that was half the
work….)  he thought that to put in a new gasket in the car….( the
last mechanic left the parts in the trunk….) it should be less of a
cost to fix it! 
 

I looked up my car and it said it should cost between ($1800.00 and $5000.00) so since we put in a $5000.00 transmission, ( it still has a warantee for the transmission) I thought it would be fair to charge $3295.00 dollars
for the entire car!  I think it would make a great car for your nanny,
for your college student or for anyone who likes owning a mercedes!  It
is  really a classic car and it has never been in an accident.  I was
told it was an advantage that  since it has been in Florida it has no
rust under the car, and when waxed and cleaned is realy cute and sporty
especially with the sun roof!  It is a 4 door sedan and takes
normal gas, not diesel and honestly it was really working  great once
the transmission was put in… this head gassget was a real shock!   

I
am willing to give up to a $200.00 finders fee if you find anyone who
will legitimately buy the car! So not only would it make a nice cute
little car for a Christmas gift or new year gift….or a pay bonus….or
it could even be a tax right off…. (I know mattie did that for one of
her past cars)….. Please consider any option as it would really help
me…. and I would really appreciate your referals of potential
buyers… or if you yourself wish to buy it that woudl be GREAT!  I wish
they were still allowing that 4-5 thousand dollar credit from the
government to use toward a new car… Wouldnt that be great !  Anyway,
please contact me any way possible and if you could try a few differnt
ways… (ie) phone, email or even a comment on one of my new blogs… or
websites…. that would be great!
                               Thanks so much!
                    Luv, Mary Jean  Ziska

NEW WEBSITES /BLOGS

BY MARY JEAN ZISKA 

As some of you may remember, I wrote a small short story in 2003 called:  

 “MY  GINGERBREADMAN”

  

I had given the story as a gift to my sisters and friends  who were still single…

 ( as I  was then and still am today!…HA!)

anyway….. It was suggested to me to do something with it… so i started a blog and created a website to go with it…. 

www.mygingerbreadman.com and the blog is : www.blog.mygingerbreadman.com  

 

As
most of you don’t know….I have been put through some really horible
expereinces these past 7 years…. and I also  started a website and
blog to chronical the events and the  hopeful positive outcome once I
have gained  some justice……   so i called this webiste:

www.mysearchforjustice.com and the blog is:

www.blog.mygingerbreadman.com

Promotion  for personal  Babysitting

by Mary Jean Ziska  

 

 As
the holidays  are approaching… and soon will be here…. and 
knowing  that season will  be really busy this year….  I am reminding
 people of my babysitting services …..

 

If
you remember…. I am the  babysitter  with the nice large bag of  toys
and games…. who plays with your children using bubbles, treasure
hunts… games, movies…. and even made cookies and decorated them with
your children!  

 

I would love to see you and your  family and be able to assist you in any needs you may have for babysitting…. 

 

I
am making an offer of one free hour of sitting when you hire me for the
usual 4 hour minimum…. that should give you additional time to shop,
go to the movies, go out to dinner, or dancing, or even spending a day
at the spa…. just think of  it…. one additional hour  to enjoy….

 

Please use the promotional coupon on the bottom of this email or refer to it when you contact me for your sitting needs!

 

Thank you soooooo much

 for your kind attention to this newsletter/email ….. and 

 your continued support for me…

Mary Jean Ziska! 

Happy Holidays….. Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year May the joy and happiness you find now continue throughout the entire year!   

 

My contact information! Well,  there are so many ways to reach me… ( Mary Jean Ziska ) but please try a few of them…..
Just make sure I  get your message! 
websites/blogs: 
www.mysearchforjustice.com 

emails: 

Of course additional information and  my profile is still located in the websites of: 

 Telephone numbers: 
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Sincerely,

Mary Jean Ziska

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Sunday January 02nd 2010 @7:09pm ( hours worked without pay for atender loving care service and for atlcprep)

 I have been asked the question of what did i do without pay for the  years ( 2007- 2008 ) with a tender loving care  service and atlc prep…. (usually aked by someone who is very obnoxious… and a very odd question… i guess they didn’t think i did anything…. well i did plenty…. and … usually i am asked this question by one of the girls trying to gain the title of “owning” my mother’s business…. owner of A Tender Loving Care Service” .. or who want to take credit for having done all the work so since my cousin told me to keep track of the hours…. i will just type up a summary of the house spent…. and the work done…. 
( thanks Greg.. great idea to keep track… )

 *full Day worked in school ( 10am-1am = 10 hours)
 *waiting for cable man/ computer man for telephone=(3hours x 3 days =9 hours) 

 *two trips to kinkos for brochures (4 hours )
 * wrote letters of introduction to go with brochures all revisions/letter to Kappa alpha    theta/ to past clients/to new clients=(10 hours )
 * rewrote rate sheet  all revisions =(10 hours)
 * interviewing litle girls for school ( alexandra) =(4 hours)
 * being stood up instead of interviewing little girls = (4 hours)
 * 20 rolls of stamps on envelopes ( 1/2 hours each roll) = (10 hours)
 * 6050 envelopes=( 60 hours )

 * folding letters /brochures =3,000= (10 hours)
 * putting hearts on 10,000  letters= (10 hours)
 * 6,000 lables for mailing = (10 hours)
 * scanning /transposing doctors names and creatign lables = (1 week x 10 hours a day = (500 hours)
  * creating PR marketing /files  /folders =1 week =(10 hours each day = 500 hours  
 * calling organizations/ creating network for business =( 10 hours  x  ? I didn’t keep accurate time for each and every call… ) 
 * putting lables in 3 boxes ( x 550 each box =1650 = 10 hours )
 *
refolding/restuffing all envelopes = (2 days = 10 hours per day = 20 hours)
 

 
* i will have to continue with all the exact hours a bit later… but here are some of the other things i did:
1.  registered fictious name and business information
2. opened business accounts in business name at 5th/ 3rd bank
3. created 2 websites www.atenderlovingcareservice.com and www.atclprep.com
4. 
created liability and permission forms for business ( the specific ones for all areas that need to be covered
5.  created profile sheets for each client (blank form to gain information for specific care)  
6. began to create profiles in computer data base for client list
7. created contracts and information ( PR packets)for all the hotels in areas. 
8.  called for interviews and met with managers of all hotels  to discuss the option of exclusive sitting for each hotel from our agency/ created the paperwork including a letter of introduction a contract if they agreed to have our company to handle all their siting needs and basic PR packet with all the information about the company  its employees and or companies qualifications   
9.  luncheon with Peggy post from my sorority
10.  Contacted Emily Post institute for classes and was able to gain discount on classes
11.  took pictures of all sitters to start name tags….( they were never finished but a pototype was created for approval )
12.  Assisted with orientation in hiring sitters at Naples Grand( including creating packets for potential employees and gathering information with fingerprint and application and all information after orientation also  took pictures of all possible and potential hirees present at the orientation  )
13.  met with company in Naples for estimate  and with boarding  school  friend( villa maria – Cindy Closkey  company:                   )  to gain estimates on improving and making the websites very professional

14.  being at mall for all day  event when Susan canceled/ local school introduction event ( coastland center expo )
15.  wrote all internet adds ( mamma source parenthood)
16.  bought and studied for teacher certification course to hire interns
17.  took HR course for sitting and for school
18.  renewed cpr course on line / created paperwork for sitters to be able to renew their cpr certification  though various companies
19.  grant application from  kappa alpha theta to be able to take etiquette course and have affiliation of emily post  in our etiquette school
20.  reformatted and re- created medical release form to be with permission liability form
21.  called aramco ( saudi  arabia ) and contacted about introduction of etiquette classes into intersession programs
22.  helped to set up credit card machine
23.  took pictures for website  while at story time at local library
24.  google advertising inset into websites ( ADSENSE/ ADVERB/) 
25. created college central employment ads for Ave Maria, Edison, all local colleges
26.  make mine a million dollar business created profile and started contacts
27.  check on angel investors/ created files and profiles for both business opportunities to utilize angel investors… ( babysitters decided to not go in that direction)
28.  created  business plan( see sample/help  from  Harvard  business plan and /executive summary for submission to angel investors and for business to have written document for the business plan
29.  printed out( again )  all information for limited liability corporation information( i wanted company to become an llc… but sitters decided not to go in that direction)  
30. contacted company for creating televison commercials for business (babysitters decided not to go in that direction) 
31.  check on information to create widget for chat box on website for immediate contact for clients ( babysitters decided not to go in that direction)
32.  checked on hologram/personal instruction person from  company for websites( babysitters decided not to go in that direction)
33.  helped to create personal profiles for websites including pictures
34.  helped on creating format of id badge for sitters
35.  contacted colleges to create necessary requirements for creating internship program
36.  went through MLS to create list of clients and potential clients  for mailing list
 (certain zip codes and complexes/communities in naples )

2. 

Wednesday January 12th 2011 @3:05pm ( times and days of work for a tender loving care service and for atlcprep)

Well officially it has been one year and as of today 5 months of saying my st. Jude novena…. but that is not what this blog post is all about.. it is to put down in writing so that there are no mistakes no confusion… as to times and dates i worked for my moms’ business.. and for the start up of the etiquette school….  that way in case papers or log gets lost i have an online reference when ever one of the little girls who decides each and every month to change who i am what i want and what my profession should be… will at least have a reference… ( ridiculous really…)

the first record i have in a log ( didn’t know i would actually need a log really…. ) so i just kept a list of times…..
9/15/2007:  8:30pm-11:30pm =3 hours 
9/16/2007:  10am-6:00pm =8 hours  
9/18/2007:   10am-11:30pm=( website )13 and 1/2 hours
9/19/2007:    2:15pm-10pm=(website)=8hours
9/20/2007:   10am-10pm= 12 hours 
9/21/2009:  10am-8pm=10hours
9/22/2007:   10am-10pm=12hours   
9/23/2007:   11am-11pm=12 hours 
9/24 /2007:  10am-7pm=9 and 1/2 hours 
9/25/2007:   11:30-9pm=9 and 1/2 hours 
9/26/2007:   10am-5:30pm=7and 1/2 hours 
9/27/2007:  11am-7pm= 8 hours
9/28/2007:  1:30pm-11:04pm =9 and 1/2 hours  
9/29/2007:  9:45pm-11:45pm= 9hours  
9/30/2007:  1:30pm-12midnight=11 hours
10/01/07:     11am-midnight=13 hours  
10/02/07:     8:45am-12:45midnight=11hours 
10/03/07:   10am-4pm=6hours 
10/04/07:   11-6pm=7 hours  
10/05/07:   4pm-6:30pm= 2and 1/2 hours 
10/06/07:    off   
10/07/07:    off 
10/08/07:    11am-3pm=4 hours 
10/09/07:  11am-5pm and 6pm-8pm=8 hours  
10/10/07:   8am-10:45pm= 9 and 1/2 hours 
10/11/07:   9am-11pm=14 hours  
10/12/07:   9am-11pm=14 hours  
10/13/07:    7am- 12:30 and 2pm-7pm=  10 adn 1/2 hours  
10/15/07:     10am-6:30pm and 8:30pm-1:10 pm = 13 hours  
10/16/07:    10am-12:30 noon=2 and 1/2 hours 
10/18/07:    11am-6pm =7 hours  
10/19/07:   2:00pm-10pm=8 hours 
10/21/07:   2pm-10pm= 8 hours
10/22/07:  11am-10pm=11 hours 
10/23/07:   10am-6pm=8pm
10/24/07:   12nooon to 9pm =9 hours 
10/25/07:  11am-6:30pm=7 and 1/2 hours  
10/27/07:  12 noon-11pm=11 hours  
10/28/07:   6:30am-12 noon and 2pm-4pm=7 and 1/2 hours  
10/31/07:   11am-4pm =5 hours
11/01/07:  10am-9pm=11 hours
11/02/07:   2pm-9pm=7 hours 
11/03/07:  2pm-7pm-=5 hours
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Tuesday January 11th 2011 @7:30pm ( Iza trapani author and illustrator…. info./ person to contact for children’s stories)

When discussing the option of writing childrens’ stories… at first when Ron and my mom suggested it i was a bit skeptical.. i mean i ‘ve  already blogged about how everyone and their brother wanted me to  change professions… and usually it was based on some ulterior motive…. actually a lot of suggestions I’ve been given have all had their ulterior motives…. some not so great… for my life at least…

but then when i kept talking to them….. it started sounding really pretty neat….  we brainstormed and thought of a great series….

 start of with  a family … a mom and dad who  could  help with the morals or lessons…then all the adventures for one or maybe all of the three children…. 

then we were going over all the actual  adventures that we as a family got to have…

like…..
travels to tree tops… or tiger tops …. or the african safari…. or  write a story about my younger sister’s  horse….. going from cart horse not using hanifa but lady oh as main character…   to a winner of gymkanias….

*camping trip  at red sea in Saudi
* dog with worms in brendize Italy
* barbie doll cooking and fire ( me and a friend Kathy…. )
* riding a yak on mount Everest
*taking a sharkara boat in Kashmir
* adventure in Australia
*India …. taj mahal
* bat in house in st. croix
*lay over shoping  in Paris
*nipper eating lamb roast
* car stuck in mud
shopping and seeing fountains in Rome… Gucci …quote…”I didnt come to Rome to see any …..'”

O course …. the illustrations must be amazing … add music or create songs…..
 to go with stories.. then of course my major point is to have a great moral… or lesson… and of course since it would be stories covering all over the world… must have geography lesson.. in fact we even thought of a cover being a globe… show casing each country covered in the story….

of course my mine went to marketing…. and after the stories .. the Pixar film… then of course all the merchandising… then even trips… like  the world perk trips… from neiman marcus… where you could create an African safari.. or go to tree tops or tiger tops… wouldn”t that be reálly great?…..

  

or 
  

jANUARY 11, 2011 @ 4:26PM ( FRUSTRATING FEW DAYS….)

Since the loss of my original hard drive….( actually believe it must have been stolen when my money belt was switched and the hard drive was in it) see my website www.mysearchforjustice.com … and then  of course this computer without all the messed up documents…/ files …( encrypted or something ….. but hopefully will have it fixed or get my original computer and hard drive back… what a horrible little girl who is sooooo pathetic that she has to steal instead of creating files and documents of her own for a business of her own instead of stealing my mom’s business… or trying….  I was actually praying for God to stop them … if he has to kill them for them to stop being horrible criminals than so be it … i cant see any deterrent that would stop them.. they lie they cheat and they steal without any remorse… isn’t  that the clear definition of a sociopath????…..no consciousness…. and the impersonating…

Just today i was going  through  some things in my closet and found a purple jacket that i had in a locked suitcase hanging in my closet…. first i knew it should have been in my suitcase because it was for the cold weather…. and i had put everything away when i thought that it was going to be warm…  and second because i keep out items that i hope don’t get ruined by these parasites… but more as decoys…. hoping that the scummmmmmy girls will not bother my nice clothes…. and since i rarely wear them the jackets had dust on the shoulders… all except this purple jacket… HUMMMMM ….

actually when i found it I broke out in huge sobs and this horrible feeling of being violated again came over my entire being….  its like when you think abuse is done or over.. and it starts up all over again…. the relief .. the feeling of safety and security the trust and the  feeling of contentment  is shattered…..  i cant explain the horrible and devastating feeling of knowing a total stranger took it upon herself to help her self not only to my clothing… but had to take the time and effort to break into my home….. my closet….. and my locked suitcase… then had the nerve to actually wear my clothing out.. probably while i was babysitting for the Eatons or the Orrs… (i will put down my schedule when  i was working over the holidays… so that if anyone thinks they saw me out please write in and let me know where and what i supposedly did….. the impostor.. has been doing this SHIT( excuse the language… for far too long and obviously the entire community thinks its o.k. for criminals to con people….. to lie to people… and to cheat and steal….. but i am really mad by now…..)

 and the most disgusting par of all of this….. the entire  community has allowed it to happen.. allowed my holidays to be ruined.. my family to be fooled…. lies to be told … for me to go through absolute HELLLLLLL and  my life to be ruined …. my God never have mercy on her and the entire lot of the criminals… i would never in my life ever think of doing such a bold and criminal act… how do these disgusting girls get away with  it?????? .. and when will someone actually own up…. be a responsible adult .. a nobel and honorable person….  ….. and do something about it…..??????? WHEN?????????  

I actually think i may have seen one of the girls who i believe to be  the one  criminal.. remember i told of the brown and white polka dotted dress… how one girl wore my dress for a wedding …. while i was babysitting for La Playa… of course scummy criminals ….. well when i was babysitting at
La Playa..the same place where my DVD’s were stolen .. anyway….

 the family was supposed to be from Ohio… ( same as karen kahel… remember she went to Ohio state…. ) and where Johathan the guy who first copied all my information from  my hard drive …. remember the the blond haired criminal/ i mean boy/ guy with the tattoo around his upper arm…( tattoo of a rope or something)…. ….. who supposedly worked for the cech  republic family the Sabatovas….his true identity was never confirmed…. 

anyway……

where  there was this family i was sitting for …. and instead of actually sitting for the real parents… i got to sit for the babysitters while they went off and destroyed people’s lives… most noticeably mine….

anyway…. i think once again i was siting for the babysitters …. and this girl who is probably 105 bls… tan or slightly blond hair …. cut also in a bob…. was on a golf cart today here in the strand… she may have been the criminal who has been in my house… probably  even dating someone … UCK>>>>> what if  was the myrtle beach golfing guy again.. the one who had actually had sex with her or some other whore….  in my bed and left the golfing emblem…. in my bed….. UCK>>>>  bringing them to my home…. while i was  babysitting….  now that i think of it … even while i was hearing weird stories on new years eve from this babysitter from Atlanta… that i don’t really ever want to sit with again…..

so atlanta… boston…. charlotte… ohio……. what other boys had the pleasure of being  in my house and screwing this girl…….??????

shocking…. really … bold and criminal and shocking …. anyway…  

Where is GOD??????????????? and where is JUSTICE………. ????????????????

so much for prayers being answered…
so much for God, or the police, or even honorable people protecting  me or my home or my possessions… or my life or my hopes or my dreams or my goals… or my businesses…..

so much for wishes, dreams, or a great life of happily ever after coming  true….

how can you make up for at least 7 years stolen!!!!!!! how can a disgusting criminal justify their actions??????….. once again i ask..           WHERE
IS JUSTICE??????

January 11th 2010 @4:01pm ( sara B. who made you king of anything)




king of anything by sara barelles   ( think this might be the link to the u-tube video)


Oh crap..Ii just copied and pasted the who made you king of anything …. the song I think is or should be my motto… for all the  people who believe to be “king” over me… but it didn’t  work like I had hoped …maybe you can only insert this  with websites… so i may try to do a link..so you can at least get to see her video and here her song…. . at least i will write down the lyrics( as best i  caught  them while listening to this song..today and yesterday… amidst many many tears….. what a few horrible days… !!!!!!!)



Ohhhh keep drinking coffee staring down across the table … while i look outside
So many things I would say if only i were able
but i just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by
You’ve got opinions man were all entitled to ’em but i never asked
 so let me thank you for yóur time, and try not to waste any more of mine and get out of here fast….
 
I hate to break it to you babe,… but I’m not drowning…. there’s no one here to say…

WHO CARES IF YOU DISAGREE..

YOU ARE NOT ME..

WHO MADE YOU KING OF ANYTHING.. SO YOU DARE
TELL ME WHO TO BE..
WHO DIED AND MADE YOU KING OF ANYTHING…  
ALL MY LIFE I TRIED
 TO MAKE EVERYBODY HAPPY
WHILE I JUST HURT AND HIDE …..
WAITING FR SOMEONE TO TELL ME ITS MY TURN TO DECIDE!!!!!!!!!!!


you sound all innocent all full of good intent
You swear you know best
But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you… and ride off onto your delusional sunset
I’m no the one whose lost who no directional
But you’ll never see
 Your so busy making maps with the name on them  in all caps
 You got the  taking down .. just not the listening ….

WHO CARES IF YOU DISAGREE YOU ARE NOT ME...
WHO MADE YOU KING OF ANYTHING
SO YOU DARE TELL ME WHO TO BE..
WHO DIED AND MADE YOU KING OF ANYTHING….  
 
LET ME HOLD YOUR CROWN BABE…

Fri. December 24th 2010 @3:02pm (christmas eve)…..

 So it is now Christmas eve……  the loneliest Christmas ever…I  think when you have your sisters and mom and close friends that you used to talk with  each and every day…  the people who know your stories.. make you laugh..  all the  genuine friends… i think that when they are not in your life… especially at the holidays.. like this Christmas… wow.. there is just this big whole in your heart and  soul…. and it aches..

Did you ever feel like you are speaking to the wrong family???? I mean somebody else’s family…. probably isn’t  bad… ( but wait maybe they could be pretty bad….. better rephrase that.. ) maybe the way you grew up within your family…when you had a great childhood…you just  miss the hugs the jokes….. the talks.. the laughter.. the niceness… and the holiday traditions..  anyway….. i just miss it all…

ever feel like someone think they know you if they see a snap shot of your life? well one snap hot is not the entire picture.. and definitely  not enough to know someone….not really know anything about them… 

anyway… merry christmas ….. luv mary jean ziska