So this is valentine’s day 2012…. Must say thanks to a very obnoxious self-centered and horrid person it was the worst valentine’s day start ever! For a day filled with people who think of others and want to make others feel special.. and for love and cherishing the people in your life who make your life better… who actually really like you and love you… well I must say I have been crying for the past half hour… die to a personality of a horrid and despicable selfish and arrogant person who is now defiantly not a friend not someone I will ever think of … as a friend.. And who I will no longer ever waste one more moment of my life caring about. You know the type of guy…. doesn’t have to be a boyfriend… or even a friend.. Could possibly be an acquaintance.. or take a moment just while you are watching people… you will notice this type… this person who only thinks of himself and his happiness… always he talks about himself .. and does it out loud as if the world needs to know his every movement.. or thought… or how his day is /was… and how the world needs to now what he wants or needs.. like a computer or anew phone or a new car.. anything for himself… then he talks out loud about what his doing for himself… he brags and lies to pump up himself…. his life and of his wants and needs , no actually real concern for anyone else. Unless it profits him himself… he promises everything.. but never comes though with anything….and even when you know the promises are fake.. that he is one of those freaks who “talk at you” like he’s some crazy person… who in reality you will never have any real conversations.. never have any real friendship… or any real promises will ever come true… this is a person you will never be able to count on… for anything… even though you know these things you actually somewhere in the bottom of your heart hope that this freak will actually act normal… but they /he or she will never act normal… will never be anyone you can count on .. will always be selfish and will always ruin your life…. This person who grunts like a cave man because he cannot articulate any normal conversation… let alone introduce any semblance of a normal and intelligent dialogue… they type of guy who want s his food and cares about basic needs since he is not someone who cares the arts.. . or self-awareness or has evolved in any way past caveman status….. who postures his relevance in the world by the famous people he claims to be his friends.. Best friends of course…. and prone to additions and elaborations to these fairy tales… and never shows any excellence in character… never attempts to exhibit any type of normal human emotion ( probably because he has no real personality or some semblance of a personality disorder… like a narsistic psychopath …. Basically a total asshole. To top it off.. when they are not that attractive and their personality is horrid.. they become absolutely repulsive…. Like any low life criminal scum….. Maybe it’s a third world thinking.. or acting… believing that girls are supposed to be the ones who are to do everything and anything. And somehow being born with a penis and not having the ability to do anything kind or thoughtful for anyone else unless there is an immediate pay off to them… for them… yep back to the self-involved and selfish narcissist….. being able to do anything for anyone else .. Makes them somehow special.. I actually read in India they kill baby girls before they are born…. Can you believe how horrid this is…. The belief that a male is soo far superior that girls should not be allowed to be alive…. Not that these assholes give birth or can multi task and can work and keep a home and be highly educated… it’s a stupid penis is supposed to make them superior….. and this isn’t just in India and other third world countries… Its all over….. and wrong… sooooo wrong….. I grew up in Saudi and the higher class people I knew who were Saudi, or from various nationalities… had manners.. had etiquette, had class/ style and were e brought up with generosity and with decency… it ‘ your basic asshole who uses people… yep back to the criminal element… and low lfe scum… But back to today… listen up girls .. don’t even waste time money or anything on assholes that are not even worthy of being friends… I mean no cards no small gifts.. Don’t be considerate in any way shape or form… It’s completely against my nature… my mom was the person who taught me to think of others… she always got us small gifts.. made holidays special and made us feel loved.. Took time to listen and talk… and put together some amazing gifts. That were creative and thoughtful at the same time… made our lives better and she taught her daughters to be the same…. I always gave cards and gifts.. if they were small.. Took time to spend time with friends and family…. One of those girl scout type girls.. Who tried to do the right thing.. unless someone has the same values and morals.. and is as kind or considerate as you are…. There is no need to go out of your way… I used to think it was the Christian thing to do.. you know show them the way… like in the news boys song.. “shine”… “ shine make them wonder what you’ve got Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then .. let them glorify the LORD .. ……. ( later in the song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……” I very mistakenly thought that I somehow I could show them how to be kind and considerate and Christian… go out of your way to be a good Samaritan… turn the other cheek.. all the lessons you learn as a child through your bible stories… in the song shine… the words go something like….“ shine make them wonder what you’ve got Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then .. let them glorify the LORD .. ……. ( later in the song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……” “..but I realized that instead of helping them it most likely will drag you down.. will ruin your life.. and will lower your entire life…. So my view on the entire thing now.. just don’t do it… actually if I had known this 12 years ago… when my life was invaded by stupid horrid criminals… I might have saved soo much of my life… of my hopes and wishes and my dreams.. of my life… that these criminals and bullies ruined…. … and they ruined it on purpose.. they had no remorse.. no regret.. and no apology…. its like the Stockholm syndrome… these people who you are supposed to trust… tell you they are here for you.. but instead your life is being used by them for their own selfish and even at times criminal needs.. like they needed your home … to use….or they needed your car to steal ….or they needed your clothes to steal or wear.. or your jewelry to steal or your businesses to steal.. or your idenity or your life to ruin .. so they can make theirs better… knowing this and getting them out of your life… early …… is the only way to stop them before they really get their slimy hands into your life and into your pocket book …..or if you absolutely have to have them in your life.. then protecting yourself.. and not doing anything extra.. because sure as the sun rises.. they wll never return the favor.. they are not your true friends.. they will never ever help your life.. no matter how much they say they will… they lie…. They will cheat you out of your life your future..and dreams .. and they will ruin holidays…. Like valentines day… or any holiday… for that matter… and will never even care that that they ruined your life.. I love valentines day a much as Christmas… and this last Christmas one person made both of these days miserable. I gave a gift, a small gift for valentines day to someone who is definitely not a friend… not a gingerbread man.. not a man of integrity or excellence.. or possess any qualities that are admirable or heroic… but I’m stuck with his arrogant posturing… his selfish and self-centered person….. and it was my fault for trying to be nice.. for giving gifts.. and I will never do it again… These are the lessons from assholes that I have learned in the past 12 years… ( I thought this was a perfect time to put in this list: I’ll add on…. To the list of the horrid lessons I got to learn… I actually had someone tell me it was for my own good to go through horrid people and it would “toughen me up….” Yep.. total ass who said that….another person who should not have come into my life…..
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real friends that you have a soul type friend connection .. who enjoy your company.. who has common I don’t even thin k they raise men like that anymore.. at least I haven’t met anyone like that in at least the past 12-20 years… I think my dad was a man raised to keep his promises.. and who would actually be someone who would honor an agreement like that.. where you live your life with integrity and honor… not like so many people…. Who are just out for themselves… who will hurt anyone.. to get what they need… the mentality of “ what’s in it for me….” I think I was really lucky that I was blessed to be raised by people who taught me to be considerate… to be thoughtful… to be honorable… to be ethical…. But on the flip side.. being raised to be honest, and truthful and trust in people… that actually made me really vulnerable to the scum and con-artist and criminals who have ruined my life….. but growing up in an American community that was really safe .. a gated community in Saudi Arabia where we didn’t need to lock our doors… and since it was a dry county. No alcohol problems… and over all very safe an d no real problems to deal with…. No crime since it was a country with capital punishment… and it was really a pretty nice environment… so it was easy to be raised with values of the 1950’s…. an in a safe environment like the1950’s at least that is what my parent s told me… Anyway… I guess when I wrote the gingerbread man story.. I really had hoped to meet a man of integrity of honestly.. a real man who was like a hero… but… no such luck… actually nothing even close… instead I had to deal with the bottom of the barrel… people who put me through horrid situations and horrid experiences…. I told someone recently about this movie “sliding doors” with gwenth paltrow.. where the plot goes through an entire” what if” scenario…. You know if you make this choice then these occurrences happen. But what if you had made another choice… If I hadn’t been raised to be such a “good ‘ girl ..to always tell the truth.. or to be honest and generous.. or trusting… or had just never met any criminals… My life would have been really amazing… what a waste what a shame…. No story book twelve years of sheer bliss… and a happily ever after ending for my story… ( like the story of my life… ha.. had a great beginning.. great middle.. but a horrid time for now… so here is hoping that things start looking up… and I can boast of god answering prayers… of true love still existing… and I can find that great gingerbread man… have a wonderful life… a great life…. Where wishes and dreams do come true…. But for now.. fixing the ….hell….. a bunch of horrid people made me go through… and trying to figure out if there are any great and honest people left in this world… who won’t lie to you .. steal from you and take advantage of you for their own selfish intensions…. Who honor commitments.. and who you can honestly trust… …. And who actually makes your life sooo much better just by being a part of your life… I can’t even tell you how lonely and isolated it has felt when you never meet anyone who actually could possibly be a real friend…. I’m not talking about acquaintances.. but those genuine morals and values.. and who actually is amazing… those type of people you just know you will know your entire life and who … would be available to help in an emergency.. in an instant… to help… no questions.. just real friendship…. I guess I miss that the most… the friendships.. long talks on the phone with real friends you know you are building lifelong relationships… and who you can laugh with ..who genuinely wants to spend time with you.. and who values you as much as you value them…. Yes… the constant contact with real friends… would have enhance my life sooo much…
It could happen to you…. The movie where a police man wins the lottery and gives half to a waitress… because he kept his promise… now that is a man who sticks by his commitments.. is honorable and honest and wow… a man of integrity… that is a real man of integrity….
Sat. December 17th 2011 @ 1:16am ( what is it like to talk to an enemy… one of the ” karen kahel fan club”.. pretending to be my mom on my mom’s phone line… it is horrible… gut wrentching… and horrible… to speak to the enemy when you think it
So what is it like to talk to the enemy… or live with an enemy…. Today actually on the phone tonight…. At precisely 11:23pm …. Fri December 16th 2011… I had a woman on the phone who actually told me that she didn’t want me to meet some guy Brian… and get this ..she didn’t want me to meet Brian or anyone .. because she was afraid that I would mention karen kahel..or all the hell I’ ve been through in the past ten years.. and how my life was ruined by these criminals and whores… because I would mess it up.. of course the woman couldn’t think of any positive qualities for me .(DEFINATELT NOT MY MOM!!!!. and she also wanted to make sure that I dint say anything negative about Karen kahel… hummmm of course it wasn’t my mom…. Or even a friend.. but guess what… one of the bullies form ohio.. no doubt.. so makes me ashamed to have been born there…. Especially when I have to deal with scummmm who are so reprehensible… possibly one of her relatives…(?) or perhaps the bully herself… but its fri. night I doubt that she wouldn’t be out drinking or worse… bulling transgressing.. or lying and ruining families and lives.. …. Conning someone one.. to make sure she gets that leased BMW to flash around… ha… .. gosh I wonder if I should expect that unsigned…. Christmas card( covered with Jesus stickers… ) sent from a Cleveland postmark… and with a mean message in it.. .. gosh those made me cru for days… think I was actually getting a card from a relative.. but instead getting a card for the enemy…. And her Ohio state disgusting family….. or hummm but of course it is fri. and of course probably karnekahel must be spreading her legs open for some boy or two.. HA!…. just kidding… HA! you know it takes a lot of whoring around to get that leased BMW…. After ruing innocent people’s lives.. HA! Gosh and the way she handles people on the phone.. even the idiots she hires to do all her dirty work… .. I mean what talent it takes to lie and get people upset.. and bully… just sooo impressive HA! (Of course I am being sarcastic… I hate the witch…. But it must take some talent to raise children to be criminals.. I still haven’t found out if the one little girl in port royal who stole my cashmere sweater.. and the treasure hunt cards… and the Thomas bubble blowers… actually was related to her… but she had the blond hair and the freckles. And the same hair raising persona.. you know .. when you are around pure evil and the hairs in your arm raise… yep this little girl did the same thing just like Karen…. k! And I have a niece who has has the most beautiful blond hair.. and blue eyes… but is soo sweet… it has to be in the way the person comes into this world.. a bully and criminals is a bully and criminal.. or the way they are raised. So if she is related to Karen kahel…. It just makes sense.. not an excuse.. but makes senses…. Opps I should say allegedly whoring around.. right.?HA! I mean if she is allowed to say anything and everything and I have to talk to some witch on the phone. Who sticks up for her instead of her own daughter… .and the idiot who comes for dinner is even going to act like the bitch…. And to boot… I’m not permitted to talk to any of my real friends who by the way would never say any of these things… to me… no real friend is going to protect a bully… one who bullied you… and protect or stick up for a girl who is so evil she makes people cry.. on purpose.. then jumps up and down to say she won she won. Like Charlie sheen… she ‘s into winning… and bulling and trespassing and I guess she believes she is above the law or any rules.. or anything decent or noble or honorable When I wrote about where are the men with integrity.. where the hell are the women with integrity.. the women who make those life long friends… that you can count on .. that are loyal.. and decent .. and have morals and values.. and who stick up for their friends.. and would never allow a bully “to WIN” … what is it like to talk to the enemy…. It is horrible.. it is lonely and it is unforgivable….. what is it like talking to a witch..the emeny… the bully herself… who will twist words and try to make your life hell.. will try to make you look bad.. well for the past two days on the phone that is all it has been… I also had this person fred over for dinner and when she waked in with sweet bay (susposedly… I was told the ohio’s favorit place to shop…. ) and then tried to tell me acting as if he is Karen kahel… that even though I hate her/him .. he will pray for me… what a crock. he didn’t pray for dinner… unless I pray when I sit down and pray… before dinner.. .but was trying to make “her” look like she is sooo saintly… a whore who screws a guys in a pool while l I am babysitting her 3 month old son in 2005… who purposely trespassed and bullied .. who harmed so many people .. Without one word of sorrow… did that whore actually think of praying for me when she was bulling me to tears(?) .. or trespassing to get a better chance to bully no not one bit of remorse.. not one” I am sorry”…. Ever… and to continue to do the same actions …. harass me.. and everything she said or did.. to harm my life… no of course not but today someone is pretending that the bully and trespassing whore… is a saint.. What a crock…. I prayed for her too.. that one day she will be on her knees begging for forgiveness…. And actually and for real remorseful for all the horrid things she has done.. but t she was raised to be a whore and a criminal.. so I ‘m not supposed to hold her responsible for her actions… I guess.. and then she has a psychology degree so when she torments and torturers people using all her skills.. as a vicious and brutal and mean bully… I was told that it was alright… thatmaking me..mary jean ziska…cry.. is supposed to be alright… because eh is the one doing it .. right???? so what is it like to talk to an enemy and never be allowed to talk to the actual people who really love and care for me… It sucks… I missed taking to Kathy young… and Carolyn walters.. and Kathie higdon… even my aunt rita would have ruined this girls life if she knew how much she ruined mine….but then she died… so I don’t have the people I love and who know me and love me ..and she keeps trying to isolate me from anyone who could be a friend… like this guy Brian.. what if he was someone who was great… clean cut preppy..conservative.. actually a person who wears a collared shirt to dinner…. and normal no issues and problems… and what if I actually even met him… and he might remind me of my old friend e scott renshw and was a real friend… who would protect me from bullies.. and make my life better but instead I am surrounded by pure evil… selfish evil and horrid people who actually harm my life… to talk to and to have in my life… just a bunch of enemies.. who manipulate.. who still .. bully and who still are as evil and fake as can be… I must say the person on the phone tonight failed as my loving and great mom… absolutely without a shadow of a doubt failed as a real mother…. I miss my mom and my dad and my sisters Maura Ann Ziska and Madelon Marie Ziska and all my real cousins.. and all my real friends…. Genuine real friends…. Ones who actually make your life better… who don t bully you.. who stick up for you and your rights.. and for the people who know your positive qualities.. and really like you… I mean really like you…. God I miss them every day for the past ten years I miss talking to them…. Please come find me .. Help!!!!!!! I hate the horrid and fake families who have girls or boys on the phone who do nothing but harm my They aren’t as brutal sa the bullies who used to make me cry every day… but it still hurts..and it is still harming my life… ..HELP!!!!!! … I never asked to speak to any of them… ever I call my mom’s phone number the expected expectation is that you actually reach my mom…. I never wanted to speak to these fakes who are in the karne kahel fan club.. ever! .. ever……… never ever wanted to talk to any of her friends or her family… ever… I have built up ten years of hatred for all of them… I remember every moment.. and I will never forget… or forgive… the people who harmed my life… they have nothing positive but harm my life… and I never want them to forget the damage they purposely inflict… and the harm they caused.. and lives they ruined… I will never forgive them or forget any of it… they owe me ten years of my life.. and I am never forgiving them for that. Ever! I want JUSTICE!….but I must say.. I do like that new show on ABC>> revenge…HA! Hummmmm
Wednesday December 7th 2011@6:34pm ( email sent to my mother askingfor cookie recipe… andthen tellling her about thngs missing and stolen recently… form my home…)
Mom, can you please send me the recipe for those delicious graham cracker squares… for the Christmas cookies… wish I was spending time writing out Christmas cards and making cookies and shopping instead of fixing everything everyone destroyed in my life… so as of today i am missing in that one package… the title to the Mercedes… my car insurance info and my registration for the Saturn…also the picture of Karen kahel trespassing… and a red and navy canvas bag is missing from my closet as well….i haven’t gone through all my luggage.. but I’m assuming that if someone had to steal a bag. They also stole something to put in to the bag… a few of the papers where i wrote all the combinations for my locks on my suitcases…are missing with the same package…. its just always so upsetting and i always still feel so violated… when my possessions are stolen especially by some scummy identity thief… I’m assuming the thief was trying to either get the keys to the doors. Or get money they thought i had… I pray there is a God who will eventually listen and protect me from harm… and that all the criminals and thieves will die soon…. Very very soon….. so they will never hurt anyone ever again…. keep praying to st anthony.. he never lets you down… what an upsetting day.. luv mary jean ziska I only left my home to go grocery shopping on December 3rd… That is when I came back the lock to the garage door wouldn’t work…. And I had to call the police go get another lock and I guess when the thief took advantage of knowing when I wouldn’t be in my home… and made ther move… when i returned from lowes… there was a silver jeep Cherokee leaving the scene…. It was exactly similar to the one that also came by me and passed us when the “young” imposter (of mindy young) who was pretending to be the real estate girl.. Anyway… remember she trapped me in the elevator at the one condo in that back of the strand.. do you remember that ?…….. anyway… on December third I guess made the mistake of telling people where I was going … and I got burned for being honest….. and i keep forgetting the lessons I have learned these past ten years.. no one in my life or for the past 10 years has really been a real friend.. no one really loves anyone … that love hurts you especially If you let down your guard… and if for one minute… you think this person by saying they love you will actually be great and wonderful and protect you and make your life better… if you think these people who say they love you will not lie to you or cheat you out of something or manipulate your life or play games to run your life… and they will ruin your life.. ruin your reputation ruin your friendships… ruin everything you ever wanted…. ruin your life.. or your hopes or your dreams… ti will feel like you were being beaten or raped…. Over and over and over… and they will never stop because they have no compassion… no soul… they will harm your life take what they want.. and they don’t care how it hurts you or how it affects your life.. they don’t care about anyone but themselves… these crooks.. these horrid mean selfish evil people will ruin everything you ever wanted… and more….. so if you think they actually care or they actually will help you or they are good or nice or sweet or kind… …any of that.. you better think again… because once you have met one horrid person and their family of criminals and thieves and crooks and liars.. your life and your dreams and what you ever wanted to happen in your life will never ever happen….. they will ruin everything until there is nothing left to ruin… and then they will jump up and down like karn kahel did when she made me cry and say she “won” .. she “won”….. so remember love only hurts… people only hurt you and thieves have no soul… so they will hurt you over and over and over again…. I learned … that criminals “win” that bullies ‘win” and that miracles never happen…that psycho freaks can isolate you from and limit your resources..that they will limit your connection to the people you know and the method you try to reach them and it will ruin your life… that sick Italian psycho freaks will lie and cheat and steal from you right under your nose… like Gerard alher.. that bullies like karne kahel… only succeed by screwing people in power.. and if you have a bastard kid by one of the powerful psycho freaks… you get a bmw.. you get to steal a business from an honest hard working person.. and you get to steal a condo and along the way they steal their identities…. … Christmas and birthday presents….along with personal possessions…. And no one stops them….. Every memory and joyous occasion you could have ever possibly had in ten years… i have learned that no matter what you do to protect your self they will continue to ruin lives until they are dead and beyond because these criminals teach their families and children to be just as corrupt… I have had to learn that being nice and sweet and honest gets you punished… I have learned to not open my heart to anyone .. they all lie and hurt you if you do… not to trust anyone…that basically everyone is out for themselves and if given the opportunity they will only lie and cheat and harm your life… to never believe that any one has your best interest at heart… they are most probably only going to gain your trust so they can harm you… that even God in his infant power can’ t stop criminals… and I have learned that praying for criminals to stop hurting you doesn’t work.. that praying for miracles doesn’t work.. and that each and every day regretting 10 years ruined and wishing you had died at 25 instead of your cousin Nancy…… (then you would have only met one criminal scum face to face…. ) And waiting for heaven where you can finally be surrounded by great and wonderful people….is a dream you have every night…. and that may be the only dream that may ever come true for the rest of my life…. and who the hell was I talking to who thought they gave me 45 thousand dollars??? for what??? i don’t have a new car.. or new furniture…. or new clothes… or anything i wanted in my life… I didn’t get to go and get an MBA… or even to take Harvard executive courses….. so who did you actually give that money to?…. some identity thief ..who what? got the money i was supposed to get for working on the babysitting business…and the etiquette school? i would really like to know.. and i would really like to see these girls face to face and tell them off.. not that it would matter.. a person who doesn’t have a soul…. won’t care that they stole my life.. and all my hopes and dreams… anyway… this email is from the real..original mary jean ziska… ( no freaks and frauds or fakes…. allowed…. ) and i miss my loving mom and my dad and my sisters and my genuine friends. Everyday…. and i can’t wait to get to see the real people who love me and would never hurt me .. in heaven…. I guess… ps.. to date.. inteh last few months.. or actually last month since i wrote in my blog… i had the computers broken again… the car switched from one that stays running when turned off… to not running when turned off… lots of extra miliage when i dont drive or leave my home… ripped almost to shreds.. two pillow cases… oen bed fited sheet… oen creamer container missing.. still never found that 240.00 that disappeared formmy bag when it was sitting in the garage…. A Tender Loving Care Service Marion Gregory Director 239-598-1515 naplesmarion@aol.com Mary Jean Ziska Assistant Director 239-287-2294 whatabtmary@yahoo.com
the alarm mysterously has gone off at 5 am… ( when someoen said a writer was going to leave to go writitng early…. once at 10 pm when i turned on teh alarm earlier than usual…
and now all of this.. with the paperwork all in one package.. missing….
so still missing my dad’s gift of my diamond earrings.. and pearl earrings .. my kakhi cashmere sweater….. and of course this new addition of the red and navy canvas bag… adn god only knows what else…. that they migh thave stolen or “borrowed and put in the bag when they were stealing from my home…. and from me….
i jsut don’t understand why they won’t stop….. and go ruin someoneelse’s life for a while…. not one free year when these assholes haent ruined one part of my olife.. in ten years.. not one entire year whne they havent ruined my life ….
Wednesday December 7th 2011@ 1:41pm ( what every happened to real men…men with integrity?)
What happened to men with integrity… honesty… morals and values… men who stood for principles.. for doing what was right and for being just and lawful…. What happened to men who were real men.. who did what they said they were going to do… who followed through on obligations. On promises… who you could trust… who’s word was valid and enough for a binding contract… the real men of the world who were dependable and reliable… who were not only intelligent but intelligent with finances.. with decisions.. who cared about their family… stood by their friends… and who you could look up to as heroes… as men you would want your children d to emulate.. great men who loved ther country.. there god… their family, and especially loved their spouse… were faithful to their family and to their partners…. Who took pride in their accomplishments and their work ethic… I don’t mean just manual labor kind of men.. But professional… intelligent, well educated…. who planned for great futures for their children…. Supported dreams of their wives.. Their children.. Helped them to achieve the lives they desired… believed in legacies… understood fratiturnity …. Brotherhood… who made a difference in their community.. in their country and in the world… the real power behind industry.. and commerce… Do such men exist anymore? And if they do.. where are they?…. So many man these days are more like boys who never grew up….lots of talk… no substance… men/boys who seem to pride themselves in not working.. but have big plans for many cars.. and homes.. and material possession….. who play games with people’s lives never thinking of the consequences or the destruction and havoc they create… they think of themselves…first… then as if to appear to be selfless. They throw in a useless offering towards anyone nearby… constantly changing their direction … never seemingly focused on any real goals …. Or having lack of ambition.. and never being able to complete anything. Even small projects….. to me that is not a real man… my dad used to say that if you don’t have a destination any road will do… meaning that if you don’t know where you want to go… well… then take any road because your goals will never be met without a plan of action…. And without a definite destination… goal.. end product…. He also always meant… I needed to have a goal… to reach for… a destination to achieve ….. and then make the correct plan of action… your road or path ….. and follow it until you reach the ending point…. The finish line… the destination…. He also made me believe that all or most goals were achievable… well my mom always brought in the belief that all things were possible… you know the old saying ..when there is a will there is a way…. Actually the philosophy of both complimented each other really well when I think about it now… so the point…. Being … where are the real men… and I am defiantly not talking about men who think muscles are the product of being a real man… but a man who can be strong… and reliable… make you feel safe and protected… and yet be able to still communicate like an intelligent human being… and who has real feelings …. Emotions and gosh wouldn’t it be great if he was also romantic…. And….. well heeled…. Perhaps, Creative, even with a streak of an an entrepreneur… or adventurer….. But honest, loyal, integrity, faithful, moral, decent,
Thursday November 03rd 2011@11:20pm ( my mom got a bully email… when will the bullies stop!)
So today I had a phone call from caller id: ( 26669-6687) yep, not enough numbers for a real phone number…. But it is supposed to be my mother’s caller id… on the one phone it says anonymous… then on another phone it has that weird number…. But that’s not the major point I wanted to make… the caller on the line said that she received a really mean email from my sister Maura… Now this couldn’t possibly be true… an email saying that she ( my sister Maura ) either didn’t want my mom to come to her granddaughter’s birthday… or something to the effect????… From what the person on the phone said it sounded really mean… so I knew it couldn’t possibly be from my actual real live sister… Not at all possible!!!!!!!!…. I tried to remind the person on the phone that I had received numerous phone calls that were from bullies.. and letters an even cards that were all meant to harass to bully and to make me cry… to isolate me from my family and my friends and meant to separate me from my family.. Hundreds in fact… over these horrid years… so many I even called Gloria fletcher ( a family friend and criminal attorney ) and she reassured me that my family still loved me.. and no those horrid letters or cards or phone calls couldn’t possibly be from my family… I once even called maura’s husband eric…. When someone e tried to tell me that my sister Maura didn’t even like me anymore… That is not ever the type of thing my sister would ever say…. Or ever tell someone to say to me…. Whoever is trying to separate me or my mom from my sister… the sister who is the attorney. …Who has children… who has a really nice life… could it be possibly to what??? Steal Christmas presents? Manipulate holiday plans…. Why the hell would someone do something like that? I know my real genuine authentic mother…. I know how much she loves her children.. and I know my sister Maura .. and I know how much she loves her mother… and how much she loves her family… Good God people… WHY???? why does someone get a kick of out messing with a family.. trying to destroy relationships… and trying to destroy a life time of love… this really stinks… DON’T HURT MY FAMILY! It is really suspicious that this is starting right around the time of the holidays….. what type of mean, sick demented, person wants to separate a 74 year old mother from her daughter and her granddaughter… My sister may be a lawyer.. but she is also a great, loving daughter.. and a great loving sister… a note to the bullies… and the tormentors… Quit it! These people tried to have my mom believe that my sister didn’t love her.. or… like her… to the point that she was upset.. and wrapping a present for me and my sister Mattie… but not for Maura?… what a crock of poop…. My mother was the epitimy of unconditional love.. and she even got a present for Maura each and every birthday that Mattie and I shared… she wanted us all to have great holidays.. to have great lives… and to be really happy…. She is a great mom who isn’t some embarrasement… or unloved by her children… she is an amazing woman, mother, and now a grandmother… and would be a blessing to all she is able to visit… i dont understand why somebody still wants to create unnecessary drama or to try to make my; family look horrid… is my family so much of a threat? someoen sooo unhappy that we can love each other? or be nice to each other? or actually want ot be around each other?… sisters sho ar suposrtive of dreams.. and of futures… a mother who showed us the world .. and allowed us to have so many advantages…. and rally really loved us.. and wanted us to have great lives… that is the family i remember.. not allthe fake dramas that some sick individual gets a thrill trying to promote… seriously.. what a pathetic horrid person … who takes pleasure in harming instead of building up people… who wants to seperate instead of unite… i guess that is why they still hide behind fake caller id’s or maniplulations… i hope and pray that they are caught and they are punished for the harm they caused… and are still causing… jsut go bother someoen else… or another family.. youve done enough damage…. are you happy is this allyou wanted???? what a waste.. so much energy for evil instead of for great and wonderful experiences…
Tuesday October 25th 2011 @ 7:42pm ( goop is hiring!!!… i emailed mysister .. she’d be perfect for the job… and for the life style… and for everything….)
I have a great sister who was an art director of a fortune 500 country…. I have to brag a bit… she is sooo talented.. and so creative and can do so many things…. well when i saw the email with my goop newsletter… post…. and ad add for these great jobs.. i emailed my sisiter right away… here is the ad:
Goop is hiring
Director of Social Media
Jr. Web/Graphic Designer
must be london based to apply…. send resume to : jobs@goop.com
Wow…. what a fun opportunity for somene who is talented beautiful, creative , single, and did i mention ……. sooooo talented … like my sister….
it was fun seeing an add or something that makes you remember the person you love… and is oen of yoru best freinds… it was soo fun havin gmy mom come back from all her trips around the world.. she would always have presents for us… her three daughters.. and so often it was items she picked up because she knew the itmes would make me happy… or she thought of us when she saw them…. and i learned to do the same thing.. its soo fun to share what the people you love …. love… to get a trinket that makes tehm smile.. or to call them whe a great movie is on they love.. or a t.v show that they are interest in… or an article or book… that makes them jsut share a piece of yoru life with them… or i guess ther life with you….
mysisters were great about hat as well… when you have your sisters as a part of your best friends… group….. and even when you have those great best friends you get to know for the majority of your life… who know you soemtimes better than yourself.. who jsut their presence and kind words makes your life better….. and who youwant to do all those same nice things for them because they do allthose nice things for you.. and they do it jsut because they like you… not for some alterior motive…
anyway i miss my genuine friends…. myloving family…. and allthose people who have taken teh time to make my life better… and all the kind gifts, that had meaning and setiment and showed you cared.. and you knew me and loved me…. to those people… thank you… and i miss you
Tuesday October 25th 2011 @ 7:25pm ( how many times do i have to say i am not spanish… or spanish speakiing!!!!)
so on my yahoo account i now have these adds in spanish… i don tspeak spanish and i dont know how the hell to get rid of them…. also when i had to walk to publix the other day….
(long story but the gist of it is that when ever the idenity thief seems to be out and about… i have these horrid thngs happen to my life… and it stops me from having my life… like closng bank accounts.. or my car…like when it jsut soooo happens… to not work on saturdays… when a few times … like three times in two months… but it workd every other day …. hummmm very wierd right? or jsut other stuff… that can’t be just some wierd coinicidence…. you’d have to read my website and blog: www.mysearchforjustice.com ……to read allthe details….
anyway.. when i was walking to publix ….istopped at the guard gate to make a phone call to tellmy mom that my car again.. on a sat. isn’t working…. but it worked the day before… and even a guy put this scanner on the car… and didnt say antyhig was really wrong with the car… …. but i got a bit off topic…. the topic is… that the guard at my guard gate started speaking spanish to me… I don’t speak spanish…
i think i have done the whole heritage thing… before… but lets reiterate…
my father’s side.. bohemian/ chek/
my mother’s side….. irish/ austrian
and probalby a few other countires.. but european…. not spanish…. and its wierd… i started thinking way back wehn i used to take trips to go and visit my sister mattie and maura in palm beach… and mattie ate a lot of rice and beans.. because she is a vegitarian…. Did someone thng i was spanidh allteh way back then… because it was 2002 when my idenity was stolen… and my capital one cridit card was compromised…
anyway… anted to get it out there… once again…
Monday October 23 2011 ( what a horrible night…. )
actually a horid day and night… I was actually gettin gmy home /condo ready for my aunt fran /mom/, sister madelon marie ziska.and cousin david to come into town and after dinner come onve rot vist… at least that is what i was hoping.. but as i am wriing this.. 7:05pm…. they are haivn dinner at flemmings… adn myaunt will come visit another time.. I decide to stay here…. and get some of this stuff out of the way…..
Its kind of a nice feeling when you can check off the items on the to do list… like i redecorated teh den… i een painted the walls a great chocolate/tan /taupe color….. not an exact color…. because i mixed a ton of colors to get the color… but i must say it came out pretty nice…. i turned an additonal shelving unit into and armoire… and all sorts of things around my home… Today i even found this spray paint… and started paintin ganything that wasn twhite enough……. I’ve organized and streightened the garage and even have lables on everything!HA!….
Fred even trimmed the ficus trees i have on the lanai…. i wasnted to grow the trees into topaiairs… ( but it is a task that must admidt i am really not capable of doing…HA!) instaed they are now more boxy…. which seems to work… I love the manicured hedges of palm beach…. actually they have soem beautiful landscaping her in naples as well… i’m one of those people who really likes things organized.. and labled… and very uniform…. thngs really clean and usually rally neat…
anyway…. its sooo much easier to delegate and have others who are really great at their profesion…. i’ll let them do their jobs…
like next life time.. i get to have a great gardner, maid, adn personal assistant!!!!!! and maybe next lifetime i get to have a nanny and all sorts of assistance.. a personal chef.. with my wonderful family…. you know… my husband who is tall and thinish( athletic thinish …..) and blond and blue eyes.. with our two blond haired blue eyed little children… and in our lovely home… i will get to have a successful business… and everything back that was ruined or stolen this lifetime… and i can still have all my genuine friends that i miss dearly… the friends i made growing up in saudi arabia…. and in school: college, high school, in france… and through out my life….
yep next life time will be great!!!!
Tuesday October 25th 2011 @ 6:22pm ( quote from 27 dresses)
to catch up on the last few weeks… one wierd thing…. I actually had someone tellin gme that they wanted to sell my mom’s wedding dress on ebay…. of course sice she had her dress packed.. and had been saving it for her daughters .. I flipped…. seriously mean girls on the phone… you honestly want to try to tell me that a woman who was/is sooo sentimental… who loved her daughters sooooo much… who had saved her dress… had it specially packed to perserve it…. for at least 45 years …( since i am 45 and she got maried way before my birth… ) that this same woman that i actually even had a conversation about the dream weddings…. the perfect guy.. and all that would entail…. tht one day she wouls p and decide to start doing ebqy which she never did before.. and decide to sell something that is sooooo precious it could be the topic of one of those mastercard priceless commercials….you know… one of those heart to heart conversations about generations of women……. and the necessary elements of a wedding….. something old/ something blue/something borrowed/……. its not fesiable… i cried sooo much when the cold hearted witch on the phone tried to convince me of these lies….. i remembered the movie 27 dresses…
I was going to put the quote and blog post when it happened.. which was this past thursday…and since then the situation has been rectified… and the lie has been stopped…. but Here is the quote anyway….
when ( Jane … the nice and great sister) finds out that her sister ( tess the selfish and lying sister who pretends she is everything that this guy wants… ) when jane finds out
tht her sister cut up her mothr’s wedding dress….
“Nooooo
You dont care… you dont care about anyone but your self do you…
But enough is enough….
I CAN’T UNDO WHAT YOU’VE JUST DONE…
TESS: YOU WOULDNT HURT A FLY AND YOU DEFINATLY WOULDN’T HURT ME ….I’M YOUR SISTER…
JANE: THAT WAS YESTERDAY… TODAY YOUR JUST SOME BITCH WHO BROKE MY HEART AND CUT UP MY MOTHER’S WEDDING DRESS
Tess: Well it wouldnt have fit you anyway…..