I always wrote letters and cards… and my mom saved and entire bin of them  but one year her friend carol and her i was told went  through a bunch of her things and wither put them away or gave them away to someone … so this is about the only letter i have left from my time at  school in Cap Dail… i always wonder if the same imposter who took my baby blanket  or my pictures  of my backpacking in Europe… or even if she took all the  dolls  that i collected throughout  my childhood  of all  the places we traveled… ( i only have my dutch doll and my german hummel dolls…)  anyway.. since last week some girl or boy stole a bunch of my sor. date function pictures.. from college… and since these same ruthless and horrible  girls will pretty much take and steal anything they want I  thought I‘d better make sure I had some type of back up for more of my life that i don’t want these girls to steal…. so a few memorabile letters.. emails.. and probably about everything on my college wall… will somewhere be on this website…  these scummy people think that if they steal these bit sand pieces of my life… then …. well i actually cant assume to think anything like them.. they are criminals… who have no concept of right or wrong.. and they are really the lowest form of parasites possible… organisms that feed off others…  the sad thing is one day something will happen to them.. call it karma.. or god or justice.. but one day they will have to be held culpable for their actions… I cant wait for that day…. I pray everyday for  for the day when they feel the hand of justice on their lives… I pray it is soon… 

I   am still really upset about the pictures…. and still really upset about  the bin of cards.. and my  baby blanket and the pictures from my backpacking… or even my entire living  overseas experience…

Its the  weirdest  thing… these “scummy  wanna be girls” from where ever…. like ohio state.. or new jersey.. or god only knows who I am being mixed  up with  again..  they go out of their way to try to  or want me  to appear to be uncultured.. to not have traveled.. to not have any class or taste… and basically keep trying to  ruin my life…  I am not saying i am perfect. or even close.. I just want to be able to be me… if i want to watch joel Osteen and order a dvd i am free to do that .. i am also free to go to catholic mass.. and to even go shopping and like and want to have nice classic styles… or good quality merchandise..  If i don’t  want to drink alchol… or dont feel like embarasing myself at a bar… I am 44 years old… and i can choose my own  life .. my own friends … my own mentors… quit trying to manipulate my life… I’m sure your little “princesses”  will be able to snag or catch which ever boy they have decided to  catch…  just quit ruining my  life……

 I never did anything to any of these girls…they used me like some pet they could manipulate…… someone they have a right to  manipulate… which they don’t… i never tried to make anyone look bad… and never said anything bad about anyone until karen kahel  bullied me… 

iI  never did anything to any of these girls… who take it upon themselves to lie and cheat and steal…. do they think they are above the law? or the freaks who aren’t actually genuine.. and play games.. with my  life… who do they think  they are?  Instead of choosing to make  lives better… their  insistence of lowering my lifestyle.. my goals.. my wishes and my dreams… well i must say it is really rotten… 

Could they be that  insecure to make others look bad to try to make themselves look good? … I mean their lives must have had something that was unique.. or origional.. I mean maybe they aren’t artistically inclined.. or have never traveled or never lived over seas.. or went to boarding school… SO WHAT>>>>so what if you can’t create a business…..

But you shouldn’t have  to steal other peoples work… i mean its not something i would  ever do.. but since these girls show no grasp of the entire morals and values.. and eithics …. it must be something they learned in childhood..right? . the bullies who continue to feel small and only feel powerful when they can pick on someone … or i guess steal from  someone..  I am pleading to you rotten and horrid girls and boys… please don’t pass these horrid traits onto your children… you bullies make the world a horrid place to  live… and  one day all the lies you tell will eventually catch up with  you… Of course i personally  hope the laws that you break.. (you know) verifiable laws that protect us….  tresspassing,,, stealing… i hope they catch up with  you sooner than later… and perhaps while you are sitting in jail you may just  get  a chance to  think of what you have done to others… but sadly…  maybe you wont actually amend your ways…  until it happens to you..or your children… or some one you actually love.. that is if you have the capacity to love..or feel anything for anyone but yourselves.. which may not be the case… anyway…..  then you will start to think of how others were harmed by your actions.. who knows maybe you will even feel remorse.. but that may be asking far to much for the likes  of you….. . 

But what i dont understand is why these scummy parasites…why they  can’ t leave those of us who have … had a great life… why can’t you stop ruining our lives  and just  put all your energy on  trying to  get that special guy to actually like you..by knowing who you are really are.. no lies.. not being fake… or the con artist/actors you really are….or the you . that you are pretending to be…Who knows.. maybe somewhere in that nasty and vile person that you are today which has to lie and cheat and steal… maybe somewhere… lerks a decent person…
(I seriously doubt it.. but who knows?????????????????????????????????????) 
  
Final note…   I want all my possessions back…. i want  all the lettters… the clothing the jewlery… the cards the baby blanket… the pictures.. i want it all back and i will not  rest and will not stop trying  to make sure justice  is done until  you are found…  prosecuted for your crimes.. and items are returned… I mean really girls.. get your own life… it couldn’t have been that horrible ?

Anyway here is the letter i wrote October 03, 1984
Dear Mom, Mattie, and Maura,
I got your letters today with Jennifer’s address and letter inside.  Thank you very much! Today was the second day of classes and it’s pretty difficult since I’m going to be her for three months I may switch down to a little easier level and review everything, I’ve learned before. 

I’ve really met some nice  people her that i’m sure I’ve told you about .  Lucie and i have become great friends and do lots of things together. Last night was a blast! 
Wee went down to Cap Dail to have some hot coco at this little cake called Edmonds and met claes and Thomas there! These are the e tow swedish guys that I’ve met.  They are so nice and thomas is super cute. Lucie really likes Thomas but last night he was really a big flirt and I was flirting right back!  If they come to Florida for x-mas do you think we could house them  for a few days before they go onto houston- they are very nice and I’m sure they would not be a bother because right now they are working an d helping out this guy jean.  they are so much fun and I’ve already said yes can they come and stay for a while? Please? I know you would like them! thanks!

The brunch does sound like a huge success! Its too bad there weren’t  that many people- but 55 is a lot- your just used used to the huge turnouts they had in saudi!  when you write to him (father watrin ) please tell him I said hello and helen and everyone o.k.? 

maura told me about the birthday party- sounded like great fun!  

I tried calling Sylvie and i got his French lady who said i had the wrong number or osmething.  I think i shall try again soon because I would like to see her. Ive met a very nce girl named Lucie and she reminds me a lot of sylvie infact I almos tgot her names mixed up a few times.  We are really a lot alike and hae gret fun traveling and exploring.  

On sunday we walked to Monaco toether! it was terrific- First off htere are some really nice gilrs one is from teh states new yourk and went to school at Andover- please ask Maura who we know from the at school- i know we do but i cant fo rthe life of me remember who!  Anyway she’s nice I asked her and her roomate to join  us and they did.   So we trucked it on over and split up after a while and Lucie and I went along!  It was a blast becaue we are really a lot alike its funy because we are always spotting the same cute guys! Anyway, just  ater we split up we started watching a race  and I saw Anna Polk for saudi arabia- she ws pretty skinny dressed very nice and had part of her blond/white hair dyed black- she said tootie left saudi and she was stil  in schoolin switserland and spending eh wekend in monaco.. how feaky i dont know if she rememvbered my name i dont think so. I’m not sure if she really knew who i was!  Ha! then we ran into Lucies’ next door neighbors who wer supposed to be in Germany! Ha!  wait.. then as we were walking along te side walk this mercades pulls up wiht these tow older guys and they invite us to go out and have drinks they were pretty disgusting so we polietly declined their offer- as we kept walking we sw oneof the Monaco soccar players that we had met at the disco the night before ( but that is an entirely different story I’ll tell you later ) anyway, he told us a good place to get hot chocolat and we went We wer wearing shorts but looked very nice and even go into the ecasino ( where your not allowed unless your 21 yars old HA!)
The cafe de paris was really filled wo we wnt to go and hve lunch at anothe cafe that Luci knew about- as we were walking we saw this super cute guy that i thoguth was probably french I guess i said hi to him but i cant rememer – we went to the cafe and sat down and 5 minutes later guess who shows up .. this cute guy with a friend 
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