Here is a thought boys…. perhaps when a girl doesn’t  want  to sleep with you..it doesn’t mean she is gay.. or even that  there is something “wrong” with the girl…   it means that she is not ( and i repeat …NOT atracted to you…. ) that maybe your  are not  someone she  thinks is attractive … to her….

that doesn’t mean that the guy isnt  attractive to someone else… but  perhaps she has always liked tallish guys… who are thin and have an athletic build…  who  make her feel safe.. and protected.. or perhaps she thinks that piercing blue eyes are  memorizing… and she loves light hair  and only  wants to date caucausian guys…  it is just her perference…  in the physical looks  department.. and her right to pick who she wants…  and who or what she likes…  jsut as he is able to  pick  the “physical type” of girl he is attracted to…  but that doesn’t mean that they  can’t be friends…. unless the guy has never been able  to be a friend  to a girl…. 

so concerning the  topic of  friends  and guys and girls being  able to be friends… like  in  “when harry met sally”….  harry believed that guys and girls can’t be friends… but once he matured in the movie…  and understood what a real relationship needed to survive… and understood what love actually was….  he actaully found that  this girl who he actually was attracted to and was a friend… and most imposrtantly she was likewise  attracted to him… was the person  that she /he were meant to be together…   but  for a long time they were friends….  like real friends.. able to “hang out” have conversations… and able to be there for each other… in great times and in bad times…    wow… really refreshing right? 


and then there is the entire  personality  part of a compatible relationship…. but wait.. i think that  the type of guy who believes that a girl must be gay because she does not want any guy to  put his hands on her…. or to rub up against her.. or to show unwated affections…  this  type of guy…. jsut will never get it…   ohhhh wellll….. too bad…. anyway….      

so guys…  i know your ego is fragil.. and   you may not understand that not every girl likes the same type of guy…  don’t  take it soooo personally…    can’t you jsut be a freind with a girl?… i mean if you actaully respect her… and  like  the way she thinks or acts.. or her kindess.or her way with children.. or her ambition.. or anything that actually lasts…  maybe you will realize that  looks dont  stay teh same… … and  if somemoen  doen’t  want to be “played with” that doesn’t  necessarily mean that  the girl is boring… jsut that she has different wants and needs in a relationship.. maybe grown up attitudes about  maintaing and sustaining a real relationship not  based on just  the physical act of sex…  especilly if  she is not interested in having sex with  some random guy…  get over it… its like  the movie.. “she is not into you”… HA!… wait  the movie title is actaully  “he’s not that into you”… but it still appllies  if you switch the gender around…  

mabye it takes a different way of thinking about women.. and about love and about  relationships… romantic and freindship…and everythng inbetween….. in that case… be a real friend and let the girl find her real prince charming.. and real   perfect match or gingerbreadman…. and be happy for her when she does… because there is someone  out there… who is made just  for you…  jsut maybe ….. not me… or many other girls but some girl will  do it for you… 

its like the scummy guy who liked  to scare me.. the  brooklyn new york guy who ruined my life… who want honset or trustworthy and was jsut plain criminal and bad…. a bit like  one of the “thug” new jersey types… who talks too loud.. and had no common interests.. with me… but for some reason .. thinks that all woman  love him…  you know the arrogant type.. uneducated.. and very primal…. like a caveman.. who hunts girls as prey… and believes that all the girls in the world are put on earth for him…. UCK>>>>

anyway.. this type of guy is the last person on earth that would ever make me happy or be the type of guy i would  think would  make a great husband..   or even a friend…  but that is jsut me…  i’m sure ther is a girl out ther that loves  that type of guy… not me…. never me… 

i miss my friends and my family…. real friends who help  make your hopes and dreams come true.. and who actually like me  and really love me…. i’ve really missed them a lot…    everyday…. i miss them more  and more….

Here is a thought boys…. perhaps when a girl doesn’t  want  to sleep with you..it doesn’t mean she is gay.. or even that  there is something “wrong” with the girl…   it means that she is not ( and i repeat …NOT atracted to you…. ) that maybe your  are not  someone she  thinks is attractive … to her….

that doesn’t mean that the guy isnt  attractive to someone else… but  perhaps she has always liked tallish guys… who are thin and have an athletic build…  who  make her feel safe.. and protected.. or perhaps she thinks that piercing blue eyes are  memorizing… and she loves light hair  and only  wants to date caucausian guys…  it is just her perference…  in the physical looks  department.. and her right to pick who she wants…  and who or what she likes…  jsut as he is able to  pick  the “physical type” of girl he is attracted to…  but that doesn’t mean that they  can’t be friends…. unless the guy has never been able  to be a friend  to a girl…. 

so concerning the  topic of  friends  and guys and girls being  able to be friends… like  in  “when harry met sally”….  harry believed that guys and girls can’t be friends… but once he matured in the movie…  and understood what a real relationship needed to survive… and understood what love actually was….  he actaully found that  this girl who he actually was attracted to and was a friend… and most imposrtantly she was likewise  attracted to him… was the person  that she /he were meant to be together…   but  for a long time they were friends….  like real friends.. able to “hang out” have conversations… and able to be there for each other… in great times and in bad times…    wow… really refreshing right? 


and then there is the entire  personality  part of a compatible relationship…. but wait.. i think that  the type of guy who believes that a girl must be gay because she does not want any guy to  put his hands on her…. or to rub up against her.. or to show unwated affections…  this  type of guy…. jsut will never get it…   ohhhh wellll….. too bad…. anyway….      

so guys…  i know your ego is fragil.. and   you may not understand that not every girl likes the same type of guy…  don’t  take it soooo personally…    can’t you jsut be a freind with a girl?… i mean if you actaully respect her… and  like  the way she thinks or acts.. or her kindess.or her way with children.. or her ambition.. or anything that actually lasts…  maybe you will realize that  looks dont  stay teh same… … and  if somemoen  doen’t  want to be “played with” that doesn’t  necessarily mean that  the girl is boring… jsut that she has different wants and needs in a relationship.. maybe grown up attitudes about  maintaing and sustaining a real relationship not  based on just  the physical act of sex…  especilly if  she is not interested in having sex with  some random guy…  get over it… its like  the movie.. “she is not into you”… HA!… wait  the movie title is actaully  “he’s not that into you”… but it still appllies  if you switch the gender around…  

mabye it takes a different way of thinking about women.. and about love and about  relationships… romantic and freindship…and everythng inbetween….. in that case… be a real friend and let the girl find her real prince charming.. and real   perfect match or gingerbreadman…. and be happy for her when she does… because there is someone  out there… who is made just  for you…  jsut maybe ….. not me… or many other girls but some girl will  do it for you… 

its like the scummy guy who liked  to scare me.. the  brooklyn new york guy who ruined my life… who want honset or trustworthy and was jsut plain criminal and bad…. a bit like  one of the “thug” new jersey types… who talks too loud.. and had no common interests.. with me… but for some reason .. thinks that all woman  love him…  you know the arrogant type.. uneducated.. and very primal…. like a caveman.. who hunts girls as prey… and believes that all the girls in the world are put on earth for him…. UCK>>>>

anyway.. this type of guy is the last person on earth that would ever make me happy or be the type of guy i would  think would  make a great husband..   or even a friend…  but that is jsut me…  i’m sure ther is a girl out ther that loves  that type of guy… not me…. never me… 

i miss my friends and my family…. real friends who help  make your hopes me and dreams come true.. and who actually likes me  and really loves me…. i’ve really missed them a lot…    everyday…. i miss them more  and more….

so here is the thing… how hard is it to have a real and genuine conversation these days… i will get ton the phoen with someoen … and they give me a play by play of the dog they are walking.. and teh  weather.. and the stops they make… but when i hang up.. no real conversation ther at all.. its liek a waste of breath….i ean i understan d not every conversation needs to be intelicutal or deep or solve world hunger.. or  even touch on  really valid topics… but  maybe real  quesitons… like how was yoru day.. and how  are you doing… and actually mean  it… and listen to athe answers.. and then go from there…  youknow… back and forth  with real genunine conversation… bringing up past events.. and laughin gabout  current situations… and no restricgtiosn  on what can and cannot be said…  as if you were being sensored or yrouconversation was being recorded.. but autaly really care aboutteh person on the other end of the phone… and take teh time to give real advice if asked… and not interject  personally motivated manipulation…. you know… and wow.. if you can actually talkabout hoes and dreams.. and inspire someone to  believe  again.. in anything… in ther passions.. in ther hopes intheir dreams.. in their lives, jobs… hobbies… in anything… to actually make a conversaon something tha tyou can remember  tha tinspired you… and theat motivated you… een tha t made youalugh… and made you happier.. to feel a kindred spirit onteh other end of the phone… and to knwo the next time you pick up the phone you  will be able to continue or start a new conversation… not  a new freindship.. or have to start all over like a blank charl board with a new dreaft… but hopefully be able to be talkign to a real friend… on e with a history… and a presen tand who wnats to hve many conversations  in teh future…. that to me is the  basis of a real genuine conversaton… no acting.. no fakes.. no fraud… no phonies… and nthing false… but a real genuine authentic conversation either in perosn.. or on the phone.. or even through skype..or chat.. or however  you want to connect to another real human being.. and give  a smart part of your self  over  to another.. to share a moment in time and in life… that is geinuine and real  and cannot be duplicated.. nor stolen… not faked… but just real….    and  when you tell them you love them… that you actually mean it.. 

i missed an entire month of no blogging on the site for mygingerbreadman.com and for mysearchforjustice.com… its not that i havent thought  to blog or to write up  my comments… but it always seemed that there were other things to do.. s i will try to catch up on some of the random thoughts  of the past month… like…

what does a girl actually think is sexy?… perhaps i may be a bit different… but i still like …or am attracted to …. tallish, thinish, blond haired adn blue eyed guys… i mena it has varied over teh years.. and ther have been some exceptions.. but mostly… my head turns  for a really stylish.. guy  who doesnt even know he’s sexy.. like  when he throws on a jacket and ouhead off to dinner… and his manners.. his ettiquete and his conversation.. intreguing… and genuine.. wow.. really is a definate plus…. 

then when he goes out of his way to  follow  through with  a promise.. or to take the time  to make sure  you are safe..  to check on things without being asked.. and to find the subjects you really  find stimulating.. or valuable .. or interesting.. and to be able to actaully talke to you about them..  in an open and  interesting conversation…. and to be able to even sometimes… even take your opinion to heart.. and wow.. if they actually  believe the same way about the same passions you do… that is really sexy… and nice… 

its nice  when  a guy actaully takes the  time to  call in the  middle of  his busy day to say hi and to see how your  day is going…

and  what a treat to have soemoen who actualy rally and honestly likes you… and is hapy to see you.. and to spend time wtih you… ( not a measured time.. like i have 5 minutes what’s up kind of converstaion.. but actaullly really want to get to know you… ) maybe that only happens in the courting phase…  but it is still really nice and realy great when you get to spend quality time with someone  you are really attracted to.. who will  really want to see you happy… and want to make yoru wishes an ddreams coem true.. and actually listens to yoru dreams .. and helps you plan for a future when they do come true….  

so do these guys actually exist? maybe only on paper… but its stilla really nce thought.. to  believe that ther is still a prince charming  out there… who is actully still charming… and polite.. and has manners..and etiquette..and is genuine ..and loyal.. and intelligent.. and kind.. and sincenere… and normal… and  who knows  how to dress well.. and to behave. and to make a woman not feel like some object.. but a person that they genuinely want to spend the rest of their life with…   now that guy woudl be really sexy…right?…. especially in a tux..  or givign a bath to your little child.. or rocking  them to sleep…. or…. doing all those little things you hate to do… just to make your life easier… and following through with  all the promises…. wow… i think i could  just melt thinking of this imaginary gingerbreadman….  good night sweet dreams…        

                                                   

I just got an email concerning the  msnbc million $ portfolio challenge today… but the contest actually started on the 19th… so i need to catch up I created the names of my 5 portfolios.. and will  finish  with the stock selections later… 

anyone  else playig along?  is it similar to the last challengers they had online? Anyone  interested in comparing stock selections, and discussing everything? 

I am always interested in learning…   here is the link to the million dollar portfolio challenge…


                                                      http://milliondollar.cnbc.com

 

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  I had a print i bought when first moved in to my own apartment  ages ago.. you know the kind the black and white print  that goes with everything….   in fact my entire decorating for the living room of that apt. with  wood floors…. was a minimal istic and a bit on the modern. side of design… I even painted a brick wall…  to give it that loft appeal… well one of my prints was the “American Girl in Italy”…. and another one was  Robert Doisneau  “Le Baiser de L’hotel de ville Paris 1950”.  I had a magazine article pasted on the back of the le Baiser de L’hotel de ville Paris 1950 that i believe  had an interesting back story to the picture.. but it somehow go tlos when it was in storage… but yesterday to my delight,  there were some really fun articles  on  the internet all about the  60th anniversary of the American Girl in Italy…   
here are some of them…. 

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/american-girl-italy-60-years-later-221005987.html  


http://www.orkinphoto.com/photographs/american-girl/ 


http://today.msnbc.msn.com/cleanprint/CleanPrintProxy.aspx?unique=1313810592968
 

 Absolutely loved it…. the “Do Somehting Awards”…

finally something positive..  recognition  for making a positive difference…..

especially liked Sophia Bush  speech…  when she won…. 
she believed that we can all make a difference in so many areas of this world…. and in our own lifetimes….  nice thought… really nice thought…. she actually was really articulate.. and her speech..i think it was the best of the evening…..  

one guy actually came up with an idea  for gathering food clothing etc. that people wer egogin to get rid of when they were moving.. and give that food to a food bank… brilliant…  

another woman….a young widow  created a foudnation to help other young widows… 

people who  wer famous and other s who wer enot famous.. who went out of ther way to make a difference…. to make a positive difference…  and the difference changed people’s lives… WOW>>>  why can’t everyone  do something… 
 

I feel quilty that these last eight years i had to deal with a bunch of criminals an d the havic they left in my life..  I wish i could  have accomplished all that i had wanted in my own personal goals.. but could have…..

done some of the ideas that i had wanted.. like,  to help others with business… like helping  people create sucessful businesses… within an organization that could    mentor and help to make sure the businesees had business plans.. and all the necessary elements that make a busiess sucessful…. then wouldn’t it be great if it was like a pay it forward system… and then others assisted in helpng others to make sucess.. and that success gives back…
when there was so much  to do… it just takes a great idea and    
Just a thought…. instead of allowing criminals to harm lives, families…  and businesses…

Just a thought….  shouldn’t award cermony’s that actually award people for making a positive difference… wouldn’t  it be  great if these awards were as large as of say the academy awards…  or the oscars…. maybe someday….  



“The 2011 Do Something Awards, which taped last week in Los Angeles, aired Thursday night (Aug. 18) on VH1. Here are some highlights in case you missed any of it!

 And here is a complete list of the winners:

Do Something! Award: Sarah Cronk
Do Something Athlete: David Beckham
Do Something Charity Song: “Make A Wave” Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas
Do Something City: New York City
Do Something Docu-Style: “Waiting For Superman”
Do Something Comedian: Will Ferrell
Do Something Movie Star: Olivia Wilde
Do Something Music Artist: Justin Bieber
Do Something Reality TV Show: “America’s Best Dance Crew”
Do Something Style: Tyra Banks
Do Something Concert: Taylor Swift’s Speak Now Tour To Benefit Tornado Victims
Do Something Festival: Coachella
Do Something Couple: Jimmy Fallon and Stephen Colbert
Do Something TV Show: Glee
Do Something TV Star: Demi Lovato
Do Something Twitter: Sophia Bush
Do Something Facebook: Robin Hood Foundation/Lady Gaga Giveaway

 

 I saw the end of this movie…. Leap of Faith…. ( with Steve Martin)…. it just started again.. so i may write and watch this  at teh same time…  

anyone else ever watch this?… any comments?…. 

I am sorry to report… two years of praying to St.Jude for protection from harm… for  a huge financiel miracle… well no prayes were answered no miracles occured…. 

I am a bit frustrated… and very disapponted…. in these past 8 years…. in a lot of horrible expereinces that it should have never had to go through… and of the friends and family members who not only haven’t contacted me..or helped me… but have pretty much abandoned me…  
 
yes i am frustrated…. and disappointed…. and yes  probably everyone and their brother prays for  some sort of miracle.. at at one point in time i had people trying to convince me that not evreyone gets a miracle… or that these  really stupid incidents were miracles… like having to deal with a crook  and a screwed up mortgage… and a broker who stole $3000.00 ( in some twisted way they were trying to convicne me that is a miracle…  Not my idea of a miracle…  )

defination of a miracle:

anyway…. its not like i  was delusional  and thought that god himself was going  to  come down from some clouds… and  banish all the bad people using a lightening rod or anythng….  I just thought that some really wonderful blessings … would actually occur and woudl occur without  anyone threatening me.. or scaring me.. or  harming me or my life…

and   these miracles … would be real… not  some made up story  trying to explainaway another horrible experience…. with some lies and twists….. not some freak who is narrating an even or tryingto predict the events outcome… like anidiot who thinks they are an actor.. or some  freak who thinks they can manipulate a life …my life and   then not be responsible for the aftermath… the consequences….  

I known some or most of  the idiots (the bullies… and  girls who were lying… and/are  stealing babysitting jobs or just manipulating things ….  )   the same peole i had to deal with  on the phone who don’t always have my best interest at heart…  
I’m just tired of them  “winning”…..( go ask karen kahel.. or any of the mean girls… what it must feel liek to bully and to ruin rlives and businesses…. and they call it winning…)

I guess I thought God was supposed to be bigger than that….  bigger than a hacker  who steals phoen messges… or a thief who seal files… for a busines… or an idenity  theif who steals clothes or jewlery…. 

 that God wasn’t some wealthy guy or girl or family who actully had to “sponser your life”…. ( that  is how it feels now.. that unless you have money and soembody who approves of your actions .. you really don’t  get anythng you want ..it doesnt matter how much you work.. what choices you make.. people will make decisions  based on what they want  your life to be like… and then you have to deal with the consequences… 

for example… i dislike Walmart.. and mc donalds.. and other businesses… and i had a fake mom on the phone… basically  giving a play by play of her directions using the plaes i dilike as lanmarks.. as if she were marketing those establishments.. and as if me or my family actully go to those establishments….  whcih i dont like… then i get this really poor family on the phone who does like mc donalds… or whatever… its like in the truman show..when the wife  was trying to sell these products by using them…. it’s  freaky and unnatural.. and seems so fake…..

also…. by putting someone thorugh hell ( I unfortunately became the peson who was somehow chosen to go through hell…. )  then i am supposed to just bounce  back and not only pretend that it never happend or affected my life… but i am supposed to “deal with it”  and figure out how to fix the mess they made… So where is God in all of this… . he seems to be absent… his blessings seem to go to anyone who can steal them… or lie and cheat and steal….  because being honest hasn’t helped me one bit.. telling the truth.. working hard.. and  planing for a great future.. nope… no miracles…. when you are acutlly telling the truth….  and praying for them… or expecting them ….it goes to someone younger.. prettier.. thinnner.. and who can manipulate lives…. or who can steal without it bothering them…  what a shame…. i actually thought i coudl give this big testimony… of how God answers prayers…   how having faith for 8 years… and prayeing a St Jude novena for two years actully will work eventually  it will owrk… but i am really sorry to say … i cannot… as o ftoday.. i can not… this real life… average perosn.. can honestly say…. that i will still be going to court to try to make  sure i keep my home….. this tuesday… then going through more hell after that… so much  for positive thinking .. prayers.. and God’s miracles….  

i guess althe negative people were rigt…. and I guess i was right.. i didnt matter…..     


and if that is true.. then there really isn’t a god… just a bunch of people who  use people like puppets….  and if that is the case.. what the hell have i been dong praying to a being that might not even exist? Who doesn’t   seem to answer prayers… and who doesn’t even  seem to care one way or another….   

I mean did mark zuckerberg ( facebook)  pray to  God?  or
 Bill Gates did he pray? or what about Warren buffet? …. Does anyone know if he prays? I havent really heard that anyof the billionaires actualy prayed… they just  became succcessful  perhaps without  having  to pray.. so what exactly  does prayer do?  

no priests I have spoken to lately have  told me of examples of miracles happening though prayer…  i meet a lot of mesed up people who pray… and  people who have problems who pray…. but the really succesful  happy people…. who have more  than enough of everythng… do they have to pray?  

Does anyone have any real answeres?

to end this blog on a positve and funny note….  the joel osteen  joke was funny today….  about a catholic school ( i thnk) anyway there was a lunch line…  and a nun had written  a note on the bowl of apples… ( jsut take one…God is watching) ..further down the lunch line a child had writen a note on the choc. chip cookies…. take all you want.. God is watching the apples…. HA!  

” Today if you feel like everything is against you , instead of considering  our circumstances , consider your God.  He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all you could  ever ask, think or imagine.He has plans are for your good and he can make a way where there seems to be no way- Look to him, trust him, hold fast to what he’s placed in your heart because he is working behind the scenes Just like  Abraham you’ll see every dream and desire fulfilled for  the Glory of God!”

Wow,  Now that is a positive quote from joel osteen.. actualy most of his blog posts are so very positive… today i had a call from a person  in his ministry…. and she said an amazing prayer….  thanking God for his blessings.. and such a positive, unwavering  belief that her prayer would be answered… that God would and could  answer our prayers…

recently i have had so many people who have wanted me to believe  for less… to dream less.. to want  less… and  its so different than when you have your  supportive and loving family and  friends  around …..   having a bully call twice on the  phone tonight…     made me a bit worried that i would have to go through all sorts of hell again…  but i immediately called  the  police  and wanted to put a stop to it right  away….. and that is how i feel about the people who really aren’t my true friends… or family… who could  care less about me…  or my happiness…

then i read the quote by  joel osteen… and hope and pray that one day.. i can brag that evil was defeated… that a criminals who are intent on committing fraud by manipulating…were not only stopped from  harming me.. but stopped permanently….. and that i can be blessed… i mean really blessed… with all that i ever wanted…  family, friends, beautiful home, great, successful business….  everything…  even everything the scum has stolen these last 8 years….

For some reason and i don’t know why.. but so many catholic people are afraid to believe that god can really allow them to be really happy… to have it all…  i was told by father kelly that  joel osteen was like a santa clause preacher…    but what  is so wrong  with santa clause?…..   why can’t  we have it all…. be happy… have a great family, a successful business… beautiful home, and great friends… and even have all your wishes and dreams come true?  I mean santa clause… what a great guy… gift giver… bringing joy and merriment… laughter and presents.. the fulfillment of hopes and dreams… of wishes and all that is great and wonderful… why can’t God be like that?…. full of love and……

I like hearing that all  things are possible…   i guess that is why i like when father john ludden says  ” without a shadow of a doubt”…. it makes me fees that there are  certainties… that without a shadow of a doubt….
god is an absolute…  one true thing…

I had someone today tell me that  everyone wants to win the lottery… or have a miracle of their own..and tha god  will not or does not  answer all prayers…  they put  hope and god and dreams all  in a very small box…
so i asked them…. if god wont answer my prayers… was it because i wasn’t  tall enough? thin enough… blond enough?  or prayed long enough? not sincere enough? cry enough?  what criteria will allow a prayer to be answered… or not  answered….. anyone have an answer? …..

If there is no true and certain answer why my prayes cant be answered.. then i guess i can believe that all things are still possible…
luke 11:9:  “So I say to you , ask and it will be given to you see and  you will find knock and the   it will be opened to you for everyone
l so i am still  anticipating that prayers will be answered…. so lets see……