i havent been on my blog or my website it looks like in almost a year… since last december…  and went online today to fix more problems… ha… someone hijacked my eharmony account… my yahoo email account for whatabtmary@yahoo.com and tons of other accounts.. i had been on skype with a connection to facebook but that too kept getting hijacked.. as i had a skype account that some evil person wanted to use so they could make free calls…. so on this halloween.. and it beign my  least favorite holiday… i chatted into wayfm for prayers for protection from all evil… and i plan on having a very peaceful holiday…. with god at the forfront intead of witches and evil …. personally i feel like  i have delt with witches and evil for the past ten years.. and it has been a very hard fight to fight off idenity thieves… to fight off evil and to hae my heart and soul broken by all the destruction  evil and evil deeds doen by evil people can do in a life… so tonight i proclaim.. i am God’s property… as i have been praying for the past 5 years…. each day… that i am covered bythe blood of jesus and his umbrella of protection   and wear his armour… accordignto ephesians6… as you can tell i have been more into the bible this past year… and pray each and and every day for  a huge financial miracle… for peace,joy,happiness,prosperity,abudance and success, for perfect health and true adn pure love as in 1cornithians 13 4-13 for the fulfillment and attainment of all my  hopes wishes dreams and goals and for god to show me and teach me what i still need to learn to be a great steward of his blessings, finances, favor and his resources… so that i may in my actions and my life show his true glory and follow his will and live the life i was meant to live… i pray each day that he keeps all evil away from me and my familyand my friends.. so I do not have to deal with fighting evil but instead focus on so many great things in life… in jesus name i pray… if anyone ever reads this.. that you will have a blessed halloween safe from all evil…. and i am so greateful and glad that the hackers havent ruined me logging into thisaccount.. now i still have to fix all the other accounts and areas of my life they have damaged…  written with luv from mary jean ziska…
ps.. still no perfect gingerbreadman in the picture for me..  but i can say i have definately been establishing definate criteria… i saw  this movie about courageous men… cant remember the exact title of the movie… something like “where are the men of courage “….. it made me cry… and i ask you where are men of integrity, of honor, who are honest, trustworthy, faithful… who stand up for their beliefs, who are christian in faith.. and follow the commandments.. like thou shall not steal… men who are rightious and just.. not just in public but always… who love god their country, ther families, ther friends.. and who exemplify the very best a true man could be… 
i see guys.. not men not true men think that working out.. or excessive tanning.. or partying.. or getting money by  harming people .. they somehow think they are cool… and  above laws.. above everything… when it is so much more sexy and atractive to see a true man  being kind and gentle with his newborn daughter… or going out of his way to help an elderly person in the neighborhood… to show a true example of strength in actions of kindness and generosity instead of pounds of weights they can pump at a gym….  to see a real man show manners adn ethics in every circumstance… and to raise his famly and be a loving and faithful husband… now that is to me.. a true man  of courage…  i dotn know if they even exist anymore… it has to be a combination of environment and of personality… and society has gone so far off at times… i keep searching.. for positive examples of real men and women… like  one of the bush daughters who started a philanthrophy… and kirk or is it kirt.. cameron.. who made a pledge to his wife to not even kiss another woman in a movie other than his wife… soeone strong enough to stand up to an industry who will do whatever to make money… it is nice to see values being upheld… and i pray that real men will stand out in the news and in society shining the light  of god and brigning back an example of the best of what god intended us to be…
I am now 47 years old.. and without a miracle i may not be able to still have children..  but i still dream  the same dream of perfect love adn happiness with children and laughter and a great husband and great family,friends, and with God at the center… and his blessings and favor and resources.. allowing us to be everything we were ment to be.. if there had been no evil… no stealing of idenities.. no horid bullied..  i pray  my hopes wishes and dreams still come true… maybe by this christmas… or the 2014 new year of greatness….