Dearest Mattie,(Madelon Marie Ziska)  December 2012

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  Christmas 2012… I wish for you that the
spirit of Christmas.. the joy… and wonder of 
the season… the excitement and anticipation of wondrous gifts and the
love  of family and friends are with you
now and throughout the year…

 I wish You a
continued open heart.. And unconditional love…. A true gingerbread man to come
into your life and who will love you now and forever and love you ( as in Bridget
 Jones: “ just as you are”) knowing how
god perfectly formed you to be such an amazing person…. and finding such an
amazing wonderful guy who can appreciate you 
and all that you have to offer… the great and amazing sister I have
known  and loved as my sister and my
friend…throughout  my life…. Madelon
Marie Ziska!

You were one of the inspirations for  writing 
the story of the gingerbread man…. An amazing woman who has so much to
offer.. and not finding  anyone worthy of
you……  And my sister,…. My friend ,you
deserve to have such an amazing life…   I wanted to write you special a note this
Christmas to tell you   that I believe
you can achieve anything …. that your strength in character, your  resilience in adversity, amazes me…. I know
they say god doesn’t give  us more than
we can handle… but I think that is a bit 
of an off statement… and that  you
had a right to have such a wonderful life… 
growing up in Saudi… you were so sweet and so loving to all…. I wish you
could have been protected and  blessed
your entire lifetime …. I think of you with your  innocent smile… and holding lambsie ( is that
how it is spelled? )If I could have…. I would have made sure you could have
stayed  protected and  blessed 
your entire life…   Mattie, You
have such a kind soul… one that is meant to go to heaven… A pure  soul 
and person who makes a difference in this world… the people you meet…
you make a lasting impression… your presence, your life… and just who you
are….mattie you are  so memorable….
And  so loved by all the people  you meet…   
you have the most generous heart…. The most loving nature…. And  you would help or give of your self without
even thinking twice…..

You have protected me from harm when I didn’t even know it
existed…. And you sacrificed for others and for that I have no words.. .but
total admiration…. The selflessness 
and  friendship you  give  of
yourself…   those are memories I will have with me all of
my life…  your  ability to 
dream up inventions…  to be
creative… to be an entrepreneur… to inspire and to encourage…. The strength you
have in your  belief of God… and
goodness.. and your ability to be such a great friend…. If you wanted to be a
mother… you would make a wonderful mother…  
and  when you choose someone  who has all those great qualities… you will
be a great wife….  Actually  you have so many hidden talents…  you constantly inspire me when I see your
ability to achieve any goal you set….

I loved talking to you on the  phone about anything…  business… or television programs.. or
inspirational books.. or  goals or hopes
and dreams… I shared so much of my heart with you…. You were my sister and one
of my best friends…  and I feel so
blessed that I had an opportunity to have you in my life…. 

When someone in this world wasn’t nice it was so nice to
know that the strength  we had as
sisters  and friends  couldn’t be broken… I knew I could always
count on you…. And  you were always on my
side.. always there… and always such an amazing sister and friend.

I wrote to Maura , and I will say something similar to you…
I don’t know if I did enough for you… for my real sister….  I had always believed that my life would be
great.. that the blessings I had…. I could share… and I always  thought I could be that big sister who
could  really bless you…. To help
you  to achieve your goals and dreams.. …To
help you make all your wishes come true…. 
I wanted you to have such a great life…  
 and I am sorry   that my life was destroyed … and I wasn’t
able to be that big sister who 
could  Bless you  and give you all that you  should 
have had….     

I don’t know the extent of how much
these horrid people have hurt you…they ruined my life… and for 13 years…. Their
lies cheating and stealing….  The
disgusting scum that  made up these
people who had no care for the destruction they did to me.. and to   each of us personally .. and to our family
in total… it is unforgivable… when we never hurt anyone… and they absolutely
ruined lives…. And did it with malicious intent and  with the utmost evil  in their hearts and souls….  They stole my identity… my credit my
business… my hopes and dreams… and  I
will never recover from this devastation…. I cannot fight them alone… and their
manipulation and utter disregard for laws and ethics and morals.. and
decency…goes far beyond  my strength… and
it changed who I am today.. and who I was supposed to have become… I pray  every night for protection from harm for you
and all our family…. And that they will leave you alone and  not destroy 
your life… your ability to love and trust…  and  I
actually pray they will die so that they will never be ever able  to hurt anyone ever again….  I can’t wait to be dead and in heaven where
they will not be able to  hurt us any
more… and where all our genuine family and friends will be and where finally
where all real hopes and dreams can come true….

Mattie… I’m sorry to say my
belief in miracles.. and heroes and 
hopes and dreams coming true…   of
all that is sugar and spice and everything nice…. May only be for  heaven…. 
I  tried to  keep positive… but its too hard when you face
pure evil… who’s total intent is to WIN…. And  
without morals values and ethics..and 
with calculated manipulation, destructive and devious  lies,  cheating and 
stealing…   there are just too
many of the evil assholes around…   and
by them separating me from my family and friends… and ruining my life and not
even caring that they do it…. I just pray that you (Madelon Marie Ziska ) are
protected …. You  should have  had a great life….  you still should have a great life…  one that is blessed and happy… really
happy…  that is my Christmas wish for
you….

I also I wish they had never come
into our lives, never harmed us individually or as a family and I’m truly sorry
they interrupted the amazing and wonderful life you were meant to have…

Mattie, I honestly believe…you
went meant to have a blessed life…. I know it in my heart that God put you on
earth to share your ability to love…  to
shine with the abundance of gifts he bestowed upon you… your talent for
writing… your artistic ability, your success 
at every endeavor…. Your amazing way of speaking your mind…. And
allowing your heart to shine through…. 
Your strength in faith and belief in the goodness of people  … your ability to walk into a room and
radiate this extra something… and befriend everyone you meet… your
authentic  beauty inside and out….. your
talents  and intelligence  exceed anything you have accomplished thus
far… your path to greatness was started long ago… maybe destined from
birth…  the possibilities are endless of
what you can accomplish…  and I know you
are capable of accomplishing it all… of having it all…. And I am so proud to
call you my sister because of who you are…. And how wonderful and great you are
already….

You never were shallow… or
insensitive….and your capacity for compassion and  for 
understanding… even the capacity for 
your unselfish acts… always amazed me… you took time to help me be a
better person… and I did become a better person 
thanks  to you…. I think you
shielded me from harm when I was even unaware of it… I think you thought of
others before yourself…. And your actions when no one was looking proved your
character…. And   even though I was 4
years older… sometimes you seemed to be so much more prepared for the world..
and wiser….and able to manage all it entailed….

Who could have imagined this
little bubbly girl with a bun on top of her head would have the  opportunity to have such an impact on so many
people… but you do…and I hope  you
realize how much you have made a positive impact on my life…. you  were and are never forgotten… and always
loved… by your older sister….( me…)   for
13 years I have missed  having you in my
life.. every minute of every day…  I have
missed talking to you about everything and anything..  of having you as one of my  best friends 
and with the additional bonus of having you as my sister…. Has been a
bgreat  lessing in my life…       

 Your gift of genuine love for people, and
animals, especially animals HA!  Your
wisdom alwayss been a great  blessing in
my life…        

 Your gift of genuine love for people, and
animals, especially animals HA!  Your
wisdom always way beyond your years – your kindness and generosity… Your unconditional
love and friendship remains in my heart always and forever….

Mattie, my untwin,… My sister and
one of my best friends, the time  we shared
our lives our hopes and our dreams our fears and our ambitions… you became not
only my sister but one of my dearest and best friends – you gave me
encouragement, strength, and belief in such a great future I honestly believed
“all things are possible” and I believed the inside quote for the dream big DVD
by Joel OLSTEEN

 Jeremiah
29:11 “for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for you to
prosper and not for evil,  to give you a
future and a hope!”

May this Christmas 2012 be the
start of a new and great chapter in your life…  May  the
next year of2013 fulfill all your hopes and dreams…. And may all your wishes
come true…

 All my love, Mary Jean Ziska