Well recently her sister, my aunt Emily Gregg died….. and when she want to  go with her isters togo through allof my aunts possessions  it mad eher decide to dolists again…. I was given a box of items in  1989….. and  boxes of items……  pictures and various things I had made… things that were mine…. But never really any of the big items…. Even though it was always pretty well knows that Maura lived jewelry so she wanted my mom’s jewelry, mattie has always wanted her nievne carpet.. even asked her for it when we wer in the  codo living on Vanderbilt beach…  and my mom had promised her the carpets or most of tehm anyway fomr allher travels… and I had always asked for the kahsmire furniture….  As some of my fondest memories were when we went on trips  to dahl kale and were in the  houseboats.. and traveling to the carpet factory.. and the wood carved factory.. and the  papermachet factory….  So she stated gogin thtough  room by room what mattie has already asked for.. and what I wanted….   She said that Maura already had her items.. but I’m not really sure of that.. marua I know would want to have itmes form when we lived and grew up in Saudi… an dmementos that  remeinded her of our childhood and of  or life  together as children and as a family…. 

Its kinda weird.. and I must admidt I ended up crying a few times when  talking about her not being here anymore and of what she wanted me to have…    

Room by room…. In the entrance way… she told me I could have the large trunk she got from aganistan…  and wmattie wanted the large picture that hangs int eh entrance way…  a print form india tha is huge!

She wants us to split the  arab coffee pots.. she has 8 of them on a landig and one large on e upstairs in the living room that she ssaid I soucl have…

The painting on the wall.. there is one fo a college thatwas mad emby  mrs knight in suaid… really sentimental.. because it has alloru faces and pictures allover it… and is on this background wher it  looks like  the countrues we lived in … … I really wanted that  but I thin kmy mom said she wants to give it to mattie… maybe we can share it..or I can get a print of it fo myself…. It is really sentimental to me..as it  is really myfamily and all my travels.. and  so many memories locked up in one painting… … there are other paintings  lilek the hibols… that she has two of and wanted me to have one an dmattie to have one…  then  pictures in the hallway… of course we each get the portraits that my  mom hasd made of us from Italy… when we were chilren.. and and she said the charcoal sketches already had our names on them… then she said the hummels no one wanted so I canould have them along with  the  Madonna that was in my babyroom… and my baby rocking chair ……once blue but now  stained brown…    in  th e”white bedroom  she said I could have the semi large  brown matted n framed picture that is of lilke india… and men worshinping a king… and theother  pint she has in  her master bedroom also indian print  of a woman dancing… then mattie wanted the  print of the horses… also in my mom ‘s master beroom.   She said mattie asked for the  light had crved from  afgansitan,  that hans above the  table… but mom said I could have the  large hand carved table and th four tables that fit underneath ….  As thecashmire furnituyre  is wha ti has slwys  asked for ….  She alsosaid that since her bedroom furniture want matties’style. I couldhave that as well….   Wheich is allfrom horchow… and included a lage three drawer dresser, an armoire, and two side talbes and one  dresser that matches…. I thin kshe aisdseven pireces in all….  Then she said I cud have the beach pictures  tha tellen knoight painted.. but I told her that I really wanted the  college instead…  so we sill have to see…..  abut that college of our family….  Maybe we can do some trading  between mattei and myself…it gets kind aof tricky when there  is only one of a kind items…   that you can’ t get again.. and that mean so much sentimentally…..  

When we were sitting in her bedroom I started crying again…..  and gave my mom a hug… and  asked her if she was dying?.. or was there anything  i  needed to know……   she promised me that she was still in great health… and I didn’t need to cry or worry… but that she wanted to make sure  it was written down  about what she wanted each of us to have….

In the  living room…. She hd promised me the large agra inlaid talbe that is  housed in  a table tha tis tha saem as the matching hand carved kashmire  table    and the entre sate furnitureset.. sofa, and two chriseith the two side tables… she said since mattie wanted the small candle holders and the hanging hand carved lamp… that she wodl give me tha tray and base legs that could house candles aalso from  afgansitan…

 The one rug that she ssid I could have  sice mattie had wantd althe other rugs.. was the  blue and green rug that was   under the satee… sofa  and charis….  I’m not sure what or who gets the large screen that is also hand carved…  so we will have to see about that…  then  the reis the dow pictures.. and the other African and Saudi pictures… that she has to decide who gets what… there are about 4 ro 5 tohers rugs that mattie has dibs on.. and  she wanted the  inlaid backyamman table… which is something I always wanted… so we will have to see aobut a few items..  

She didn’t  go over the carved things from   Africa.. or even althe knick knacks that  have been in our family forever….  

There is a large glass table that  she said I cudl have now… at  least when everything is finalized with the condo and althe mess that has gone on  forever….. everyone has used the fact that I have had my life destroyed by a bunch of criminals scne 2002 -2003 to prevent me from having anything  or doing anything… that whoel fear factor… theat   if I cant protect my own possessions  then  they wont give me anything for fear that  these items willalso be ruined or destroyed or stolen….. it sucks… I was oram the victim..and am still beign punhes and prevented for even having my home decoreated th way  iwoudl have wanted… or have anything  valuable not locked up due to a bunch of criminals….    So for the past 12 years I have had to not only go with out  anything new tha ti ever waqted or any par to f my life that I ever wanted… and had to go through haivn so much  stolen that was sentalmentsal… and my  history that some itdenity theif must ahce wanted…like pictures… and  earingings that  my dad had given me…. And   so  much  more… that wer ruined by  criminals…   so having o go with out new furnityre.. and without my family’s inheritance …. I’ve just been dealing…

Its actually nice to know ahead of time what my mom promises me….  Bu tsomem of the items that mttie claimed I also claimed long agao….  So we will have to see  a fair waqyto devicde anything…. 

And I wantto make sure if Maura wants anything tht she is not left out… I even started crying when talkgin about Maura andwhat she might want for her and for her children….  This si our real history…  oru ral life with my real family and family experiences…. So I want to ;make sure that everything  is fair … and that she is abote to have memories from our family…. Soempeole think Maura is this tough lawyer.. who sint sentimental.. but as mysister I know she is an amazing person…. Ive seen her  get sentimental … and ive seen heer kind and generous k heart…  I ‘ve know my sisters my entire life and know how much they  mean to ;me.. to my mom and tht memeories of our family and our childhood matter…  Imean may be im the most sentimental… I still am angry over some girl stealing my babyblanket…  and een  the date function pictures that ere stolen … I guess to try to make some imposter seem to be legitimate… but thse fakes willnever know allthe behind scenese stories..they eil never know what  areas looked like what smeels ..what tiny details that are involved that they will never know…