so its almost 11:00pm… actually i tried to call my mom around 10:45pm.. there was this Meryl strep movie on  i think it was called the river… I missed the ending  because i was switching back and forth from t a movie with demi moore… called the juror.. i knew my mom would have loved both movies.. and since the  river was just  started .. i wanted to share that withe her… but instead i got someone who actually sounded drunk..i know my mom barely drinks… and would have actually loved to talk about the movies.. or watch the movies..  but i guess once again i  wasn t’  talking to a friend or to  my mom… since it was her cellphone that called back.. and her cellphone was the person who wanted me to forward the email  that i got from scott renshaw  the one about god that he sent to me…  and  the info on a couple who was looking to purchase a home… i wonder which of the whore to door service girls was on the other end of the phone line… this time..  there is a certain person  who has to go and brush his teeth before his visitors show up and tonight i saw a guy on a golf cart all in light blue outfit… headed  i think to  visit the girl with the gold Cadillac in 1404… same girl  who once was waiting for me to  leave my condo when i was supposed to go to  a movie with an elderly  Irish man i met at church… don’t think it was his daughter..  but  its too weird how these people manipulate lives..and play god… and lie ….

also  this mother on the phone was very unaccepting of me talking  about the “whore to door girls”… so to me when they protest.. like when they stick up for karne kahel… it make me realize that it was not my mom..or my friend… or but possibly one of the actual  girls… or some of her relatives… or someone who wants to steal a life..or an identity… or even a business  there can be no good that comes from lying…    but then i don’t have to live without a conscious.. but i guess since so many of these girls care nothing about anyone but themselves.. well i guess in a way they don’t have to live without a consciousness as well… may god never have mercy on their souls… they ruin lives.. and don’t really even care.. they steal friends.. steal opportunities .. and ruin lives… who do they really think  they are?    i wonder how many actual friends  i have been able to actually speak with  these past 8 years? …last night someone actually remembered  a pop corn popper Jill  burns and i used in college… it almost felt like speaking with  a real friend…and their haven’t been that many of those…. you know real friends… genuine friends.. …  some one who knows you and actually likes you…. and wants to make sure your life  is alright.. and wants to make sure no one is hurting you… and that your hopes and dreams can come true…. no games of taping Skype conversations.. or manipulating phone calls … or trying to make your  life horrid ….

honestly i can’ t wait to sue these people…civilly and criminally….. all  who allowed all of this to happen… who  manipulated all of this for their own selfish intent.. and who condoned the harm and destruction it caused… .

good night fake friends…those of you who were too busy to even pretend to be friends..let alone  family…