I always wrote letters and cards… and my mom saved and entire bin of them but one year her friend carol and her I was told went through a bunch of her things and wither put them away or gave them away to someone … so this is about the only letter I have left from my time at school in Cap Dail… I always wonder if the same imposter who took my baby blanket  or my pictures  of my backpacking in Europe… or even if she took all the  dolls  that I collected throughout  my childhood  of all  the places we traveled… (I only have my Dutch doll and my German Hummel dolls…) anyway.. Since last week some girl or boy stole a bunch of my sorority. Date function pictures.. from college… and since these same ruthless and horrible  girls will pretty much take and steal anything they want I  thought I‘d better make sure I had some type of back up for more of my life that I don’t want these girls to steal…. so a few memorabilia letters.. Emails… and probably about everything on my college wall… will somewhere be on this website…  these scummy people think that if they steal these bits and pieces of my life… then …. Well I actually can’t assume to think anything like them.. They are criminals… who have no concept of right or wrong… and they are really the lowest form of parasites possible… organisms that feed off others…  the sad thing is one day something will happen to them.. Call it karma… or god or justice… but one day they will have to be held culpable for their actions… I can’t wait for that day…. I pray every day for for the day when they feel the hand of justice on their lives… I pray it is soon… 

I   am still really upset about the pictures…. and still really upset about the bin of cards… and my  baby blanket and the pictures from my backpacking… or even my entire living  overseas experience…

Its the  weirdest  thing… these “scummy  wanna be girls” from where ever…. like Ohio state.. Or new jersey… or god only knows who I am being mixed up with again…  they go out of their way to try to or want me to appear to be uncultured… to not have traveled… to not have any class or taste… and basically keep trying to  ruin my life…  I am not saying I am perfect. Or even close… I just want to be able to be me… if I want to watch Joel Osteen and order a DVD I am free to do that… I am also free to go to catholic mass… and to even go shopping and like and want to have nice classic styles… or good quality merchandise…  If I don’t want to drink alcohol… or don’t feel like embarrassing myself at a bar… I am 44 years old… and I can choose my own life… my own friends … my own mentors… quit trying to manipulate my life… I’m sure your little “princesses”  will be able to snag or catch which ever boy they have decided to  catch…  just quit ruining my  life……

 I never did anything to any of these girls…they used me like some pet they could manipulate…… someone they have a right to  manipulate… which they don’t… I never tried to make anyone look bad… and never said anything bad about anyone until Karen kahel  bullied me… 

I  never did anything to any of these girls… who take it upon themselves to lie and cheat and steal…. do they think they are above the law? Or the freaks that aren’t actually genuine… and play games… with my life… that do they think they are?  Instead of choosing to make lives better… their insistence of lowering my lifestyle… my goals… my wishes and my dreams… well I must say it is really rotten… 

Could they be that  insecure to make others look bad to try to make themselves look good? … I mean their lives must have had something that was unique… or original… I mean maybe they aren’t artistically inclined… or have never traveled or never lived over seas… or went to boarding school… SO WHAT>>>>so what if you can’t create a business…..

But you shouldn’t have to steal other peoples work… I mean it’s not something I would ever do… but since these girls show no grasp of the entire morals and values… and eithics…. it must be something they learned in childhood..Right? The bullies who continue to feel small and only feel powerful when they can pick on someone … or I guess steal from someone…  I am pleading to you rotten and horrid girls and boys… please don’t pass these horrid traits onto your children… you bullies make the world a horrid place to  live… and  one day all the lies you tell will eventually catch up with  you… Of course I personally hope the laws that you break… (You know) verifiable laws that protect us….  trespassing, stealing… I hope they catch up with you sooner than later… and perhaps while you are sitting in jail you may just get a chance to think of what you have done to others… but sadly…  maybe you won’t actually amend your ways…  until it happens to you…or your children… or someone you actually love… that is if you have the capacity to love..Or feel anything for anyone but yourselves… which may not be the case… anyway…..  Then you will start to think of how others were harmed by your actions… who knows maybe you will even feel remorse… but that may be asking far too much for the likes of you….. . 

But what I don’t understand is why these scummy parasites…why they  can’ t leave those of us who have … had a great life… why can’t you stop ruining our lives  and just  put all your energy on  trying to  get that special guy to actually like you..By knowing who you are really are… no lies… not being fake… or the con artist/actors you really are….or the you. That you are pretending to be…Who knows… maybe somewhere in that nasty and vile person that you are today which has to lie and cheat and steal… maybe somewhere… lurks a decent person…
(I seriously doubt it… but who knows?????????????????????????????????????) 
  
Final note…   I want all my possessions back…. I want all the letters… the clothing the jewelry… the cards the baby blanket… the pictures… I want it all back and I will not rest and will not stop trying to make sure justice is done until you are found…  prosecuted for your crimes… And items are returned… I mean really girls… get your own life… it couldn’t have been that horrible?

Anyway here is the letter I wrote October 03, 1984
Dear Mom, Mattie, and Maura,
I got your letters today with Jennifer’s address and letter inside.  Thank you very much! Today was the second day of classes and it’s pretty difficult since I’m going to be her for three months I may switch down to a little easier level and review everything, I’ve learned before. 

I’ve really met some nice people her that I’m sure I’ve told you about.  Lucie and I have become great friends and do lots of things together. Last night was a blast! 
Wee went down to Cap Dail to have some hot coco at this little cake called Edmonds and met claes and Thomas there! These are the e tow Swedish guys that I’ve met.  They are so nice and Thomas is super cute. Lucie really likes Thomas but last night he was really a big flirt and I was flirting right back!  If they come to Florida for x-mas do you think we could house them  for a few days before they go onto Houston- they are very nice and I’m sure they would not be a bother because right now they are working an d helping out this guy jean.  They are so much fun and I’ve already said yes can they come and stay for a while? Please? I know you would like them! Thanks!

The brunch does sound like a huge success! It’s too bad there weren’t that many people- but 55 is a lot- you’re just used to the huge turnouts they had in Saudi!  When you write to him (father Watrin) please tell him I said hello and Helen and everyone o.k.? 

Maura told me about the birthday party- sounded like great fun!  

I tried calling Sylvie and I got his French lady who said I had the wrong number or something.  I think I shall try again soon because I would like to see her. I’ve met a very nice girl named Lucie and she reminds me a lot of Sylvie infact I almost got her names mixed up a few times.  We are really a lot alike and have great fun traveling and exploring.  

On Sunday we walked to Monaco together! It was terrific- First off there are some really nice girls one is from the states New York and went to school at Andover- please ask Maura who we know from the at school- I know we do but I cant for the life of me remember who!  Anyway she’s nice I asked her and her roommate to join us and they did.   So we trucked it on over and split up after a while and Lucie and I went along!  It was a blast because we are really a lot alike it’s funny because we are always spotting the same cute guys! Anyway, just  after we split up we started watching a race  and I saw Anna Polk for Saudi Arabia- she was pretty skinny dressed very nice and had part of her blond/white hair dyed black- she said tootie left Saudi and she was still  in school in Switzerland and spending eh weekend in Monaco.. How freaky I don’t know if she remembered my name I don’t think so. I’m not sure if she really knew who I was!  Ha! Then we ran into Lucie’ next door neighbors who were supposed to be in Germany! Ha!  Wait… then as we were walking along the side walk this Mercedes pulls up with these two older guys and they invite us to go out and have drinks they were pretty disgusting so we politely declined their offer- as we kept walking we saw one of the Monaco soccer players that we had met at the disco the night before ( but that is an entirely different story I’ll tell you later ) anyway, he told us a good place to get hot chocolate and we went We were wearing shorts but looked very nice and even go into the casino ( where you’re not allowed unless your 21 years old HA!)
The cafe de Paris was really filled so we went to go and have lunch at another cafe that Lucie knew about- as we were walking we saw this super cute guy that I thought was probably French I guess I said hi to him but I can’t remember – we went to the cafe and sat down and 5 minutes later guess who shows up.. This cute guy with a friend.  We  had delicious French onion soup and desert and as we were finishing- these two guys walk up to us and invite us for drinks at the café de Paris later that evening- We said yes around *;30-9:00pm As we started walking back to Cap Dail this same Mercedes drives up HA! These guys ask us again to go for drinks and even to go and see their yacht- we declined their offer and they made us promise that the third time we’d bump into them that we would have drinks- not even really thinking we got rid of them by saying yes sure – well they went down to the end of the street and turned arondHA! They must have been really been desperate because they again asked us… When n we said no we had plans for the evening they said they if they fell through we were to meet them at 9:00pm at the hotel de paris Ha Ha!  It was terrible that was the time the other guys were supposed to meet us! Ugg!  Lucie and I went and got ready and claes and Thomas came by it was so fun because I’ve never really had a guy watch me put on makeup and stuff- I was dressed and just had to low dry my hair and l they seemed pretty amazed at how girls can transform themselves quickly !  We got ready pretty quickly and went to go meet (Peter and John Paul) that’s their names but just as we got to the café those 2 old dudes showed up UCK! Luckily I saw (P & JP) and so we again declined their offer for a drink on their yacht!  We had a nice time visiting with them and after a drink at the café we went to another small café near the beach.  It was very nice they said they would call but never did… Of well a week later we saw John Paul at the café again and talked with him for a while. He was o.k. Peter was nicer but john Paul was very good looking- There is this guy Louis who is super nice and I think he likes me. He is pretty good looking had these beautiful eyes and is super nice but I really don’t want to start seeing anyone her especially if they live her because things could really get sticky if things didn’t work out! There is this Gorgeous (I am not exaggerating at all!! Guy he is tall with brown hair and blue eyes great features but is older His exact age is 31! I have the biggest crush on him but he doesn’t even know I’m alive Lucie and I have gotten a ride from him into Monte Carlo and talked to him He’s American (HA!)   

That is all I have of the letter…. …I didn’t know I would have to keep such strict tabs of my entire life and possessions… so the freaks don’t think my life is some kind of community property….. Where someone thinks they can pick and choose and steal bits and pieces of my real life…. Once again… note to the scumm… go and get your own life…