i also stopped to get some roast beef… YUMMMM had been having craving for it …and had a weird conversation with the guy at at he deli counter… out of nowhere he told me that he didn’t know how to handle money and that he couldn’t handle it if he won the lottery… i asked him what he meant .. like, did he not know how to handle stock options… or investments?…. later i realized he may be one of the freaks who actually just talks for people… and the conversation had nothing to do with me.. at least i hope the people in the store didn’t think that is what i was thinking or saying…

 i know exactly what to do with money when i win the lottery…. i know  exactly who i want to  bless… who i want to make sure is prosecuted… and what i want for myself!  I know exactly how I want to divide it up  for investments… for savings… for spending.. and for purchases… i know exactly who  out of my friends and family i will bless… who i will not bless… and why…. i wrote affirmations and detailed plans for what i wanted my life to be… how i wanted to live….  for everything… i mean i am 44 years old and have been planning my life… for ..well my whole life….HA! but I am off the point… the point… is while i was in publix… there is where i saw the one cute guy…  actually saw him leaving wearing this blue shirt… and driving  in a maroon Cadillac…

but what is weird today… is that…  when i got on the computer i was stuck on the Google sign in for viewing homes in Tennessee…. weird huh? think someone thinks i ‘m from Tenn. while the girl walking today…. in the blue sweatshirt.. is me?????i mean there is nothing wrong  with Tenn… some great people i babysit are from there… but it is just not me…. i”m sure the girl that they are mixing me up with is great… but she will probably want something different out of her life.. and in her choices in guys right? i mean my sisters even want different things from life or in their choices in guys… …

I am looking for a great guy who is like a best friend .. the kind of person  who you can count on.. who would never think of hurting you or selling out on you…or your dreams… who  also can read articles from  the wallstreet journal.. and have real intelligent conversations… who would never play games with your life or your dreams…  who would have no problem with my goal of taking Harvard executive education courses… or having a successful business.. would be supportive  his family…. and of any goals… even if they flip flopped… all over the place… who is normal… no freaks who don’t actually have real conversations with you…. but what i want is someone who you can have this  ongoing  long running conversation for the  rest of your life… the kind of person who knows your hopes and dreams. and cherishes them.. who can actually repeat back to you  what you hope to achieve in your life… who helps you to have goals that melt int his… and similar morals.. and values… and who wants the same level of success… and lifestyle…   someone who laughs with you… and dreams for a life you can share… a romantic… yet grounded… individual… who you are proud to call your husband…