I just received a ton of posts for a blog post i put in mywebiste/blog for january 12th 2011…. about the infant of prague novena… the thing is … i only put in the prayer…. and most of these comments seem to be about the comments or written commentary i wrote about the novena… a bit on the odd side since… i never wrote anything extra about the novena except the prayer…. HUmmmmmm.
i called up scott to see if he was seeing the same thing in texas as i was seeing when i read my blog in florida… he said he was… but
now it makes me worried…. i actually got a bit worried when i copied and pasted the christmas card letters and newsletter from my constant contact account …. for example… in the constant contact format.. the background of the card is an army green… but when it is posted in my website /blog entry it has changed to a burgendy color… ? how is that possible?….. shouldn’t it be the same when you copy and paste letters? .. or pictures?.. they should remain exactly the same…. a copy is a copy….right?
Is it possible that it is jsut one more way one of these little slimy girls may be doing something to my life again?…. without my permission?… and without my approval?.. slimy little parasites…. UGGGG.. wish thy woudl be origional for once and get their own life… but i guess that is all they know.. hwo to pretend to be someone else or be something else… other than who they really are…
A while ago think this lady at the bank may have had me confused with my sister…. when asked about websites….. and creating them….I was the person who n who created the two webistes ….. one for a tender loving care service and one for a tlcprep … somehow people think i am my youngerst sister who was the art director for blue /green… who created magazines .. who was the graphic designer… an extremely talented… but jsut because i had to learn to create a webiste or two does not make me her…
I dont think she wants any of the goals I want.. in my life…. like harvard executive education classes… i never heard a peep from her about any of that … or even the kind of guys she likes… we have totally different taste… I definately love a clean cut preppy, atheletic and normal guy… someone very consertative…but i really shouldnt speak about her.. and what she may or may not want in a guy…. and though our taste in clothing is sometimes similar …. I’m really pretty consertative in that respect as well…. … and in food she is a vegetarian… where as i love beef welllington… and though i hate fish… i constantly eat chicken……and even though i eat pretty healthy… i’m jsut normal… not fanitical in any way , shape or fashion… oh… except for hating criminals.. gerard ahler and karen kahel and anyone else who takes it upon themselves to harm and destroy lives….
I love both my sisters….. but i do not want to be either of them.. i actualy liked being me… and i think others liked me jsut the way i was.. we each had unique expereinces… some overlapped.. but each of our lives were pretty unique… and i like having my own stories.. my own expereinces… my own friends.. my own boyfriends…. i was not and never will be a twin… so our lives weren’t that similar… and that made us each pretty special… with our own unique qualities..
I was known as being really nice and sweet… ( I mean i really used to be soooo nice and sweet)…. i am still pretty nice and sweet… most of the time… but i definatly have tried to change all that .. being nice and sweet means you jsut get your heart broken…. your feelisng crushed…. you get taken advantage of …..and really … it seems that most people i meet these days are prurely out for themselves.. and as i was told before if i didn’t toughen up i woudl be slaughtered in life…. and guess the boys and girls who go about harming people have actually proved that to be true…
like when scott ( an old roomate and friend )was coming into town for a few days… actully to be perfectly honest think they have been in town for a while… but i only got the oportunity to see him and his daughter for a few days…
anyway…. my first thought was to get a welcome package with breakfast items… and some gifts… or treats that woudl be nice to have at a hotel…. but i didn’t …. then i was goign to get them presents with the girft card i had from christmas… the sweaters i returned… but we didnt get a chance to do that either… and ito e honest… i get so disappointed in people who i keep thinking are honest and genuine friends … it is so hard to tell if someone is actully a real freind…or not… i mean if they are a good enough actor or conartist.. they can make you believe anything right? so how can you tell?
I used to do care packages for friends/family who were feeling sick..with soup… and crackers.. the emergen -C- … and even sometimes if i got a great price on a dvd i would get a DVD from blockbuster….like 007 movies… or something funny…. i actually loved putting thought into care packages.. into gifts.. into being a real friend… but honestly…
WHY??????? I mean where are the real /genuine friends now???????
Actually bought wallstreet II yesterday… ( and rented the movie about facebook… the social network…) still like wallstreet II better than the first Wallstreet…..)
and teh social network… really pretty interesting…. of course now it’s worth about 50 billlion right???? all i can think of is ……wow…. to have such a unique brain to create something that is so popular… that makes so much revenue…. even like harry potter… is it the favor of God.. or jsut one human being who jsut got lucky… or what? actully i wonder if either of them think of God at all… so maybe… all the praying is for nothing???? but i guess i wil still continue to do it…. i have to believe that someday.. adn hopefully soon… god will answer myprayers… right??? even after a day of being frustrated… of even letting my mouth get the best of me… I have to believe that somehow God knows me from anyone else….and god will still answer prayers… right?