Oh boy do i have a lot to say about  morning Joe…. first only  words of praise for ted dansen… and his book.. and his adventure…. venture into the education of  making people aware of the  ocean’… life… really liked his cause… and him… when i was visiting Beth serlin.. and  having lunch with a friend  barbara aguto…( who lived in La at the time.)… we were in Santa monica…and he and his wife were at the same  restaurant…. maybe it was that they seemed pretty normal..and real… not as plastic…or “wanna beeish”..  that struck me as really nice…  anyway.. hope his message gets the attention it deserves….i would hate to lose…. the oceans.. the life in the oceans…     
 when i was yoonger.. myfamly wenet onthis campig trip… to the red sea.. where my dad let us snorkle and see the marvels….. i remember vivid colored fish.. and coral… i’ve heard that it has all changed…. a bit… what  a shame… 
  
anyway…  

   I was babysititng at the port royal club yeserday… and love the beaches here in Naples… the most amazing sunsets.. the msot peaceful and wonderful moments… the  kids playing in the water…  some absolutely great moments…. being in Ras Tanura… the beaches… actually living  right on the beach for our last house….  really nice memories.. for childhood… and even as an adult… seeig nthe amazing sunsets… walking along the sand…

but what absolutely made me walk out of the room… the hippe…  who  was wealthy.and now lives in a trailer park! WHAT?????? claiming that money and material possessions are bad! that they are th eroot of all evil… totally misquoted bible verse… UGGGGGG!!!!!! all i can think of to say is STUPID>>>> STUPID!!!!!!
I CANT STAND adn honestly distest witha pssion people who pretend that money is bad.. that it is the ruin of all civilization… that it is evil….

THAT TALENT  YOU HAD   MISTER….. WAS  A GIFT…. THAT ALLOWED YOU TO GAIN FINANCES.. THOSE FINANCES COULD HAVE BEEN USED TO  CREATE BUSINESSES… THAT WOULD EMPLOY MORE PEOPLE… TO START FOUNDATIONS… PHILANTHROPHY….   should have allowed him to DO MORE! so much more…. whata  aste of a gift…. and i dont mean the money…. or even the possessions he used for himself. but just  the opportunity… what a waste of an opportunity….

now how is living in a trailer park..goging to make an impact on the world?… . how many lives can he change for the better?… his immediate neighbors?   In his town? in his state?  In his country?  in the world?  HE  had the opportunity to use his wealth.. his connections.. his influence…. to make a real impact… ( all i can think of to say… is what a stupid and small minded decision.!!!!!!!!!..! what a waste of a gift he was given…. !!!!!!!!!!) 

maybe i”m a little jaded… i heard all this “crap” from patric garland who was my roomate for a while… he treid to tell me ( while misquoting the bible as well…) that pruning…was good….  giving up everything..anything material and everyting material.. was supposed to be this nobel thing….  infact i even had people try to use misquoted bible verses like the one about the eye of the needle… and camel.. ( yep.. they thoguht that one was realy cute especiallysicn ei grew up in saudi…)  but i was told that that caring  about material pssessions..  was jsut this horrible thing… of course they  were saying these wonderfl misquotes form the bible while they were also stealing from me…. and then using the reasoning  that they were teaching me to not care about material things.. that by havign my pssessions stolen.. that  it was makign me less materialistic… and someonehow it was alright that my possessions were stolen .. you werent supposed to care about them… right?HA!   . UGGGGGGGGG!!!!!interesting  reasoning coming from  some of the thieves…..
oh wait.. they said the things they were taking of mine… were just  souvineres… ( to them maybe … but to me they were still my memories… my possessions… and no mater how you look at it… taking them was and is stealing… but now i’m oof the subject…) speaking of the souvineres… that have been taken.. along with the backpacking  pictures.. and sorority pictures…and ear rings given to me by my father.. …i was in my closet  reorganiing a few things.. and found that i am stilmissing one pillow case ( small regualr… with little poka dots.. from a sheet set my mother gave me from bloomingdagles… and one monagramed face cloth that my mom had given me  for boarding school…. ) its jsut the wiredest things these criminals take!



anyway.. back to the hippee….. this person could have majorily  made changes for a lot of people..i mean really….. how many people ‘s lives can he improve now? he could  have…. started businesses…..  started foundations. ….

what the hell is he going to do from his trailer park?  how many people does he employ?…  even when he did have his manisons… in his manisons.. he had tons of people who were employed..right?….. he could have even  started college scholarships for his employess..  or if he wanted to do someothing for people he didn’t know… taken children from  a nearby school  or organization..   for further education..if he watned to stay in film… do a documentary… do something.. jsut dont throw away the opportunity… the gift you were given… when you decided you had enough… the excess… that was to be sued to make more money… when you have more you can do more…

Can his actions really help the people in japan right now?… by him living  in a trailer park…  adn with no money… what the hell can he do?.. ( i actually don’t  know if he doesn’t  have any money or does have money.. but if he doesn’t  have any money…. its not like he had this drug problem… or alchol problem.. or mental problem… right?… he didnt have bernie madoff stel all his money…. right? 

but if he had his weatlh his connections.. his inflence on people govermnemtn agencies..he actually coud have made a difference.. 

Money isnt bad ag all it gives youfreedom to do … 

I never begrudge my sister for having it all.. in palm beach.. I’m not even jelious ofher. i am prooud of her.. of her accomplishments… of what she has achieved.. i know that she does alot for others… tht she was by my side when we were growing up in saudi.. hadd the opportunity to achieve a  world view…. of people of situations .. which by the way was only afforded to us by having  the $ to do so.. and my moms entreprenurial achievemet of creating a travel business from  her home in a country where whe wasn’t even allowed  to drive a car!..and thatnks to my fathers choices in where he was going to work… alllowed us world travel…. and the finances.. gosh i hope the hippe doenst have any children… that he will begrudge the opportuities his finances could have provided… for  education… and travel … and  not allow his children to have ncie items… or a nice life… maybe teh entire thing is off balance… maybe his was new money and he ddid know wht he coudl do with it… or he somehow felt guilty for having it.. or
what ever his issues… i have no clue… but  maybe ther should be some sort of educational course mabye they shoudl be allowd t travel aorund the world… stay at nce pleces and not so nice places.. see hte real world…  adn then see wht opportunities ar out there… lke how much one dollar can achieve… in another country… or see what extra money can achieve.. or hell jsut go around america…. if you were goign to jsut throw awayteh opportunity to amek a diffeence.. see the faces of the children who wil die because of lack of funds for that medical treatment… or teh chdren who wont get the colege eduction tha tcoudl not only change ther lives but an entire generation… UGGGG!

I  think money is great..i think now… that money is one of the most valuable things there is…. so far in these past 7 years that is what has given the bullies influlence… has alllowed them opportunities to steal.. to cheat.. the manipulate… to run lives… or ruin lives… 

Somedays …I feel like i am in the middle of one of patricks stupid lessons… messed up lesson… where he wanted to take everything   away.. susposedly to make me a better person….oh wait.. that was gerards lesson as well right? UGGGG!!!!!

I am a changed person… from the once overly generous  perosn who would give almost anything  and everything…. to those i loved and cherised and even to aquaintences.. and often times stranges.. this entrie “lesson” has  made me think and about 9 times out of ten  adn then make the choice to not do what i would be inclined to do….or what i used to do…  I mean i ‘m not  mean or anything about it.. i dont lie..I dont cheat or steal like th  horrid peope ive come across… but  instead i jsut started  to do what everyone  else does. i thnk of myself…adn make sure i have enough before givning something … s   it still really feels great to give form the heart.. but myheat has ee so disappointd in people… andin the selfishness of people… that allther influences have changed how i view people….  istead of giving out unconditionally…. like when i believed the world had more  than enough…. 




i have to know that i will keep it ne . who does he think actually gives the grants?.. or makes possible even theavailability of the arts for the disadvantgaged? or even sports… which imparts lifelong lessons in sportsmanship… 

he mentioned tha his dad helped @ st judes… I didnt catch the entire speech.. because i literally had to walk out of the room… i jsut couldnt believe the  things spewing out of htis guys mouth.. i mean he couldnt be for real…. right? 

What is so wrong with  having nice things> Imean oprah…. if she hadnt been sucessful.. he wouldn’t  have been alowed the oportunity to do the angel network? was that what it was called? wehre she was able to  help others… 

or even kappa alpha theta.. I was in charge  of philanthrophy… for our alumani association… at christmas time… donations and gifts… gift cards…  the women who helped… make a difference.. otherwise without money… they opportunities wouldnt have existed…. 

COULD YOU PEOPLE GET REAL!!!!!!!!!!!