So labor day…. day of rest right?  i am watching  Julie  and  Julia or is it Julia and Julie… i can’t remember…. anyway it is about passions… about blogging…. and even about the supportative people who  want the people they love to be happy…. you know those elusive supportive and  unselfish people who are genuine friends and who want there genuine friends to be happy… really happy….from personal experience i can barely remember what it was like to have  really great friends in my life… the ones  who love talking to you on the phone, to enjoy hearing about your  dreams.. who light up when you  help them to find their dreams.. and to find their passions.. and to  believe in therm selves… and  know their future is limitless…. especially when you have those great friends  who support what you want to do and who you want to become ,, who love you just as you are but who cant wait to  be around when you grow older and wiser and  who just plain like you..,
i can say i barely remember what it was like…. because I think  my life has become as limited as having just one friend … an old roommate scott renshaw,.. at least i think he is still a friend….  
and no one on  the phone or on skype.. or in emails,,, has been supportive or  encouraging unless they get something  out of my choices in life.. and that has been for years, i think…. they want me out of the way… want to discredit any of my memories and  anything i say or do…..  they have not helped me to find the truth of whothe hell stoelk my identity or my credit… or my clothes… or my jewelry…. or who the hell are all the fake freaks on the  phone…    i get tossed around talking  to  whoever answers the  phone… and they are never my friends ….they have a limited memory of my life…. pretty much the last horrid experience  they put me through…. is the topic of discussion…. i get no phone  calls ..hey i was just thinking of you and  missed you,,,, or  i remembered this funny thing you did or we did together…or do you remember that time…. nope…. none of that…  no encouraging ideas of a business… unless they wanted to steal the business… so  like the pro-line Brooklyn  crook &contracting asshole,…. and  whoever stole the  M&M decorative painting …. that little girl will not have been the same girl who will know anything about being  in tree tops or on mount Everest.. or shopping with my mom  in Paris…. or boarding school, or working for  the etiquette school, or the babysitting business….or taking care of the elderly or even creating  websites,,, or even blogging… or getting  a Westlaw account to stop injustice….But  i did all of that…..  you have the girl who stole my life so she could become a teacher….. or some  girl who steals my birthday presents… or  my phone calls…. or my life….. and  they are not supportive about finding out who the criminals are…. OF course not… they are the criminals !

I MISS MY FAMILY , MY FRIENDS EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY……