So this is valentine’s day 2012…. Must say thanks to a very obnoxious self-centered and horrid person it was the worst valentine’s day start ever! For a day filled with people who think of others and want to make others feel special.. and for love and cherishing the people in your life who make your life better… who actually really like you and love you… well I must say I have been crying for the past half hour… die to a personality of a horrid and despicable selfish and arrogant person who is now defiantly not a friend not someone I will ever think of … as a friend.. And who I will no longer ever waste one more moment of my life caring about. You know the type of guy…. doesn’t have to be a boyfriend… or even a friend.. Could possibly be an acquaintance.. or take a moment just while you are watching people… you will notice this type… this person who only thinks of himself and his happiness… always he talks about himself .. and does it out loud as if the world needs to know his every movement.. or thought… or how his day is /was… and how the world needs to now what he wants or needs.. like a computer or anew phone or a new car.. anything for himself… then he talks out loud about what his doing for himself… he brags and lies to pump up himself…. his life and of his wants and needs , no actually real concern for anyone else. Unless it profits him himself… he promises everything.. but never comes though with anything….and even when you know the promises are fake.. that he is one of those freaks who “talk at you” like he’s some crazy person… who in reality you will never have any real conversations.. never have any real friendship… or any real promises will ever come true… this is a person you will never be able to count on… for anything… even though you know these things you actually somewhere in the bottom of your heart hope that this freak will actually act normal… but they /he or she will never act normal… will never be anyone you can count on .. will always be selfish and will always ruin your life…. This person who grunts like a cave man because he cannot articulate any normal conversation… let alone introduce any semblance of a normal and intelligent dialogue… they type of guy who want s his food and cares about basic needs since he is not someone who cares the arts.. . or self-awareness or has evolved in any way past caveman status….. who postures his relevance in the world by the famous people he claims to be his friends.. Best friends of course…. and prone to additions and elaborations to these fairy tales… and never shows any excellence in character… never attempts to exhibit any type of normal human emotion ( probably because he has no real personality or some semblance of a personality disorder… like a narsistic psychopath …. Basically a total asshole. To top it off.. when they are not that attractive and their personality is horrid.. they become absolutely repulsive…. Like any low life criminal scum….. Maybe it’s a third world thinking.. or acting… believing that girls are supposed to be the ones who are to do everything and anything. And somehow being born with a penis and not having the ability to do anything kind or thoughtful for anyone else unless there is an immediate pay off to them… for them… yep back to the self-involved and selfish narcissist….. being able to do anything for anyone else .. Makes them somehow special.. I actually read in India they kill baby girls before they are born…. Can you believe how horrid this is…. The belief that a male is soo far superior that girls should not be allowed to be alive…. Not that these assholes give birth or can multi task and can work and keep a home and be highly educated… it’s a stupid penis is supposed to make them superior….. and this isn’t just in India and other third world countries… Its all over….. and wrong… sooooo wrong….. I grew up in Saudi and the higher class people I knew who were Saudi, or from various nationalities… had manners.. had etiquette, had class/ style and were e brought up with generosity and with decency… it ‘ your basic asshole who uses people… yep back to the criminal element… and low lfe scum… But back to today… listen up girls .. don’t even waste time money or anything on assholes that are not even worthy of being friends… I mean no cards no small gifts.. Don’t be considerate in any way shape or form… It’s completely against my nature… my mom was the person who taught me to think of others… she always got us small gifts.. made holidays special and made us feel loved.. Took time to listen and talk… and put together some amazing gifts. That were creative and thoughtful at the same time… made our lives better and she taught her daughters to be the same…. I always gave cards and gifts.. if they were small.. Took time to spend time with friends and family…. One of those girl scout type girls.. Who tried to do the right thing.. unless someone has the same values and morals.. and is as kind or considerate as you are…. There is no need to go out of your way… I used to think it was the Christian thing to do.. you know show them the way… like in the news boys song.. “shine”… “ shine make them wonder what you’ve got Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then .. let them glorify the LORD .. ……. ( later in the song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……” I very mistakenly thought that I somehow I could show them how to be kind and considerate and Christian… go out of your way to be a good Samaritan… turn the other cheek.. all the lessons you learn as a child through your bible stories… in the song shine… the words go something like….“ shine make them wonder what you’ve got Make them wish that they were not on the outside looking bord… shine…. let it shine before all men .. let them see good works and then .. let them glorify the LORD .. ……. ( later in the song…. ) “When you let I it shine you will inspire……” “..but I realized that instead of helping them it most likely will drag you down.. will ruin your life.. and will lower your entire life…. So my view on the entire thing now.. just don’t do it… actually if I had known this 12 years ago… when my life was invaded by stupid horrid criminals… I might have saved soo much of my life… of my hopes and wishes and my dreams.. of my life… that these criminals and bullies ruined…. … and they ruined it on purpose.. they had no remorse.. no regret.. and no apology…. its like the Stockholm syndrome… these people who you are supposed to trust… tell you they are here for you.. but instead your life is being used by them for their own selfish and even at times criminal needs.. like they needed your home … to use….or they needed your car to steal ….or they needed your clothes to steal or wear.. or your jewelry to steal or your businesses to steal.. or your idenity or your life to ruin .. so they can make theirs better… knowing this and getting them out of your life… early …… is the only way to stop them before they really get their slimy hands into your life and into your pocket book …..or if you absolutely have to have them in your life.. then protecting yourself.. and not doing anything extra.. because sure as the sun rises.. they wll never return the favor.. they are not your true friends.. they will never ever help your life.. no matter how much they say they will… they lie…. They will cheat you out of your life your future..and dreams .. and they will ruin holidays…. Like valentines day… or any holiday… for that matter… and will never even care that that they ruined your life.. I love valentines day a much as Christmas… and this last Christmas one person made both of these days miserable. I gave a gift, a small gift for valentines day to someone who is definitely not a friend… not a gingerbread man.. not a man of integrity or excellence.. or possess any qualities that are admirable or heroic… but I’m stuck with his arrogant posturing… his selfish and self-centered person….. and it was my fault for trying to be nice.. for giving gifts.. and I will never do it again… These are the lessons from assholes that I have learned in the past 12 years… ( I thought this was a perfect time to put in this list: I’ll add on…. To the list of the horrid lessons I got to learn… I actually had someone tell me it was for my own good to go through horrid people and it would “toughen me up….” Yep.. total ass who said that….another person who should not have come into my life…..