” Today if you feel like th edds are against you , instead of considering  our circumstances , consider your God.  He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all you coudl ever ask, thinkor imagine.Heis plans are for your good and he can make a way where the r seems to be no way- Look to him, trust hm, hold fast to what he’s placed in your heart because hi is working behind the scenes Just liek abraham youll see every dream and desire fulfilled t  the flory of God!” 

Wow,  Now that is a positive quote from joel osteen.. actualy mos tof his blog posts are so very positive… today i had a call from a person  in his ministry…. and she said an amazing prayer….  thanking God for his blessings.. and such a positive, unwavering  belief that her prayer would be answered… that God would and could  answer our prayers… 
 
recently i have had so many people who have wanted me to believe  for less… to dream less.. to want  less… and  its so different than when you have your  supportive and loving family and  friends  around …..   having a bully call twice on the  phone tonight…     made me a bit worried that i woudl have to go through all sorts of hell again…  but i immeditatly called  the  police  and wanted to put a stop to it right  away….. adn that is how i feel about the peole who really arent my true freinds… or family… who could  care less about me…  or my happiness…  

then i read the quote by  joel osteen… and hope and pray that one day.. i can brag that evl was defeated… that a criminals who are intent on committing fraud by manipulating…were not ony stopped frm  harming me.. but stopped permenently….. and that i can be blessed… i mean really blessed… with all that i ever wanted…  family, freinds, beautiful home, great, sucessful business….  everythng…  even everything the scum has stolen these last 8 years….

For some reason and i dont know why.. but so many catholic people are afraid to beleive that god can really allow them to be really happy… to have it all…  i was told by fatehr kelly that  joel osteen was like a santa clause preacher…    but what  is so wrong  with santa clause…..   why can’t  we have it all…. be happy… have a great familly a successful business… beautiful home, and great friends… and even have all your wishes and dreams come true?  I mean santa clause… what a great guy… gift giver… bringing joy and merriment… laughter and presents.. te fulfilment of hopes and dreams… of wishes and all that is great and wonderful… why can’t God be like that?…. full of love and……
 
I like hearing that all  things are possible…   i guess tha tis why i like when father john ludden says  ” without a shadow of a doubt”…. it makes me fees that there are  certainies… that without a shadow of a doubt….
god is an absolute…  one true thing…  


I had someone today tell me that  everyone wants to win teh lottery… or have a miracle of ther own..andtha god  will not or does not  answer allprayers…  they put  hope and god and dreams all  in a very small box…
 so i asked them…. if god wotn anser myprayers… was it because i wasn’t  tall enough? thin enough… blond enough?  or prayed long enough? not sincere enough? cry enough?  what criteria will allow a prayer to be answered… or not  answered….. anyone have an answer? …..

If ther is no true adn certain answer why myprayes cant be answered.. then i guessi can believe that all things are still possible…  

luke 11:9:  “So I say to you , ask and it will be given to you seek adn you will find, knock and  it will be opened to you for everyone who asks receives, ad he whoseeks finds andto hm whoknowcks it will be opened…. 

  l so i am still  anticipating that prayers wil be answered…. so lets see……