yesterday… weird phone conversations last night planning today… but this morning was alright… i woke early… headed to Publix and bought a feast…. it was funny when i was checking out … over the loud speaker… when they play songs.. the store actually had playing that song by michael bubale… who sings the song on this website… the song about “Just haven’t met you yet” … isn’t that just a hoot… t it actually got e excited for a great day… and when i got home after a few chores.. i was on the treadmill… and played a ton of cd’s that I hadn’t heard in a long while.. its funny how you remember all the words to those old songs from college isn’t it?HA!
i actually saw a retired priest form st john’s catholic church… and when i bought the wick pick lotto and powerball tickets..Powerball is somewhere in the 2 hundred million…. i almost went over and asked him to bless them… but i didn’t have the nerve…
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for today’s meal… got lamb and chx. came home… make side salads.. then marinated the chix in the mustard and herbs provenance sauce… and made a lamb crusted herb coating for the lamb… had the asparagus. and potatoes… ready… and of course a b-day cake for my mom since there is a possibility that i may not get to see her for her b-day since she is going on a reunion for some of the Aramco housewives…. around her b-day…. and what was really weird the past few years.. is that i never get to actually speak to any family member on holidays and b-days.. probably for the past 8 years… and now everyone has celebrations on the wrong days…. for b-days… so i wanted to make sure she got a cake.. and a nice dinner.. and i guess i was hoping we could almost have another great day like we had when we got to watch movies all day.. and got to just have girl talk .. and to visit…. to have a friends to talk to .. to share memories..and to make great new memories… but especially got to laugh.. and be positive.. and to have a really nice day…
my entire life used to be filled with days like that… maybe i was just nieve not noticing if people cared or not… i guess i always cared so i assumed that everyone was authentic and genuine… i never saw if anyone had an agenda.. or was using me for a part in their own agenda…. or if they actually genuinely liked me.. or maybe i had people who actually reallly did like me.. loved me.. and enjoyed being my friend .. and hanging out… spending time with me and never looked at her watch to see when the time would have to be over… but then i guess someone like that isn’t a genuine friend right?
Have you ever noticed that so many people have their own agenda.. that there aren’t that many people who are selfless?… not just the ability to give presents.. or even give of time.. but to give truly of themselves.. to be totally honest… to be absolutely and completely in the moment able to really appreciate the moment… when your with family and friends… its such a pleasure to be able to be able to relax… know you have someone who is on your side.. so to speak.. to know you have someone who actually cares what you have to say.. what you really think about .. and to have real conversations about your interests and passions.. your thoughts.. and and are supportive of your hopes and dreams… and of your goals.. and would never belittle you or your life..
we ended up watching…. forgotten… kinda an upsetting movie in a way.. I thought my mom would have liked
talking about the movie… like when the freak( alien) was trying to take the very first memory from the mother the memory when she gave birth to her son…. so that she will never remember she ever had a son…. and how this experiment was all about erasing the bod a mother had for her children… and i guess in a way visa versa .. how a child had a bond with their parents..or family… what do you think? is that possible?… i don’t think a great and real, genuine, mother ever really would give up on finding their child.. of being great to their child… and would go to tremendous lengths to remember their child right?
just a thought but….
my mom was going to stay and watch the bachelorette… but left…