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Today i received an email from www.onebillionstories.com   it took me to the website where i was able to see a really cute song…. called the catholic pick up line song… ( I think i quoted the song correctly…. adn i hope the link actually works …. if it does… enjoy!  

so have you ever had one of those days… a bad day just because  you know when people are manipulating yoru life…. and today was a classic example of the stinky scummy karen kahel or some other “whore to door service  girl” who is running around ruining  lives for her own selfish intensions….  today  it botthered me that i was beign used to take the place of someone i dont even know… and being mistaken for someoone i dont want to be mistaken for…Uggthe whit haired whore and tresspassing bully karen kahel… UGGGG  for the last time i was born in ohio… did not go to ohio state… never went to ohio state like the bully karen kahel did…. UGG dont want her life or to be her or even to be mistataken for her…. or to be mistatken fo her at all! 

today i believe  someone got it into ther small little head that I should or could be mistaken for someone else.. not  just  anyone else .. but the worst person possible person on this planet…. the bully from  ohio state…. the mean and vicious.. girl who made my life hell… from ohio state ….. carlton lake living bully and scum of the earth….karen kahel … I’m not sure who she is screwing this weekend but since i have been baysitting… i’m assuming i’m being kept busy so she is free to destroy more lilves.. and  pleasure any of the scum i mean actors.. or conartists… what ever you want to call them… ( to me they are the scum ofthe earth…. ) but they are the boys….  mean boys who are in town for  the weekend of probably many weddings and many events. but usually ( at lest since my old roomate scott renshaw and karen kahel were speaking  in my driveway….. years ago… then chris ( the handyman  seemed to like her….) and can’t forget the boys from ohio in the neighborhood who like a loose girls who can trespass from  the next neighborhood over …..and “PLAY” i think is wheat they called it….  and god only knows whom  ever else she used to trespass into my complex to go and see …..

So my suspicions were aroused the day a woman… came to my door with a different story of looking for a neighbor… then when i came home after baysitting… the front door and the guest agrea had the same key when i usually make sure that when i change the keys and locks on all the doors… that they are all different.. to make it more of a derterrent  for the scum who used to break into my home whie i was babysitting and use my home to entertain themselves. Extrememly criminal… adn invasive adn wrong but these scum have not morals.. no values..and cannot tell right from wrong… they ar eactually to me worthless criminals and should be in jail… ( see my other web site i had to start because of all the infractions they havae committed…www.mysearchforjustice.com) 

anyway after the woman came to my door  tehn a wierd series of messages via email about jobs cancelling… which is usualy what the conartist scummy  whroes of the boys who dont have jobs or educations usually have done in the past … but they used to do allther crimiansl activity adn stealign over the phone ….. then last night this guy was walking outside on the  golf course  toward the interior of the complex… i only noticed him because of his gait… his walk was similar to a cousin  of mine tommy bodnar… but he held a phone over his face.. and was smoking a cigerette…  he was wearing  an orange  baseball cap… but since my real cousin is a dentist..and married  with tons of kids…and has other condos and homes in napels… I knew it couldnt have been him… but maybe it coud have been… one of the scummy guys screwing around with  karen  or kimmy orkaty…. whoever was in town…to service the boys…but not me…  never thought that once again i might be mistaken for  that trash and scum karn kahel… 

 anyway.. i figured…  it was probably just  some scummy actor… conartist or idiot who is the person screwing the white blond haired little whore this weekend. 

God i hate them! go ruin someone elses live…. i had a life.. i had a great life…  gosh i wish i had never met that scummy little whore in 2005… and definately never met the criminal gerard ahler in 2003….


T be honest, I was actually having a fine day…  at home……before I went that is… to go and run some errands..  had to go and get some super glue and had a gift card left over from  having to have locks changed after breakins  by the scummy  little “whore to door service girls and boys” …  also went to publix to go and pick up the wall street journal that I had on hold over the weekend…today they came out with the wsj magazine that I just  love to read…

but today started off bad  when  cut in line in front of me while we were in the in the 10 item line….and wanted cigerettes… wanted  to buy 4 packs of cigeretts…. she cut right in line… and  said something really wierd.. like… “she’s not mine” I don’t know if she was speaking  to someone else in the store …or since I was the only other perosn in line she was talking to me… or eventrying to speak of the cigeretts…. … I told her what  a nasty habit cigeretts were… and that i don’t smoke…. then it was just  like the one idiot who  was in  line at mobil gas station made it look like i was buying beer… when i was not…. … the cigeretts were right by my wsj.. so i picked up the paper ( that was all i was buying… and after paying for it left… )  then when i was leavign this car about cut me off… and had an ohio state liscense plate… which brought  back all the horrid memeories of karen kahel.. and  the bulling … and all the crap i went  through by these people who use the crap out of my life .. and ruin lives through ther manipulation and the games they play  to gratify their own  satisfaction!  what disgusting  selfish people!  definatley freinds or family woudl never do such things… but this has been going on since 2003 and i ve hated every minute of it !and curse the idiot who started  all this selfish manipulation! what scum.. they had choices to make loves better… and instead they selfishly ruin lives.. for ther own selfish intension…  i cant thnk of a lower form of person…  they have the same mentality of child abusers.. and any criminal on the face of this planet…

so have you ever had one of those days… a bad day just because  you know when people are manipulating yoru life…. and today was a classic example of the stinky scummy karen kahel or some other “whore to door service  girl” who is running around ruining  lives for her own selfish intensions….  today  it botthered me that i was beign used to take the place of someone i dont even know… and being mistaken for someoone i dont want to be mistaken for…Uggthe whit haired whore and tresspassing bully karen kahel… UGGGG  for the last time i was born in ohio… did not go to ohio state… never went to ohio state like the bully karen kahel did…. UGG dont want her life or to be her or even to be mistataken for her…. or to be mistatken fo her at all! 

today i believe  someone got it into ther small little head that I should or could be mistaken for someone else.. not  just  anyone else .. but the worst person possible person on this planet…. the bully from  ohio state…. the mean and vicious.. girl who made my life hell… from ohio state ….. carlton lake living bully and scum of the earth….karen kahel … I’m not sure who she is screwing this weekend but since i have been baysitting… i’m assuming i’m being kept busy so she is free to destroy more lilves.. and  pleasure any of the scum i mean actors.. or conartists… what ever you want to call them… ( to me they are the scum ofthe earth…. ) but they are the boys….  mean boys who are in town for  the weekend of probably many weddings and many events. but usually ( at lest since my old roomate scott renshaw and karen kahel were speaking  in my driveway….. years ago… then chris ( the handyman  seemed to like her….) and can’t forget the boys from ohio in the neighborhood who like a loose girls who can trespass from  the next neighborhood over …..and “PLAY” i think is wheat they called it….  and god only knows whom  ever else she used to trespass into my complex to go and see …..

So my suspicions were aroused the day a woman… came to my door with a different story of looking for a neighbor… then when i came home after baysitting… the front door and the guest agrea had the same key when i usually make sure that when i change the keys and locks on all the doors… that they are all different.. to make it more of a derterrent  for the scum who used to break into my home whie i was babysitting and use my home to entertain themselves. Extrememly criminal… adn invasive adn wrong but these scum have not morals.. no values..and cannot tell right from wrong… they ar eactually to me worthless criminals and should be in jail… ( see my other web site i had to start because of all the infractions they havae committed…www.mysearchforjustice.com) 

anyway after the woman came to my door  tehn a wierd series of messages via email about jobs cancelling… which is usualy what the conartist scummy  whroes of the boys who dont have jobs or educations usually have done in the past … but they used to do allther crimiansl activity adn stealign over the phone ….. then last night this guy was walking outside on the  golf course  toward the interior of the complex… i only noticed him because of his gait… his walk was similar to a cousin  of mine tommy bodnar… but he held a phone over his face.. and was smoking a cigerette…  he was wearing  an orange  baseball cap… but since my real cousin is a dentist..and married  with tons of kids…and has other condos and homes in napels… I knew it couldnt have been him… but maybe it coud have been… one of the scummy guys screwing around with  karen  or kimmy orkaty…. whoever was in town…to service the boys…but not me…  never thought that once again i might be mistaken for  that trash and scum karn kahel… 

 anyway.. i figured…  it was probably just  some scummy actor… conartist or idiot who is the person screwing the white blond haired little whore this weekend. 

God i hate them! go ruin someone elses live…. i had a life.. i had a great life…  gosh i wish i had never met that scummy little whore in 2005… and definately never met the criminal gerard ahler in 2003….


T be honest, I was actually having a fine day…  at home……before I went that is… to go and run some errands..  had to go and get some super glue and had a gift card left over from  having to have locks changed after breakins  by the scummy  little “whore to door service girls and boys” …  also went to publix to go and pick up the wall street journal that I had on hold over the weekend…today they came out with the wsj magazine that I just  love to read…

but today started off bad  when  cut in line in front of me while we were in the in the 10 item line….and wanted cigerettes… wanted  to buy 4 packs of cigeretts…. she cut right in line… and  said something really wierd.. like… “she’s not mine” I don’t know if she was speaking  to someone else in the store …or since I was the only other perosn in line she was talking to me… or eventrying to speak of the cigeretts…. … I told her what  a nasty habit cigeretts were… and that i don’t smoke…. then it was just  like the one idiot who  was in  line at mobil gas station made it look like i was buying beer… when i was not…. … the cigeretts were right by my wsj.. so i picked up the paper ( that was all i was buying… and after paying for it left… )  then when i was leavign this car about cut me off… and had an ohio state liscense plate… which brought  back all the horrid memeories of karen kahel.. and  the bulling … and all the crap i went  through by these people who use the crap out of my life .. and ruin lives through ther manipulation and the games they play  to gratify their own  satisfaction!  what disgusting  selfish people!  definatley freinds or family woudl never do such things… but this has been going on since 2003 and i ve hated every minute of it !and curse the idiot who started  all this selfish manipulation! what scum.. they had choices to make loves better… and instead they selfishly ruin lives.. for ther own selfish intension…  i cant thnk of a lower form of person…  they have the same mentality of child abusers.. and any criminal on the face of this planet…

so have you ever had one of those days… a bad day just because  you know when people are manipulating yoru life…. and today was a classic example of the stinky scummy karen kahel or some other “whore to door service  girl” who is running around ruining  lives for her own selfish intensions….  today  it botthered me that i was beign used to take the place of someone i dont even know… and being mistaken for someoone i dont want to be mistaken for…Uggthe whit haired whore and tresspassing bully karen kahel… UGGGG  for the last time i was born in ohio… did not go to ohio state… never went to ohio state like the bully karen kahel did…. UGG dont want her life or to be her or even to be mistataken for her…. or to be mistatken fo her at all! 

today i believe  someone got it into ther small little head that I should or could be mistaken for someone else.. not  just  anyone else .. but the worst person possible person on this planet…. the bully from  ohio state…. the mean and vicious.. girl who made my life hell… from ohio state ….. carlton lake living bully and scum of the earth….karen kahel … I’m not sure who she is screwing this weekend but since i have been baysitting… i’m assuming i’m being kept busy so she is free to destroy more lilves.. and  pleasure any of the scum i mean actors.. or conartists… what ever you want to call them… ( to me they are the scum ofthe earth…. ) but they are the boys….  mean boys who are in town for  the weekend of probably many weddings and many events. but usually ( at lest since my old roomate scott renshaw and karen kahel were speaking  in my driveway….. years ago… then chris ( the handyman  seemed to like her….) and can’t forget the boys from ohio in the neighborhood who like a loose girls who can trespass from  the next neighborhood over …..and “PLAY” i think is wheat they called it….  and god only knows whom  ever else she used to trespass into my complex to go and see …..

So my suspicions were aroused the day a woman… came to my door with a different story of looking for a neighbor… then when i came home after baysitting… the front door and the guest agrea had the same key when i usually make sure that when i change the keys and locks on all the doors… that they are all different.. to make it more of a derterrent  for the scum who used to break into my home whie i was babysitting and use my home to entertain themselves. Extrememly criminal… adn invasive adn wrong but these scum have not morals.. no values..and cannot tell right from wrong… they ar eactually to me worthless criminals and should be in jail… ( see my other web site i had to start because of all the infractions they havae committed…www.mysearchforjustice.com) 

anyway after the woman came to my door  tehn a wierd series of messages via email about jobs cancelling… which is usualy what the conartist scummy  whroes of the boys who dont have jobs or educations usually have done in the past … but they used to do allther crimiansl activity adn stealign over the phone ….. then last night this guy was walking outside on the  golf course  toward the interior of the complex… i only noticed him because of his gait… his walk was similar to a cousin  of mine tommy bodnar… but he held a phone over his face.. and was smoking a cigerette…  he was wearing  an orange  baseball cap… but since my real cousin is a dentist..and married  with tons of kids…and has other condos and homes in napels… I knew it couldnt have been him… but maybe it coud have been… one of the scummy guys screwing around with  karen  or kimmy orkaty…. whoever was in town…to service the boys…but not me…  never thought that once again i might be mistaken for  that trash and scum karn kahel… 

 anyway.. i figured…  it was probably just  some scummy actor… conartist or idiot who is the person screwing the white blond haired little whore this weekend. 

God i hate them! go ruin someone elses live…. i had a life.. i had a great life…  gosh i wish i had never met that scummy little whore in 2005… and definately never met the criminal gerard ahler in 2003….


T be honest, I was actually having a fine day…  at home……before I went that is… to go and run some errands..  had to go and get some super glue and had a gift card left over from  having to have locks changed after breakins  by the scummy  little “whore to door service girls and boys” …  also went to publix to go and pick up the wall street journal that I had on hold over the weekend…today they came out with the wsj magazine that I just  love to read…

but today started off bad  when  cut in line in front of me while we were in the in the 10 item line….and wanted cigerettes… wanted  to buy 4 packs of cigeretts…. she cut right in line… and  said something really wierd.. like… “she’s not mine” I don’t know if she was speaking  to someone else in the store …or since I was the only other perosn in line she was talking to me… or eventrying to speak of the cigeretts…. … I told her what  a nasty habit cigeretts were… and that i don’t smoke…. then it was just  like the one idiot who  was in  line at mobil gas station made it look like i was buying beer… when i was not…. … the cigeretts were right by my wsj.. so i picked up the paper ( that was all i was buying… and after paying for it left… )  then when i was leavign this car about cut me off… and had an ohio state liscense plate… which brought  back all the horrid memeories of karen kahel.. and  the bulling … and all the crap i went  through by these people who use the crap out of my life .. and ruin lives through ther manipulation and the games they play  to gratify their own  satisfaction!  what disgusting  selfish people!  definatley freinds or family woudl never do such things… but this has been going on since 2003 and i ve hated every minute of it !and curse the idiot who started  all this selfish manipulation! what scum.. they had choices to make loves better… and instead they selfishly ruin lives.. for ther own selfish intension…  i cant thnk of a lower form of person…  they have the same mentality of child abusers.. and any criminal on the face of this planet…

 a joke sent from a friend of my mother’s (we knew in saudi) 

called ( smart girl email ) -joke- 
Ahhhhh finally a real woman’s answer you go girl ! 

A Teacher asked her class what do youwant out of life ?
a little girl in the back row raised her head and said:
 “All i want out of life is 4 little animals” 
the teacher asked “really and what 4 little animals would that be sugar?” 
the little girl said ” A mink on my  back/ a jaguar in the  garage/ a tiger in the  bed and a jackass to pay for it all”

The teacher fainted! 
 

1. You cnat answer teh question “where are you from?” ( and when youdo youget into an elaborate ocnversation that gets everyone confused and or makes yousound very spoiled.)
2.  You flew befor youcold walk.
3.  You have a passport , but no driver’s license.
4.  Youthnk california is cold
5.  youwatch national geographic specials and recognize someone ( actually recognize many plaaces!)
6.  you run into someone you know at every  airport
7.  conversations with riends take plac at 6:00in the morning or 10:00pm at night
8.  your life story uses the phrase “then we went to” five times 
9.  can speak with authority about the quality of various international  airlines 
10.  You live at school and go  home for vacation 
11.  you have ever had to wait for prayer call to be over to  finish shopping
12.  you know it is truely is a small world 
13.  you have ever gone to the “hammam” or endured a “shamal”
14.  you get allhth ejokes in aladdin 
15.  rain is still one of the most wonderful sounds in the world 
16.  you haggle wiht the checkoutclerk for a lower price 
17.  your wardrobe can handle two seasons: hot and warm 
18.  youthink visa is a document spamped in your passport not a plastic card ou cayy in your wallet 
19.  your dorm room apartment living room looks a little like a museums with  all the exotic things  you have around   
20.  you have sat  in a men’s’ or women’s section in an airport /restaurant/ hospital 
21.  you ask your roomate wen te hhouseboy is scheduled ot come clean 
22.  you have never spent a summer with your friends from high school because youall go back to yoru home town state country June – august 
23.  yougot days off for  christian and muslim holidays 
24.  traveling  to the states required buying candy, CD’s and abercrombie and ritch clothing for your friends back overseas.
25.  youdidnt know how to do your daundry until uou left for collee ( actually i had to learn for bordign school…. no laundry service at my school… but most bordign schools had laundry services!)
26.  one world “yalla” 
27.  you   call a taxi a limo and are confused when its not a mercedes … also  all ac mercedes busses…
27.  any time you submit an appication you  atttach 500 riyals to “help ” it along 
28.  you   think the speed limit is just good advice not something really to pay attention to  
29.  you start a stamp  collection from  your own mail 
30.  you start a  have a doll collection.. from all the countreis you have traveled
31.   you have a charm bracelet with  real charms from  real countries you’ve traveled….  
 

9.  you

so here is the question i posed to my old roomate scott renshaw when i was chatting with him last night online…. so how many girls does it take to ame up one fake perfect girl?

some has to be able to:
golf, swim, play tennis,  run, make a last minute picnic, be hostess to a dinner party, great with kids, animals,  be thin enough, tall enough, pretty enough( opps almost forgot that one and these shallow halls… sure want to make sure their girls are pretty enough HA! )   educated enough… oh and scott reminded me that  you can’t  have a “whore to door service  girl”… with out the whore part of it … HA!

so since no one really can be all those things… all at once…. and all the time….except for the girls who lie cheat and steal everything…. and about everything…. how many girls does it take….(?)

and how do these lovely conartist do it…. they use innocent girls to do ther dirty work… like a cleaning crew to make sure their house or condo (they break into to use for ther games)…  is clean enough… or a cook to make it look like they can cook… or a babysitter  to make it seem they are great with kids ?… or a girl   who can  play golf or can swim.. or can run… whatever the criteria… then make sur ethey all are baout the same height and weight… and can share clothes… or from the back of ther head .. if bychance you took a picture of them.. theymight be mistaken for the perosn who is trying ot catch er next victim… i mean  mate…HA!

so here is the question i posed to my old roommate scott renshaw when i was chatting with him last night online…. so how many girls does it take to make  up one fake “perfect girl”?

this girl has to be:          and be able to:
golf, swim, play tennis, ski or other winder sports,  run, make a last minute picnic, be hostess to a dinner party, great with kids, animals, artistic, great decorator, nurse, teacher, great at sports, look great in all situations, musically inclined, and always smile and be happy,  and have enough energy to be up for anything, be sociable, fun, popular, nice, basically perfect at everything, al the time,   be thin enough, tall enough, pretty enough( oops almost forgot that one and these shallow halls… sure want to make sure their girls are pretty enough HA! )   educated enough… oh and scott reminded me that  you can’t  have a “whore to door service  girl”… with out the whore part of it … HA!  

so since no one really can be all those things… all at once…. and all the time…….. how many girls does it take….(?)   

and how do these lovely conartist do it…. they use innocent girls to do their dirty work… like a cleaning crew to make sure their house or condo (they break into to use for their games)…  is clean enough… or a cook to make it look like they can cook… or a babysitter  to make it seem they are great with kids ?… or a girl   who can  play golf or can swim.. or can run… whatever the criteria… then make sure they all are about the same height and weight… and can share clothes… or from the back of their head .. if by chance you took a picture of them.. they might be mistaken for the person who is trying to catch er next victim… i mean  mate…HA!  

then of course you cant forget all the supporting characters… the people who make the entire process possible.. the ones who get all the real girls out of the way…. and make sure that the only people surrounding the guy or girl… depending on the victim… are only  isolated and surrounded by their chosen “players”… then devise some sort of scene that will allow the  girl or guy to be just  great…. or look great anyway… and in the process you can’t  forget to make everyone else  look bad…..  nothing real about he entire thing… no real conversions… not anyone really knowing anything about anyone…. or any real situation… it all goes back to the TESTS the boys think will allow them to chose the girls they want…. but i can tell you from  experience going  through bad experiences just  to test someone is not….” like”.. or “love” or even “friendship” ….

I went out and bought two cds… last night… the one by Sara Bareilles called kaleidoscope heat
remember i have the song #5: king of anything  and # 6:  Say your sorry…. is now also one of my favorites…… 


the thing  about saying your sorry…. it doesn’t change a thing….. it really doesn’t make anything better….
here are the words of that song….(i’ll put them all in later….)

“say your sorry( wont you please) say your sorry say you’re sorry -circus of silence- down at our feet paper cut tigers starting to bleed – hang from your tightrope above  the mess just say your sorry no more no less 
words you won’t use..you  don’t feel them like I do……. 


 So what happened to real romance?… and real relationships?…. and having real meaningful conversations?… like meeting someone you dont know and want to get to know so you spend hours talking…. or going out on dates… sharing stories… and actually getting to really know the person!  

None of this lying to  be someone else…or manipulationg ….. but real honest to goodness relationships…. Sheesh….. isn’t anyone in this town normal anymore?   but also  wonderful…

so here is the question i posed to my old roomate scott renshaw when i was chatting with him last night online…. so how many girls does it take to ame up one fake perfect girl?

some has to be able to:
golf, swim, play tennis, make a last minute picnic, be hostess to a dinner party, great with kids, animals,  be thin enough, tall enough, pretty enough( opps almost forgot that one and these shallow halls… sure want to make sure their girls are pretty enough HA! )   educated enough…

so sine noone really can be all those things… except for the girls who lie cheat and steal everything…. and about everything…. how many girls does it take….(?)

Oh boy do i have a lot to say about  morning Joe…. first only  words of praise for ted dansen… and his book.. and his adventure…. venture into the education of  making people aware of the  ocean’… life… really liked his cause… and him… when i was visiting Beth serlin.. and  having lunch with a friend  barbara aguto…( who lived in La at the time.)… we were in Santa monica…and he and his wife were at the same  restaurant…. maybe it was that they seemed pretty normal..and real… not as plastic…or “wanna beeish”..  that struck me as really nice…  anyway.. hope his message gets the attention it deserves….i would hate to lose…. the oceans.. the life in the oceans…     
 when i was yoonger.. myfamly wenet onthis campig trip… to the red sea.. where my dad let us snorkle and see the marvels….. i remember vivid colored fish.. and coral… i’ve heard that it has all changed…. a bit… what  a shame… 
  
anyway…  

   I was babysititng at the port royal club yeserday… and love the beaches here in Naples… the most amazing sunsets.. the msot peaceful and wonderful moments… the  kids playing in the water…  some absolutely great moments…. being in Ras Tanura… the beaches… actually living  right on the beach for our last house….  really nice memories.. for childhood… and even as an adult… seeig nthe amazing sunsets… walking along the sand…

but what absolutely made me walk out of the room… the hippe…  who  was wealthy.and now lives in a trailer park! WHAT?????? claiming that money and material possessions are bad! that they are th eroot of all evil… totally misquoted bible verse… UGGGGGG!!!!!! all i can think of to say is STUPID>>>> STUPID!!!!!!
I CANT STAND adn honestly distest witha pssion people who pretend that money is bad.. that it is the ruin of all civilization… that it is evil….

THAT TALENT  YOU HAD   MISTER….. WAS  A GIFT…. THAT ALLOWED YOU TO GAIN FINANCES.. THOSE FINANCES COULD HAVE BEEN USED TO  CREATE BUSINESSES… THAT WOULD EMPLOY MORE PEOPLE… TO START FOUNDATIONS… PHILANTHROPHY….   should have allowed him to DO MORE! so much more…. whata  aste of a gift…. and i dont mean the money…. or even the possessions he used for himself. but just  the opportunity… what a waste of an opportunity….

now how is living in a trailer park..goging to make an impact on the world?… . how many lives can he change for the better?… his immediate neighbors?   In his town? in his state?  In his country?  in the world?  HE  had the opportunity to use his wealth.. his connections.. his influence…. to make a real impact… ( all i can think of to say… is what a stupid and small minded decision.!!!!!!!!!..! what a waste of a gift he was given…. !!!!!!!!!!) 

maybe i”m a little jaded… i heard all this “crap” from patric garland who was my roomate for a while… he treid to tell me ( while misquoting the bible as well…) that pruning…was good….  giving up everything..anything material and everyting material.. was supposed to be this nobel thing….  infact i even had people try to use misquoted bible verses like the one about the eye of the needle… and camel.. ( yep.. they thoguht that one was realy cute especiallysicn ei grew up in saudi…)  but i was told that that caring  about material pssessions..  was jsut this horrible thing… of course they  were saying these wonderfl misquotes form the bible while they were also stealing from me…. and then using the reasoning  that they were teaching me to not care about material things.. that by havign my pssessions stolen.. that  it was makign me less materialistic… and someonehow it was alright that my possessions were stolen .. you werent supposed to care about them… right?HA!   . UGGGGGGGGG!!!!!interesting  reasoning coming from  some of the thieves…..
oh wait.. they said the things they were taking of mine… were just  souvineres… ( to them maybe … but to me they were still my memories… my possessions… and no mater how you look at it… taking them was and is stealing… but now i’m oof the subject…) speaking of the souvineres… that have been taken.. along with the backpacking  pictures.. and sorority pictures…and ear rings given to me by my father.. …i was in my closet  reorganiing a few things.. and found that i am stilmissing one pillow case ( small regualr… with little poka dots.. from a sheet set my mother gave me from bloomingdagles… and one monagramed face cloth that my mom had given me  for boarding school…. ) its jsut the wiredest things these criminals take!



anyway.. back to the hippee….. this person could have majorily  made changes for a lot of people..i mean really….. how many people ‘s lives can he improve now? he could  have…. started businesses…..  started foundations. ….

what the hell is he going to do from his trailer park?  how many people does he employ?…  even when he did have his manisons… in his manisons.. he had tons of people who were employed..right?….. he could have even  started college scholarships for his employess..  or if he wanted to do someothing for people he didn’t know… taken children from  a nearby school  or organization..   for further education..if he watned to stay in film… do a documentary… do something.. jsut dont throw away the opportunity… the gift you were given… when you decided you had enough… the excess… that was to be sued to make more money… when you have more you can do more…

Can his actions really help the people in japan right now?… by him living  in a trailer park…  adn with no money… what the hell can he do?.. ( i actually don’t  know if he doesn’t  have any money or does have money.. but if he doesn’t  have any money…. its not like he had this drug problem… or alchol problem.. or mental problem… right?… he didnt have bernie madoff stel all his money…. right? 

but if he had his weatlh his connections.. his inflence on people govermnemtn agencies..he actually coud have made a difference.. 

Money isnt bad ag all it gives youfreedom to do … 

I never begrudge my sister for having it all.. in palm beach.. I’m not even jelious ofher. i am prooud of her.. of her accomplishments… of what she has achieved.. i know that she does alot for others… tht she was by my side when we were growing up in saudi.. hadd the opportunity to achieve a  world view…. of people of situations .. which by the way was only afforded to us by having  the $ to do so.. and my moms entreprenurial achievemet of creating a travel business from  her home in a country where whe wasn’t even allowed  to drive a car!..and thatnks to my fathers choices in where he was going to work… alllowed us world travel…. and the finances.. gosh i hope the hippe doenst have any children… that he will begrudge the opportuities his finances could have provided… for  education… and travel … and  not allow his children to have ncie items… or a nice life… maybe teh entire thing is off balance… maybe his was new money and he ddid know wht he coudl do with it… or he somehow felt guilty for having it.. or
what ever his issues… i have no clue… but  maybe ther should be some sort of educational course mabye they shoudl be allowd t travel aorund the world… stay at nce pleces and not so nice places.. see hte real world…  adn then see wht opportunities ar out there… lke how much one dollar can achieve… in another country… or see what extra money can achieve.. or hell jsut go around america…. if you were goign to jsut throw awayteh opportunity to amek a diffeence.. see the faces of the children who wil die because of lack of funds for that medical treatment… or teh chdren who wont get the colege eduction tha tcoudl not only change ther lives but an entire generation… UGGGG!

I  think money is great..i think now… that money is one of the most valuable things there is…. so far in these past 7 years that is what has given the bullies influlence… has alllowed them opportunities to steal.. to cheat.. the manipulate… to run lives… or ruin lives… 

Somedays …I feel like i am in the middle of one of patricks stupid lessons… messed up lesson… where he wanted to take everything   away.. susposedly to make me a better person….oh wait.. that was gerards lesson as well right? UGGGG!!!!!

I am a changed person… from the once overly generous  perosn who would give almost anything  and everything…. to those i loved and cherised and even to aquaintences.. and often times stranges.. this entrie “lesson” has  made me think and about 9 times out of ten  adn then make the choice to not do what i would be inclined to do….or what i used to do…  I mean i ‘m not  mean or anything about it.. i dont lie..I dont cheat or steal like th  horrid peope ive come across… but  instead i jsut started  to do what everyone  else does. i thnk of myself…adn make sure i have enough before givning something … s   it still really feels great to give form the heart.. but myheat has ee so disappointd in people… andin the selfishness of people… that allther influences have changed how i view people….  istead of giving out unconditionally…. like when i believed the world had more  than enough…. 




i have to know that i will keep it ne . who does he think actually gives the grants?.. or makes possible even theavailability of the arts for the disadvantgaged? or even sports… which imparts lifelong lessons in sportsmanship… 

he mentioned tha his dad helped @ st judes… I didnt catch the entire speech.. because i literally had to walk out of the room… i jsut couldnt believe the  things spewing out of htis guys mouth.. i mean he couldnt be for real…. right? 

What is so wrong with  having nice things> Imean oprah…. if she hadnt been sucessful.. he wouldn’t  have been alowed the oportunity to do the angel network? was that what it was called? wehre she was able to  help others… 

or even kappa alpha theta.. I was in charge  of philanthrophy… for our alumani association… at christmas time… donations and gifts… gift cards…  the women who helped… make a difference.. otherwise without money… they opportunities wouldnt have existed…. 

COULD YOU PEOPLE GET REAL!!!!!!!!!!!