Wednesday december 22nd 2010 @10:23am ( busy morning… upset about manipulation of my life)

 so this morning did start out really early…. up and got to see the pope yes, catholic pope….. in french, English and German HA!   Had a ton of chores to do…. so finished with laundry… and with dishes even on the treadmill for and hour and did some sit ups and leg lifts….  sounds so boring.. but things must be done… of course on my wish list… i had planned on having a cleaning lady to assist with chores.. and a personal trainer…. and even having fresh flowers sent every two weeks… ….  OOOOOOHHHHHHHHH……yes.. when I wrote out my affirmations I really had planned for a great life..  wished upon a star.. prayed… and worked toward my goals…. wish I had never met those scummy girls who steal lives and identities.. and those disgusting boys who will pretty much do anything for them because they are screwing them… and if the girls are smart which so many of them are.. they get knocked up…..then  get to have all their bills paid….  paid and if they need a green card which some of the  nannies did.. they can then just have the instant family… the guarantee of American citizenship… and by not being truthful or doing whatever to “catch the guy” ……and   by playing the “game”… maybe even have a whole group of boys  to pay their bills……  hey…. what  if they get the gay guy to seduce them… or the actor.. or the con artist.. (you can take your pick as to which title you want to use when you refer to them.. believe you me.. it doesn’t  matter they all mean the same thing….  ) … they are  honestly all the same…..its amazing …. then they have one  or maybe even tow or  three guys taking their turns… with the same girl…. right?…  boys?….taking shifts….. well then the scam…..what did  they called it in the one website?… of yea… eh…. the  sweetheart scam……so then the “seduction”  or the use of the whore to door service girls will have been worth all the effort… of course the boys /actors /con artists will definitely have to look similar..maybe one a bit younger.. one a bit older…  but same height… you know right?….

anyway…. I am in a pissy mood because when i called to speak with my mom… I asked if she had brought anyone back from the other coast…. and with the definition being a whore to door service girls is one of the girls that the boys will have  come over at 11pm…. this “mom” mentioned  this morning….that she was in bed by 11pm…. I didn’t think my 72 year old mother was going to be one of the girls who would go out to see a boy at night….don’t now why she was soooooo defensive… if it really was my own real mother on the phone.. right? anyway….  I just always wonder what their real wives will think… or there other mistresses…or actresses….or should we just call them all sluts…HA!!!!!!definitely they are all fakes.. and definitely they are not reputable or honest or good… in anyway… but then when is a criminal ever good in one part of their lives.. i think if they lie in small ways they lie in big ways… if they cheat they will also steal and so on and so on HA!… but then if they
have no scruples… or morals or values… why should i worry about
them?..HA!  Guess i am in a bit of a pissy mood today.. can you tell?
OHHH i absolutely hate………Scummmmmm……. slime….. ugg… criminals… HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway late last while while discussing the two cases proving phone  fraud… I got into a discussion about the person I was to babysit for off Davis blvd.  Did i mention this before?….. Ii was supposed to be babysitting  for  a lawyer…and instead it was for  stripper or one of the boy’s side kicks.. some porno person…. or stripper… from Ohio…. who went to Vegas to go and get another husband……..Ugg.. think that was most definitely a job that was stolen…. I mean the real job for the lawyer was probably stolen….

And of course it doesn’t matter what someone does for a living they might be a nice person………. but it actually does matter… if they are lying to me .. or somehow involving me in anything criminal or illegal… or if they are doing anything criminal or illegal.. like stealing my identity… or stealing my job.. or stealing my business….even stealing babysitting supplies…  stealing is  a crime…

Anyway… I had  mentioned that Scott had said I  wouldn’t be alone  this Christmas… I have no idea how he was proposing to do that?… i kinda thought that maybe his present would be seeing my sisters and my mom and dad…  and nieces…but i was also told (could be another lie) that they were traveling to Atlanta… or somewhere in Georgia… I didn’t think there was anyone they knew from Georgia except their friend  DJ Fairbanks…. so then I was thinking that… maybe whoever got into my Christmas present…. was there another theft?…….. stole the real story of what this  holiday was supposed to be like….  for me… and by manipulating my life once again .. i miss out on everything…

 but then i have been told  i don’t matter… that no one cares… and oh yeah… i should get over it… and get used to just  being  a pawn  to be used for someone to have the life they want….. for this  someone else…. their life is important….. because i am not important… right?????

Thank God I never slept with any of these screwy boys…. UGGGGG …….

So if plans for Christmas were screwed up yet once again because someone was more valuable.. taller.. or prettier.. or blonder or not blond.. who knows  what the boys are pursuing…..  or whatever these boys are “using” this week….

anyway…. if plans were screwed up again…. that would mean when i was speaking with Scott over Skype..  that they have not only screwed up my phone  but also Skype….   I  know there is a way to video tape a conversation… but and what can be done to a video tape… is it like any move film…. looping… ( don’t really know much about it… but i know there are ways to manipulate pretty much anything…..  ) did they do a video tape and do a voice over of me speaking?… maybe telling someone when to meet/what’s going on… FOR REAL>>>>>>>probably messing up everything again….  wonder if they brought a girl over for a wedding… or just to steal presents…. like the past 7 years……

this Pissy mood started late last night when i was so excited to finally have some definitive proof of girls stealing jobs through the cell phone use… and when my “mom” wasn’t happy to catch a crook.. i knew something was wrong….I mean for real.. what honest to goodness real live mother wouldn’t stand behind her daughter and make sure she is never harmed… and would go to amazing lengths to make sure that any criminals are stopped from harming her further.. especially when it involved a business….  Her business she started in 1990…….

My hopes and dreams  were valuable to me…. and  there were  goals i wanted for my life… well as i mentioned before .. i got a start on them.. created a business…. planned on going to school.. for interior design..or MBA… or whatever.. planned on new furniture.. new car… everything great… but as I mentioned before.. meet one disgusting criminal and their friends and family and nothing will ever be the way it should have been or should be….

and i was even told.. “no one cares”… “that i don’t matter”... that  but that was way before i
became the “property”( at least that is what it feels like)  of people who are really not interested in my welfare.. how could they be these have been criminals who are nothing
but selfish and ego based.. they cant see beyond what is in it for
them.
.. and who can they use to get it… UGGGGGGGGG…..

ohhhh yes.. the pissy mood…. actually it is because I found out that my mom just came back from the other coast… when i didn’t even know she had gone…
 and if you remember  correctly…I
was  wondering if she brought over one of the “whore to door service girls” for the “boys”… and not that i really care about them( the girls or the boys…. )  i am more worried about the consequences of what might happen while i am babysitting…. Will the girls break into my home again?.. will they steal clothes for an outing?.. for a wedding?... or for a trip… or for  yes probably a another wedding for the entire troupe of con artist i mean actors.. i mean criminals.. i mean selfish and heartless human beings….  so i can work while .. yet again i don’t get to experience any part of life that would be great and normal and fun…. feeling like Cinderella… or bell or any of those Disney damsels…  at times.. but did they  have a great and wonderful life before the mean people came into the picture???????

Its really like being in  a prison without walls when you can’t speak with the family and friends who honestly care about you.. or cant just chat with  the people who actually do have your back.. who want you to be happy.. not all these selfish and ego driven idiots who believe that the entire world revolves around them???????and they can use anyone in this world to get what they want…. what kind of a person is like that????