October 14th 2010 Last entry for today …. For my mother A keepsake of thanks and memories of growing up

The book “For my mother keepsake of thanks and memories of growing up”

Question:  The time i missed you most was….

Now…. Even though you have always been close to my heart I’ve missed your physical presence your daily updates, your laughter your sharing  your unconditional love and the way you made my life seem somehow important and made me feel so very well loved..

Somehow growing up you made me feel important, you helped me to feel validated, and needed but most importantly you always made me feel loved-even miles away in boarding school you sent your love and i just new you were there to be my hero and my champion no matter what … when traveling internationally your reminders kept me close to you in my heart – when love seemed to be absent from anyone i cared for you were always there .. so i never missed  you  before now… it was not having you here for my 43rd birthday that made me really miss you when you actually do pass away i will miss your presence always luv mary jean ziska